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i have all these emotions floating around idk what to do with myself.
i stopped talking to my baby's father after the last time he tried calling to talk?whatever.
it's been about a month.
i'm glad that i could finally take myself out of that situation.
i've never had someone treat me so poorly.
i didn't know half of the stuff he was doing or saying about me while we were together which at that point i thought everything was fine,i thought we cared for eachother but it was a one sideded deal.
i just feel lonely at times and yes i admit as dumb as it is i do miss him sometimes or maybe just his company.
i tried getting rid of some ppl in my life but opened up to them again after i said i wouldn't and what do you know i should have just gone with my instincts.
i got hurt again but at this point it really doesn't even matter,i've grown used to it considering all the shit that happend while being with chris and is still happening to me.
i opened up to someone that i thought i could trust,who i was still madly in love with only to have him call me lastnight and go on and on about how beautiful some girl is and how he wants to be with her but she's "too beautiful for him".
as of late it seems that ppl like tossing my emotions around,like it doesn't even matter to them.
they kick me when i'm down.
i feel as if my family doesn't even want me around.
they all went for a picnic today and didn't invite me until they were already out the door and my mom replied with "she doesn't want to go,she want's to stay home and relax" i guess my mind was made up for me.
idk what i'm trying to say,i guess i just feel so alone right now,worried,stressed,low.
idk,does it even matter?
i'm gonna go for a long walk and clear my head.
bye.
i stopped talking to my baby's father after the last time he tried calling to talk?whatever.
it's been about a month.
i'm glad that i could finally take myself out of that situation.
i've never had someone treat me so poorly.
i didn't know half of the stuff he was doing or saying about me while we were together which at that point i thought everything was fine,i thought we cared for eachother but it was a one sideded deal.
i just feel lonely at times and yes i admit as dumb as it is i do miss him sometimes or maybe just his company.
i tried getting rid of some ppl in my life but opened up to them again after i said i wouldn't and what do you know i should have just gone with my instincts.
i got hurt again but at this point it really doesn't even matter,i've grown used to it considering all the shit that happend while being with chris and is still happening to me.
i opened up to someone that i thought i could trust,who i was still madly in love with only to have him call me lastnight and go on and on about how beautiful some girl is and how he wants to be with her but she's "too beautiful for him".
as of late it seems that ppl like tossing my emotions around,like it doesn't even matter to them.
they kick me when i'm down.
i feel as if my family doesn't even want me around.
they all went for a picnic today and didn't invite me until they were already out the door and my mom replied with "she doesn't want to go,she want's to stay home and relax" i guess my mind was made up for me.
idk what i'm trying to say,i guess i just feel so alone right now,worried,stressed,low.
idk,does it even matter?
i'm gonna go for a long walk and clear my head.
bye.