Holiday Cheer, Perhaps?
I don't know if it's because the holidays are FINALLY here.. but I have been in a fantastic mood lately! It really seems like things in my life are slowly coming together. I am working my ass of to keep my credit score up and keep the bills paid.I hate working at TJM. But, I am a "customer service junkie". The best part is making others happy and helping others find gifts for their loved ones.... I am staying positive no matter what kind of bullshit drama I hear from Florida. Right now, I'm doing what makes ME happy. On my days off, I go out by myself and take pictures. I spend time with Burrito. I'm keeping in contact with my family. And I'm not allowing myself to be down.
There are times where I find myself reminiscing about the past. What it could of been and where everything went wrong. How did I become the person I am? Why I couldn't of been the one "he" loves...But, I force myself to snap out of it and realize I can't change the past. I can't change other people. But, I can change how I react to situations. I can start putting myself first. And I WILL change how I allow people to step all over me.
The new government job seems to becoming along..slowly. I have another interview on the 1st. I have 30 pages of paperwork to get done before then. I am really excited to start this job. Next year, I won't have to worry as much about how much money I'm spending while Christmas shopping. I won't have to worry if I should pay this bill or gas or food. It'll be nice. I'll finally be able to buy my own condo. I'll have my space. I'll be able to decorate it the way I want. I'll finally be able to hold my own. AND, I'll be able to get Burrito a little sister. :)
I'm not planning on any relationships in the future. Not because he stole a part of my soul. But because I have NO desire for one.
There are times where I find myself reminiscing about the past. What it could of been and where everything went wrong. How did I become the person I am? Why I couldn't of been the one "he" loves...But, I force myself to snap out of it and realize I can't change the past. I can't change other people. But, I can change how I react to situations. I can start putting myself first. And I WILL change how I allow people to step all over me.
The new government job seems to becoming along..slowly. I have another interview on the 1st. I have 30 pages of paperwork to get done before then. I am really excited to start this job. Next year, I won't have to worry as much about how much money I'm spending while Christmas shopping. I won't have to worry if I should pay this bill or gas or food. It'll be nice. I'll finally be able to buy my own condo. I'll have my space. I'll be able to decorate it the way I want. I'll finally be able to hold my own. AND, I'll be able to get Burrito a little sister. :)
I'm not planning on any relationships in the future. Not because he stole a part of my soul. But because I have NO desire for one.