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I'm a heartbreaker
dream maker, love taker,
don't you mess around with me...
Another boy's heart in the dumpster. I feel like an awful human being. I would try to make myself feel better by talking to friends, but in the words of brent:
"yeah, well you do that to people.
always have always will, everyone you meet loves you... which conversely drives them all insane. you get under our skin, in our brains.... sometimes a little lower..."
le sigh.
I still love him. Nothing's going to change that... except time. Except healing. He doesn't seem to understand that I can't go back because I haven't yet healed from the wounds he's inflicted recently. He doesn't understand that those wounds may never heal... that even if we were to replant that love, those gaping wounds would still exist.
ughhhhhhh.
I need some sleep. Or a permanent vacation.
dream maker, love taker,
don't you mess around with me...
Another boy's heart in the dumpster. I feel like an awful human being. I would try to make myself feel better by talking to friends, but in the words of brent:
"yeah, well you do that to people.
always have always will, everyone you meet loves you... which conversely drives them all insane. you get under our skin, in our brains.... sometimes a little lower..."
le sigh.
I still love him. Nothing's going to change that... except time. Except healing. He doesn't seem to understand that I can't go back because I haven't yet healed from the wounds he's inflicted recently. He doesn't understand that those wounds may never heal... that even if we were to replant that love, those gaping wounds would still exist.
ughhhhhhh.
I need some sleep. Or a permanent vacation.