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I'm so sick of being addicted to people and experiences and substances and things.
I just want to be and be happy and have that be enough.
I don't want to have to run my entire life. I don't want to have to hide behind masks. I don't want to have to try so hard just to seem normal.
I don't want to accept the fact that my vision of love could just be a lousy, meaningless sense of dependency. People deserve more than that. I deserve more than that. But I don't know how to fix it.
I'm so sick of feeling like I need to be fixed and having no one to tell me how.
I just want to be and be happy and have that be enough.
I don't want to have to run my entire life. I don't want to have to hide behind masks. I don't want to have to try so hard just to seem normal.
I don't want to accept the fact that my vision of love could just be a lousy, meaningless sense of dependency. People deserve more than that. I deserve more than that. But I don't know how to fix it.
I'm so sick of feeling like I need to be fixed and having no one to tell me how.