Can I just quit college now?
lol wth am I even asking. ofcourse I can't. Not completing college is forbidden in the family. And even if my parents didn't force me. I'd force myself. How would I build a successful future without having gone to college and getting at least my Bachelors? Sigh. My respect for Sho-kun and Koyama-kun just grew to infinity. I mean, being an idol...and going to school at the same time? Inoo-chan too! How are they able to keep smiling and go on running around during concerts? I couldn't even practice driving yesterday without thinking that I might fail my classes. I'm probably just an extreme worry wart who NEEDS to get ALL As but I mean, I don't exactly know how to change that when I seriously do need to get straight As to get into a good nursing school. And the friends I have... don't even get me started. They're all in either lower classes or have less classes than me so I don't think they understand me when I say I'm stressing out. I feel guilty enough just sitting here typing this when I should be doing my homework. ARGH. Massu, I need a hug :'( But if you tell me I get a hug for getting stright As this semester, I promise I won't complain again. Too bad he'd never even know who I am. I have a dumb knot in my back now and I'm just in pain :'( I think I'm gonna watch a sad movie later so I can just cry myself to sleep and get all these feelings out.