feelin like a pimp N? (yeah, i don't like to say that word... lol)
so, i had the best school day of my life today... it was just great. lol! but that soon ended after i was around my family. i guess i'm not a family person uno? cuz i really really hate being around them and talking to anyone but my brother (weird huh? cuz he really annoys me the most!) my sister has really been gettin on my nerves. she is always trying to out do me. just cuz now that she is gone, i get most of the attention from my whole family (like aunts etc..)but now that she is home, it's like she is a frickin queen. i said skiing was for retarDes (lol leez, i think that that is how you spell it!)just cuz i didn't want to go, and my sister said all this shit about how pilates (which i've done everyday for the past 3 days and i'm doing it everyday for awhile) is for fat people who don't want to run. basically calling me fat. she said that i'm not fat and blah blah blah... but i'm really really sensitive about that shit and now i'm not going to be able to eat anything but salad around her. which sounds dramatic, but she is skinnier and prettier and smarter and more responsible. i just feel like i'm living in her shadow and i'm only living my life to live up to her, and what she accomplished. i don't really know how to feel. cuz for awhile i've felt pretty good about myself cuz i lost like 17 lbs. but now i just feel like that is nothing, and i could still lose so much more. i don't know... now i just feel fat, and that's really it. lol that sounds really stupid, but really, i have fat issues (lol)! cuz like in middle school and elementary school i was called fat a lot. and last year i was called fat a lil bit, but i haven't heard it this year until today and it just brings back all the shit from like brian smith and stuff and it almost makes me cry. but like the song on the NEW! britney spears greatest hits (WHICH I NOW OWN THANKS TO MY ONE AND ONLY LEEZ, I LOVE YOU!) i'm stronger than yesterday! lol so i'm not like depressed about it or ne thing, i'm just kind fo bothered i guess... lol who knows! adios!