life isn't so good
I am sorry, my children. This is to let you know that Mike has decided to leave our marriage. I can't talk about it... so I am writing it instead. I don't know what to say... please pray for us. Pray that God will change his heart. I never wanted this. I married him for life. What am I suppose to do? I feel so let down... more than that. There are no words. I want my Mike back; our marriage back. If only - he could remember why we got married. How we felt. Maybe he didn't really ever feel those things. Marriage is a sacred thing, and at my age one does not go into it lightly - thinking one day there will be an out. I really, really thought we were in this together for life - regardless of the hurrdles life threw our way. And there were plenty of hurdles. I thought he was stronger than any of this - sronger than me. He want's out. Sorry, Savannah, fake daddy wants out.
Again, I am so sorry, and I know this effects each and everyone of you. I know you really liked him as a person, and loved him because I did. More so than any of that - I know you thought he would be here for us ... or maybe just me. No, that is not the case. He has made himself quite clear.
So - your mom isn't so good right now. I don't know if I will ever recover - or be the same. I can't imagine life without him - or the hopes and dreams I had for our future. I am through with relationships. Men. All of that stuff.
I don't know what's what right now. What's up or what's down. I really believed in his character... in him : Mike Rios. The To be here for me - because he wouldn't have it any other way. I don't want to cause alarm - but I don't know how to be alone. I can't do this. I am not looking for encouragement. I am telling you, I can't do this. Do - please NO advice. What's the alternative? Live life until God takes me from this place.
He doesn't love me anymore... so he says. If you knew how many times I've called him... I just can't accept ... he hasn't called me once. not one time. So, the secret is - I never had his heart in the first place. Deep down, I probably knew that all along. I just couldn't see it.
So what's the lesson? I don't know. I don't know if I ever will. God has a plan, but I can't imagine this being part of the plan. Again, please pray for our marriage. There could be miracle. God is Great.
Sorry about the sad note. Please pray that God will touch Mike's heart, and that he will want our life together.
mom
Again, I am so sorry, and I know this effects each and everyone of you. I know you really liked him as a person, and loved him because I did. More so than any of that - I know you thought he would be here for us ... or maybe just me. No, that is not the case. He has made himself quite clear.
So - your mom isn't so good right now. I don't know if I will ever recover - or be the same. I can't imagine life without him - or the hopes and dreams I had for our future. I am through with relationships. Men. All of that stuff.
I don't know what's what right now. What's up or what's down. I really believed in his character... in him : Mike Rios. The To be here for me - because he wouldn't have it any other way. I don't want to cause alarm - but I don't know how to be alone. I can't do this. I am not looking for encouragement. I am telling you, I can't do this. Do - please NO advice. What's the alternative? Live life until God takes me from this place.
He doesn't love me anymore... so he says. If you knew how many times I've called him... I just can't accept ... he hasn't called me once. not one time. So, the secret is - I never had his heart in the first place. Deep down, I probably knew that all along. I just couldn't see it.
So what's the lesson? I don't know. I don't know if I ever will. God has a plan, but I can't imagine this being part of the plan. Again, please pray for our marriage. There could be miracle. God is Great.
Sorry about the sad note. Please pray that God will touch Mike's heart, and that he will want our life together.
mom