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[mommydama]

I feel completely estranged from every human being in the world right now.  Even my children.  Which convinces even me that it is my fault.  I have no idea what to do about it though, because for the past month I have been taking small reaching steps toward people that feel utterly dangerous and terrifying and are all rebuffed (seemingly) which makes me afraid to try again.  I am WITH people a lot of the time.  At work, with the girls, in stores, hanging out with my extended family.  But it feels like I am looking at them all down a long hallway and their voices are echoing back to me and I even ask people to repeat themselves way too often because I seemingly can't hear and understand them.  It is bewildering.

Why do I always turn to LJ when I feel this lost?  It is a strange thing.