I can't do it anymore
OMG things are so fucked up lately. i just dont know what to do anymore.
Failed 2 out of 4 classes this semester....NEVER failed a class in my life until now. FUCK OU! I actually went to the majority of my classes too and did my homework. I so just want to drop out again. But I know I cant cuz then i will amount to less than I already am. I dont think I will be attending OU this fall though. i think I will go to a community college to make up the classes I failed (since I will not repeat them at OU....especially Calc)
Ive been going thru a lot lately with family and friends and school and a job and everything. I wish that I had people to turn to still. But the people I thought i could turn to basically turned their back on me. Real true friends my ass. FUCK YOU! Hell i am turning to strangers more now and it sucks because they dont know any of the situations and its hard to explain things especially friends and family and life problems.
My dad claims to be moving to Texas here very soon and I think I am going to go with him (if he pays for me to move out there). i really just need to get away. I only really want a vacation but I cant afford one so the next best thing is to move. it is weird that I am getting closer to my dad than I ever have been. Damn old age is getting to me....LOL
my cell broke. i need to get a new one but it is such a hastle because of all my ringtones and pictures and txts and shit. none of that is transferable to a new phone. i do get a free phone..well it is the same phone i have but just a new replacement one. mine is unable to be fixed so I need a new one.
met some cool people the other day...had tons of fun with them at dinner. i doubt i will see them ever again though. i ill be changing my life around hopefully next week....i know i say it over and over but i really must and i just have to work hard to do it. i need to put me first and concentrate on getting me stable. pay bills, work out, eat better, lose weight.......etc
FUCK FRIENDS since no one seems to care about me and want to help me or be there for me...so FUCK YOU!
Well I am done ranting and bitching. i am off to listen to music and possibly get some sleep since I have only slept an avg 1-2 hours a night the last 4 nights or so.
Failed 2 out of 4 classes this semester....NEVER failed a class in my life until now. FUCK OU! I actually went to the majority of my classes too and did my homework. I so just want to drop out again. But I know I cant cuz then i will amount to less than I already am. I dont think I will be attending OU this fall though. i think I will go to a community college to make up the classes I failed (since I will not repeat them at OU....especially Calc)
Ive been going thru a lot lately with family and friends and school and a job and everything. I wish that I had people to turn to still. But the people I thought i could turn to basically turned their back on me. Real true friends my ass. FUCK YOU! Hell i am turning to strangers more now and it sucks because they dont know any of the situations and its hard to explain things especially friends and family and life problems.
My dad claims to be moving to Texas here very soon and I think I am going to go with him (if he pays for me to move out there). i really just need to get away. I only really want a vacation but I cant afford one so the next best thing is to move. it is weird that I am getting closer to my dad than I ever have been. Damn old age is getting to me....LOL
my cell broke. i need to get a new one but it is such a hastle because of all my ringtones and pictures and txts and shit. none of that is transferable to a new phone. i do get a free phone..well it is the same phone i have but just a new replacement one. mine is unable to be fixed so I need a new one.
met some cool people the other day...had tons of fun with them at dinner. i doubt i will see them ever again though. i ill be changing my life around hopefully next week....i know i say it over and over but i really must and i just have to work hard to do it. i need to put me first and concentrate on getting me stable. pay bills, work out, eat better, lose weight.......etc
FUCK FRIENDS since no one seems to care about me and want to help me or be there for me...so FUCK YOU!
Well I am done ranting and bitching. i am off to listen to music and possibly get some sleep since I have only slept an avg 1-2 hours a night the last 4 nights or so.