crazy
i have absolutely never felt this way before. i am seriously going crazy. i mean, i noe that sometimes i say that and i'll be joking but i am so serious rite now. i hate being alive. it sux so fuckin much. i cant stand anyone. whether they are family, friends, or teachers. i dont noe when this began to happen. i used to be so happy and now i am so depressed. i dont know what is wrong with me. i really dont. that is helping to drive me to insanity. also,being with everyone. all of these fucking people who are so fuckin fake. im so serious. i hate everyone. even the people that i used to be so cool with are seriously driving me crazy. they are getting on my nerves. i hate being with these people. then its like, im turning into one of them and i dont want to. i really dont. i hate who i am becoming. i never wanted to feel this way before. i dont know what is happening. and i am really scared. i just talked to my two best friends in the whole world, and i am really irritated with them. i actually just hung up on her and i just... i dont know