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i am really fucking aggrivated right now, and even though it has been triggered by things one person has said and my thoughts on that one person, it's something that i am going to say quite generally because it goes for SO MANY PEOPLE who have been in my life or are in my life right now.
WHAT THE FUCK, PEOPLE? do i really mean so fucking little to you that you feel it's okay to forget every time i was there for you or that i drove you around and listened to you cry? i don't look back on that and regret it, so why the fuck do you get to look back on that and forget it? it's bullshit and i am reaching my breaking point. change, if you want. that's fine with me. but don't fucking slam me into the ground because you've become far too fucking cool for me. yeah, your life is better off without me if you think that better off means being without someone as genuine and caring as me. who was there for you unconditionally? who gave you a shoulder and some sound advice and made sure you were as okay as possible? was it him? was it the boy who fucked with your head? was it alcohol? was it friends who aren't really your friends at all? drugs? FUCK YOU.
i am so fucking tired of people being my friend when it is cool for them. if you are so fucking content with your life without me, stop coming back for me. nothing seems to matter to you anymore. i was there when you said you thought about killing yourself, i was there when you didn't understand what was going on. i think i might have fucking saved you. i fucking made sure i tried. and what do i get?
i get to write this.
do you really think that's fair?
WHAT THE FUCK, PEOPLE? do i really mean so fucking little to you that you feel it's okay to forget every time i was there for you or that i drove you around and listened to you cry? i don't look back on that and regret it, so why the fuck do you get to look back on that and forget it? it's bullshit and i am reaching my breaking point. change, if you want. that's fine with me. but don't fucking slam me into the ground because you've become far too fucking cool for me. yeah, your life is better off without me if you think that better off means being without someone as genuine and caring as me. who was there for you unconditionally? who gave you a shoulder and some sound advice and made sure you were as okay as possible? was it him? was it the boy who fucked with your head? was it alcohol? was it friends who aren't really your friends at all? drugs? FUCK YOU.
i am so fucking tired of people being my friend when it is cool for them. if you are so fucking content with your life without me, stop coming back for me. nothing seems to matter to you anymore. i was there when you said you thought about killing yourself, i was there when you didn't understand what was going on. i think i might have fucking saved you. i fucking made sure i tried. and what do i get?
i get to write this.
do you really think that's fair?