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Had my American Sign Language final tonight. There was a regular written exam with multiple choice and translating signs, then there was a conversation. Teacher watched you to sign with another student and graded you on your ability to communicate.
Do you flow from sign to sign? Do you use signs appropriately with proper facial expressions and body movement? Do you start and stop? Things like that.
I think I did well, but was partnered with someone who has not been the best student, mechanics wise. I think I could have had a better conversation with someone else, a more natural, fun conversation. But no biggie. I got an A on the last test, and feel confident about the final, so that would make 4 A's and a B on tests. All my other grades like attendance, written work, and homework, should be A's, too, so I think I have an A in the class.
I know I have an A in childhood development because that teacher is very punctual with posting grades. I might have a B in Deaf Culture, not sure. Don't really care, either. I mean I want another 4.0 (had one in my only semester at GSU), but that class was such a waste of time that i don't care what the grade is.
The exam was 50 questions. I had not read ANY of the chapters assigned for the exam, but I know I got most of the questions right. You know how you will be sitting there with a test and just know that you know the answers? I knew what I knew and what I didn't. I would say there were only 4 questions out of the 50 that I was uncertain about. So even if I got them all wrong, that is still a 92. Two A's on our two tests, an A on the oral presentation, attended an event for the Deaf, and I turned in all 10 of her pointless "essays". The only thing that would give me a B, or lower, is attendance.
I skipped class three times and was late alot during the past 5 weeks. She didn't write into the syllabus how much she would deduct for poor attendance, so don't know how it will effect me, but again, whatever.
Next semester is ASL Level 2, a curriculum management course for ECD, art skills for children, and computer basics. I figure I am 33, so it is time I learned how to use a PC. I looked over the syllabus online and it seems it is a pretty basic course. Teaches how to use Microsoft Office, which is good for me since I have no idea how to use Excel or Power Point. The rest of the class sounds a bit beneath my skill level, though, so not sure what to expect.
There is mention of how understanding hardware and software, but it doesn't sound like that will be the emphasis of the class, so I am slightly worried. That's what I really care about, the functioning of the actual computer. We will see.
My headlights went out on my car.
The high beams stopped working Sunday night then I noticed yesterday morning that the low beams were not working either. It was overcast, and I turn on my lights when it is like that, but I noticed there was no reflection on the car in front of me at a light. When I got to school, I checked and the lights were not on. My dashboard lights were on, and the tail lights work, but the headlamps were gone.
So, I bought bulbs on the way home and installed them this morning. Still no lights. I drove around looking for a parts store and bought some fuses. Changed the light fuses and still no lights. So, now I have to take the car in tomorrow morning and hope the problem is cheap and easy to fix cos I have class tomorrow night and have to work Saturday night.
I hate cars. I also hate being poor cos if I weren't poor, I'd have a better car.
Spent Thursday with a good friend. It was a very beautiful day. We spent most of the day cudlding and talking about our feelings and our pasts. Xe is my androgynous friend and had a really rough Thanksgiving cos their family was being rude and mean. They normally treat my friend's trans status as a silly kid's thing, but xe said this they were especially hostile. They outright refused to use neutral pronouns, called xir things like "missy" and "ma'am", and had a general tone of disdain toward xir all day.
Xe also said they were insensitive about xir wheelchair.
I wanted to spend time with xir to help xir feel better, but I have been feeling very empty and dead, too, so we comforted each other. It was wonderful. We have been trying to be more intentional with our feelings and actions lately, trying to really understand what we both want from life and each other and this past Thursday was the third time we had some good, meaningful conversations about that.
I haven't felt so safe and accepted in a long time as that day. I wish I could cultivate all my friendships to this degree. I feel so bad knowing there are so many people iI know, have known for years, yet we are basically still acquaintances. It makes me feel shitty, actually.
I like most of these people, but we have just never truly connected. I have also never truly felt like they wanted to be my friend as much as I wanted to be theirs. And I need to just move on, you know? But that is difficult and that is what me and Re talked a lot about. I tried to be as open and as raw with xir as possible.
I have a ways to go before I can let xir in all the way, but xe has really helped me a lot and xe says I have done the same for her. We are emotionally close, but we have different senses of humour, and slightly different outlooks when it comes to politics, so I think that hinders us a tiny bit. The sense of humour difference makes me miss Jason much more.
I was considering reaching out to him, but I don't know if I should. I am always the one who reaches out to him when he walks away and I think I have to just let him stay gone this time. I mean i desperately want him back in my life, I miss laughing and feeling like someone gets me on multiple levels, but it is obvious he doesn't trust me. I can't make him trust me or love me as I love him. And since is the third time he has broken our friendship, I can't really trust him either.
But I miss the fun we had, the bond we shared, nonetheless. I miss him and want him back, but don't want to go begging for someone to like me.
Do you flow from sign to sign? Do you use signs appropriately with proper facial expressions and body movement? Do you start and stop? Things like that.
I think I did well, but was partnered with someone who has not been the best student, mechanics wise. I think I could have had a better conversation with someone else, a more natural, fun conversation. But no biggie. I got an A on the last test, and feel confident about the final, so that would make 4 A's and a B on tests. All my other grades like attendance, written work, and homework, should be A's, too, so I think I have an A in the class.
I know I have an A in childhood development because that teacher is very punctual with posting grades. I might have a B in Deaf Culture, not sure. Don't really care, either. I mean I want another 4.0 (had one in my only semester at GSU), but that class was such a waste of time that i don't care what the grade is.
The exam was 50 questions. I had not read ANY of the chapters assigned for the exam, but I know I got most of the questions right. You know how you will be sitting there with a test and just know that you know the answers? I knew what I knew and what I didn't. I would say there were only 4 questions out of the 50 that I was uncertain about. So even if I got them all wrong, that is still a 92. Two A's on our two tests, an A on the oral presentation, attended an event for the Deaf, and I turned in all 10 of her pointless "essays". The only thing that would give me a B, or lower, is attendance.
I skipped class three times and was late alot during the past 5 weeks. She didn't write into the syllabus how much she would deduct for poor attendance, so don't know how it will effect me, but again, whatever.
Next semester is ASL Level 2, a curriculum management course for ECD, art skills for children, and computer basics. I figure I am 33, so it is time I learned how to use a PC. I looked over the syllabus online and it seems it is a pretty basic course. Teaches how to use Microsoft Office, which is good for me since I have no idea how to use Excel or Power Point. The rest of the class sounds a bit beneath my skill level, though, so not sure what to expect.
There is mention of how understanding hardware and software, but it doesn't sound like that will be the emphasis of the class, so I am slightly worried. That's what I really care about, the functioning of the actual computer. We will see.
My headlights went out on my car.
The high beams stopped working Sunday night then I noticed yesterday morning that the low beams were not working either. It was overcast, and I turn on my lights when it is like that, but I noticed there was no reflection on the car in front of me at a light. When I got to school, I checked and the lights were not on. My dashboard lights were on, and the tail lights work, but the headlamps were gone.
So, I bought bulbs on the way home and installed them this morning. Still no lights. I drove around looking for a parts store and bought some fuses. Changed the light fuses and still no lights. So, now I have to take the car in tomorrow morning and hope the problem is cheap and easy to fix cos I have class tomorrow night and have to work Saturday night.
I hate cars. I also hate being poor cos if I weren't poor, I'd have a better car.
Spent Thursday with a good friend. It was a very beautiful day. We spent most of the day cudlding and talking about our feelings and our pasts. Xe is my androgynous friend and had a really rough Thanksgiving cos their family was being rude and mean. They normally treat my friend's trans status as a silly kid's thing, but xe said this they were especially hostile. They outright refused to use neutral pronouns, called xir things like "missy" and "ma'am", and had a general tone of disdain toward xir all day.
Xe also said they were insensitive about xir wheelchair.
I wanted to spend time with xir to help xir feel better, but I have been feeling very empty and dead, too, so we comforted each other. It was wonderful. We have been trying to be more intentional with our feelings and actions lately, trying to really understand what we both want from life and each other and this past Thursday was the third time we had some good, meaningful conversations about that.
I haven't felt so safe and accepted in a long time as that day. I wish I could cultivate all my friendships to this degree. I feel so bad knowing there are so many people iI know, have known for years, yet we are basically still acquaintances. It makes me feel shitty, actually.
I like most of these people, but we have just never truly connected. I have also never truly felt like they wanted to be my friend as much as I wanted to be theirs. And I need to just move on, you know? But that is difficult and that is what me and Re talked a lot about. I tried to be as open and as raw with xir as possible.
I have a ways to go before I can let xir in all the way, but xe has really helped me a lot and xe says I have done the same for her. We are emotionally close, but we have different senses of humour, and slightly different outlooks when it comes to politics, so I think that hinders us a tiny bit. The sense of humour difference makes me miss Jason much more.
I was considering reaching out to him, but I don't know if I should. I am always the one who reaches out to him when he walks away and I think I have to just let him stay gone this time. I mean i desperately want him back in my life, I miss laughing and feeling like someone gets me on multiple levels, but it is obvious he doesn't trust me. I can't make him trust me or love me as I love him. And since is the third time he has broken our friendship, I can't really trust him either.
But I miss the fun we had, the bond we shared, nonetheless. I miss him and want him back, but don't want to go begging for someone to like me.