(no subject)
As much as I enjoyed my wards rotation, I felt very, very dissatisfied leaving it. I didn't live up to my own expectations and I didn't do newly as well as I had hoped. I am positive that I was viewed as mediocre by my attending and residents. I really wanted to impress them, and I didn't.
Also, my last day, I forgot to set my alarm clock, and woke up at the time I usually arrive at work. I managed to get everything done in time for rounds, but it was a near thing and it kept me off balance for the rest of the day (and looking more like shit than usual did nothing to help).
Today I paged my new resident, but paged the wrong number (my mom's cell rather than my own [because I never dial my own number] but thankfully it was incomplete, so my mom won't receive a return call). However, after paging the right number, I haven't heard back. So I have no idea where or when I need to be tomorrow morning and I probably irritated the resident for paging on her potential off day, all the while looking incompetent and paging her twice.
Then, while checking my email, I realized that an email I sent off a week and a half ago asking to meet with a doctor who I could potentially get a letter of recommendation from got a reply a week and a half ago that I somehow missed and therefore look as if I've been ignoring her, which is made even more awkward by the fact that I still say hello to her when I see her on the wards. Thus, I now look like the most foolish, incompetent, ridiculous person.
I had had high hopes of setting down at least a draft of my personal statement this weekend, but my head has been so fuzzy this weekend, that I don't think I've been able to think straight since Thursday. I have no idea why, but it's irritating and kind of worrying me.
I just feel so stupid and ridiculous at the moment.
Also, my last day, I forgot to set my alarm clock, and woke up at the time I usually arrive at work. I managed to get everything done in time for rounds, but it was a near thing and it kept me off balance for the rest of the day (and looking more like shit than usual did nothing to help).
Today I paged my new resident, but paged the wrong number (my mom's cell rather than my own [because I never dial my own number] but thankfully it was incomplete, so my mom won't receive a return call). However, after paging the right number, I haven't heard back. So I have no idea where or when I need to be tomorrow morning and I probably irritated the resident for paging on her potential off day, all the while looking incompetent and paging her twice.
Then, while checking my email, I realized that an email I sent off a week and a half ago asking to meet with a doctor who I could potentially get a letter of recommendation from got a reply a week and a half ago that I somehow missed and therefore look as if I've been ignoring her, which is made even more awkward by the fact that I still say hello to her when I see her on the wards. Thus, I now look like the most foolish, incompetent, ridiculous person.
I had had high hopes of setting down at least a draft of my personal statement this weekend, but my head has been so fuzzy this weekend, that I don't think I've been able to think straight since Thursday. I have no idea why, but it's irritating and kind of worrying me.
I just feel so stupid and ridiculous at the moment.