suffocate me.
im ready to be suffocated with love. i wanted to be smothered in it. i want it to completely and utterly encase me. i want to breathe it. and i want it to be real. i dont want this petty puppy love bullshit that ive been trying to avoid for so long. the kind that just leaves you with a little hurt and lot of wasted time. i want an intense guy. a guy that is creative and beautiful. a guy that would want to spend all his time with me. not caring what we were doing just as long as we were together: weither it be playing beer pong with our crew or just hanging out laying in bed watching the ashlee simpson show. i want to feel wanted again. i want to feel needed. i want some one that stimulates my brain. makes me motivated and want to be creative too. i want some one intelligente. i want some one that will just hold me all nite long. just to feel their body against mine. i want to be entangled in someone. i want to feel that heat. i want passion. i want to hear a sincere valid honest to god I love you to float over my ears. i want some one to look at me and see their eyes light up just a little, for some one to be proud that im theirs. i want to belong to some one again.
i would do almost anything for that feeling again. that one feeling that makes you feel a little more complete inside. the one that fills you up. i would drop my life at this moment for that feeling becuase i know thats what im missing. all i want is to be suffocated by love. i want a body that locks perfectly with mine. I want it all to be fluid. and i want a heart that belongs completely to me. i want that.
thats why its so hard for me to find some one that i even invest time into anymore. becuase i want it to be perfect. and then there is always that catch. i invest that time and i let that spark fly... and something always brings me crashing down. so if YOUR out there come back. i wish you could see that you actually meant a little something to me. suffocate me.
i would do almost anything for that feeling again. that one feeling that makes you feel a little more complete inside. the one that fills you up. i would drop my life at this moment for that feeling becuase i know thats what im missing. all i want is to be suffocated by love. i want a body that locks perfectly with mine. I want it all to be fluid. and i want a heart that belongs completely to me. i want that.
thats why its so hard for me to find some one that i even invest time into anymore. becuase i want it to be perfect. and then there is always that catch. i invest that time and i let that spark fly... and something always brings me crashing down. so if YOUR out there come back. i wish you could see that you actually meant a little something to me. suffocate me.