Pride (4/10)
Title: Pride
Author: Moko
Pairing: Ohmiya, Sakumoto, Yama, Matsumiya
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romance, drama
Disclaimer: They're not mine...
Summary: When Ohno Satoshi got a new job, he knew he would have to face his past again, but what he didn't expect was to be helped by the most unexpected person...
Previous chapters
Chapter 4: Nino's POV
First stage: cleared.
It fucking hurts. But it makes me delighted as much.
This sensation is so exhilarating, it’s getting addictive. Seeing Ohno’s chin slightly shaking as he was hesitating to answer. Ohno’s face after he slapped me. He did it so hard I think I’m going to have a red mark for long, but it was worth it.
And his lips are soft.
Second stage: his ass.
This is going to be a tough one.
“Nino…”
I turn round, and just that is a lot of effort.
“Your cheek’s red…”
I close my eyes and nod. I feel completely listless. I just want to sleep… Or have a cigarette, maybe. I hear someone moving just beside me. A minute later, he puts a cigarette between my lips.
“Who did that to you ?” Jun asks.
Dear Jun. He’s always reading my mind after sex.
I just smirk. Jun raises an eyebrow at me. He’s sitting on the bed beside me, smoking as well.
“Satoshi…”
Jun makes a surprised move. “Since when are you calling him that ?!”
I shrug, taking a deep puff. “I don’t want to call him ‘Ohno-san’, it’ll sound like I respect him.”
“And you don’t…”
That wasn’t a question but more of an obvious statement. And it wasn’t needed. I don’t respect him because he has no power over me and I fucking… Hate him… Don’t I ?
The truth is, I don’t know anymore. At first, I really hated him, but now that I enjoy seeing his scared face so much, I like him better. I feel attracted by him, somehow… And I don’t like these kinds of feelings.
“He slapped you ?” Jun asks.
He’s curious tonight. I have a red mark on my cheek after all, anyone would ask.
“Yes…”
“Why ?”
“Because I kissed him, I guess…”
Jun remains silent for a moment. He must be shocked or something. Well, no matter what people can think, I don’t usually do that sort of things to everyone.
“And why did you kiss him ?” Jun says, obviously uncomfortable.
“Because I wanted to…”
I take another puff, then watch the smoke disappear after I blew it out. He’s probably waiting for me to say something else, but I don’t want to explain more.
“You’re playing with him, aren’t you ?” he suddenly says, making me look at him.
He glances at me quickly, then throw his cigarette in the ashtray, on the bedside drawer.
“I think Ohchan is a really good guy, and he doesn’t deserve this…”
As if I cared… The whole thing is not about him deserving it, it’s about me wanting to play with him and getting addicted to it, like many of the games I play.
Jun moves his face closer to mine, his lips just inches away from mines now.
“What if I told him about you and me ? That sure would be fun… What if he knew about the almighty Ninomiya Kazunari being topped in bed… And by me.”
I suddenly sit up, forcing him to move away. What a fucking liar !
“I’ve been on top of you before !”
Jun lets out a mocking laugh, making me frown. “Oh, yeah, those times…”
“Do you want to make me angry ?” I snap back, and I know he won’t try to talk back to me if I say that.
He just gives me a sarcastic look, then gets up from the bed to pick up his clothes on the floor.
“What if I told Sho about it ?” I ask.
For a second, I see a strange expression on Jun’s face. Maybe anger and sadness… It disappears so fast, though, and he quickly put back the indifferent face.
“What about it ?”
Jun thinks I don’t know anything, but I do. He thinks I’m an idiot, probably, or that I forgot. He’s too afraid to face the truth and tell me, but I see and know everything about it.
I shrug. “Nothing, just saying…”
He puts his shirt back on, then his underwear and pants.
“I’ll call my driver for you” I say, looking for my phone that might be somewhere on the bed.
“Thanks” he says coldly. “I guess we’ll see each other tomorrow…”
I nod. Poor Jun… If only he was courageous enough, everything would be as he wants it to.
My father makes such a face when he sees me arriving in the dining room. I usually avoid him during breakfast because in the morning, I’m absolutely not in the mood for a scold or an argument, which often happens when my father and I are let alone in a room for more than ten minutes. I know he’s the powerful one here, that he can do whatever he wants of me, and that’s why I avoid him. I owe him everything, after all.
“Oh, Kazunari… It’s rare to see you this early.”
“I wanted to change, for once” I say, almost like a whisper.
The truth is, my father still frightens me. I don’t dare speaking too loudly and expose my opinions in front of him, especially when it comes to trivial things.
“Good” he says.
He’s almost done eating. A maid immediately brings me a plate while I pick some bred in front of me.
“You should dress up before coming down for breakfast, shouldn’t you ?”
I nod. “I should…”
I know my hair is a mess and I’m still in my pyjama pants.
“You should but you’re not. Next time you will.”
His tone is the one that doesn’t allow discussion. So I don’t discuss and bow my head as a ‘yes’.
“There’s some things I wanted to talk to you about” he says then, putting the spoon back onto the table.
That’s no good, but I can’t let him see that. I have my pride, even more when my father is around.
“What is it ?” I ask casually, as if I didn’t mind much.
“Lately, I heard a lot of complains around me about you. The people working for you are not happy… They’re more scared than anything…”
“Oh…”
Is that it ? I perfectly know he won’t tell me off about this, I mean… He is the one who told me I had to be feared. He is the reason why I became a perfect asshole, even though I actually enjoy being one.
“That’s not a bad thing” he continues. “But you’ll stop firing employees so easily, everything is not so simple…”
If only it could be…
Maybe I should go apologize to Ohno, after all. If I want to win the game, I think I have to. It’s not about my pride… Or yes it is, actually. This game is about my pride. And if I want to win, I have to apologize, otherwise Ohno will never let me approach him again.
I don’t wait too long to go to one of the design studios where he’ll probably be, considering his work for the day. Jun may be there as well, I’m not sure, but I can still tell him to go somewhere else. On my way, I walk passed the open door of Sho’s office. He’s there, his head in his hands in front of his computer. He seems tired.
Sho, my dear old friend Sho. What am I doing to you ? Maybe it’s time for me to do something that would make him realize… No, make him move his fucking ass from this chair and talk to Jun.
I’m not as heartless as I try to seem.
I start walking away and that’s when I see him. He’s there, just in front of me, staring at me with surprise. I guess he didn’t expect me to be here and he probably didn’t want it either.
I step closer to him before he can run away. He seems… embarrassed and darts his eyes away from me.
“Ohno, I…”
He backs away, probably to escape, but I won’t let him. I move next to him as fast as I can to grab his arm.
“I’m sorry, okay ?"
His face suddenly becomes blank, but he doesn’t say a thing, still looking away. That, somehow, makes me feel strange. Why doesn’t he say anything ?
“Don’t stay silent !”
He glances up at me, then look back down at the floor. I shake his arm. Does he like pissing me off ?
“Say something !”
“You don’t mean it…” he finally mumbles. I barely heard him, but I got it.
I want to do something to him. I don’t know what, but I really want to. So I drag him along with me toward an empty room because I think it’s better if we’re alone for a moment.
“What do you mean by that ?” I say, closing the door after I pushed him inside.
He rubs his arm for a minute, but I think it’s just because he doesn’t want to answer.
“Why would you care about me ?” he says then.
“Good question ! Why would I care about you ? I actually don’t care.”
This answer came to me immediately and I said it before I could even hold it back.
“I don’t think you care about anyone, actually” he continues. “Except Sho… And maybe Jun…”
It was better when he wouldn’t talk, in the end, wasn’t it ? He’s getting on my nerves so bad right now.
I quickly move closer to him to shove him violently against the nearest wall, and it’s back. This face he makes. The scared one. The one I enjoy the most.
“What do you know about me, anyway ?” I say fast. “About my past or my life, nothing ! Do you think you can judge people just like that ?!”
His chin trembles slightly, and he looks away from me but I take his chin and force him to turn his face back facing me. He looks up and opens his mouth, then close it. I think he’s panicking. I think he can’t breathe.
“What are you so scared of, Ohno Satoshi ?” I ask, taking one if his wrist in my hand to avoid him trying to escape. “Is it me ? I don’t think so…”
Seriously, what is it ? He doesn’t seem to fear me at all when we talk but as soon as I touch him, he’s scared… As soon as I…
I have an idea. I suddenly let go of his wrist and push his shoulder to the side, then put my feet on his way. He immediately stumbles and falls on the floor with a choked whine.
I kneel down next to him and put my arm on his other side to prevent him from getting up. He looks up at me, completely afraid. This time, I don’t feel exhilarated at all. It’s more of… Something I’ve never felt for a long long time…
Guilt.
“You’re not scared of me at all, right ?” I ask. I don’t mean to make fun of him. Not now. “You’re scared of violence, aren’t you ?”
This face now, this scared face he has makes me want to cry. I know I went too far. This person in front of me needs someone to protect him from the violence he fears, and there’s probably a good reason.
I withdraw my arm from above him and he quickly sit up on the floor, trying to go as far from me as he can, but I follow him. He leans his back against the nearest wall and stares at my face with… It’s not fear anymore, more of sadness. I approach my face close to his, so close, but he doesn’t move farther away. He stays and waits.
“I promise I’ll never do it again” I say, and this time I really mean it. “I’ll never let anyone do this to you again…”
His expression softens. He’s cute. No, he’s actually beautiful.
That’s something I never expected to say, but somehow it doesn’t feel bad saying it.
“Why ?” he asks with a so little voice.
I can ask myself the same question, why ? Because that’s how things are.
So I just smile at him slightly and get up to get out of this room without looking back. I’m ashamed of letting that part of me show up like that. I’m not gentle, remember !
Let’s stay the gentle Ninomiya Kazunari for a few more minutes, just the time to help my dear old friend Sho. He left Ohno to avoid him being miserable and now they both are. Good job, smartass !
“Aiba !” I call when I see him taking photos with some of our main models, except Jun.
He turns his head toward me, then gestures to the guys to take a break and quickly come closer.
“Yes ?”
“You know about Sho and Jun, don’t you ?”
He shrugs. “Well, I kind of guessed… Why ?"
I lower my voice. “Find a way to talk to Sho about it. Make it sound natural and tell him I know about it… Tell him I’ve known about it for a long time, but don’t tell him I asked you to say it ! Understood ?”
Aiba nods hastily though he’s frowning.
“Can I just ask why ?” he says then.
“Well, as soon as you’ll talk to Sho, you’ll probably know why I’m asking you this” I answer.
Then, I nod toward his camera to make him understand he has to go back to work.
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A/N: This chapter is a bit short, there's nothing much happening, but there are a looooot of things happening in next chap xD I don't know if you can already figure out why Nino asked this to Aiba =)
About the moment when he talks to his father, I know I cut it a bit shortly, but I wanted his father to appear and I didn't know how to end this scene, so sorry ^^"""
I hope you still like this fiction! The truth is, it turned out completely different from what I first imagined, because there wasn't the past Yama part at first, and now the whole story is about it, about what happened, so there might be a few things between the two first chapters and the rest that don't really add up, please forgive me >.<
Author: Moko
Pairing: Ohmiya, Sakumoto, Yama, Matsumiya
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romance, drama
Disclaimer: They're not mine...
Summary: When Ohno Satoshi got a new job, he knew he would have to face his past again, but what he didn't expect was to be helped by the most unexpected person...
Previous chapters
Chapter 4: Nino's POV
First stage: cleared.
It fucking hurts. But it makes me delighted as much.
This sensation is so exhilarating, it’s getting addictive. Seeing Ohno’s chin slightly shaking as he was hesitating to answer. Ohno’s face after he slapped me. He did it so hard I think I’m going to have a red mark for long, but it was worth it.
And his lips are soft.
Second stage: his ass.
This is going to be a tough one.
“Nino…”
I turn round, and just that is a lot of effort.
“Your cheek’s red…”
I close my eyes and nod. I feel completely listless. I just want to sleep… Or have a cigarette, maybe. I hear someone moving just beside me. A minute later, he puts a cigarette between my lips.
“Who did that to you ?” Jun asks.
Dear Jun. He’s always reading my mind after sex.
I just smirk. Jun raises an eyebrow at me. He’s sitting on the bed beside me, smoking as well.
“Satoshi…”
Jun makes a surprised move. “Since when are you calling him that ?!”
I shrug, taking a deep puff. “I don’t want to call him ‘Ohno-san’, it’ll sound like I respect him.”
“And you don’t…”
That wasn’t a question but more of an obvious statement. And it wasn’t needed. I don’t respect him because he has no power over me and I fucking… Hate him… Don’t I ?
The truth is, I don’t know anymore. At first, I really hated him, but now that I enjoy seeing his scared face so much, I like him better. I feel attracted by him, somehow… And I don’t like these kinds of feelings.
“He slapped you ?” Jun asks.
He’s curious tonight. I have a red mark on my cheek after all, anyone would ask.
“Yes…”
“Why ?”
“Because I kissed him, I guess…”
Jun remains silent for a moment. He must be shocked or something. Well, no matter what people can think, I don’t usually do that sort of things to everyone.
“And why did you kiss him ?” Jun says, obviously uncomfortable.
“Because I wanted to…”
I take another puff, then watch the smoke disappear after I blew it out. He’s probably waiting for me to say something else, but I don’t want to explain more.
“You’re playing with him, aren’t you ?” he suddenly says, making me look at him.
He glances at me quickly, then throw his cigarette in the ashtray, on the bedside drawer.
“I think Ohchan is a really good guy, and he doesn’t deserve this…”
As if I cared… The whole thing is not about him deserving it, it’s about me wanting to play with him and getting addicted to it, like many of the games I play.
Jun moves his face closer to mine, his lips just inches away from mines now.
“What if I told him about you and me ? That sure would be fun… What if he knew about the almighty Ninomiya Kazunari being topped in bed… And by me.”
I suddenly sit up, forcing him to move away. What a fucking liar !
“I’ve been on top of you before !”
Jun lets out a mocking laugh, making me frown. “Oh, yeah, those times…”
“Do you want to make me angry ?” I snap back, and I know he won’t try to talk back to me if I say that.
He just gives me a sarcastic look, then gets up from the bed to pick up his clothes on the floor.
“What if I told Sho about it ?” I ask.
For a second, I see a strange expression on Jun’s face. Maybe anger and sadness… It disappears so fast, though, and he quickly put back the indifferent face.
“What about it ?”
Jun thinks I don’t know anything, but I do. He thinks I’m an idiot, probably, or that I forgot. He’s too afraid to face the truth and tell me, but I see and know everything about it.
I shrug. “Nothing, just saying…”
He puts his shirt back on, then his underwear and pants.
“I’ll call my driver for you” I say, looking for my phone that might be somewhere on the bed.
“Thanks” he says coldly. “I guess we’ll see each other tomorrow…”
I nod. Poor Jun… If only he was courageous enough, everything would be as he wants it to.
My father makes such a face when he sees me arriving in the dining room. I usually avoid him during breakfast because in the morning, I’m absolutely not in the mood for a scold or an argument, which often happens when my father and I are let alone in a room for more than ten minutes. I know he’s the powerful one here, that he can do whatever he wants of me, and that’s why I avoid him. I owe him everything, after all.
“Oh, Kazunari… It’s rare to see you this early.”
“I wanted to change, for once” I say, almost like a whisper.
The truth is, my father still frightens me. I don’t dare speaking too loudly and expose my opinions in front of him, especially when it comes to trivial things.
“Good” he says.
He’s almost done eating. A maid immediately brings me a plate while I pick some bred in front of me.
“You should dress up before coming down for breakfast, shouldn’t you ?”
I nod. “I should…”
I know my hair is a mess and I’m still in my pyjama pants.
“You should but you’re not. Next time you will.”
His tone is the one that doesn’t allow discussion. So I don’t discuss and bow my head as a ‘yes’.
“There’s some things I wanted to talk to you about” he says then, putting the spoon back onto the table.
That’s no good, but I can’t let him see that. I have my pride, even more when my father is around.
“What is it ?” I ask casually, as if I didn’t mind much.
“Lately, I heard a lot of complains around me about you. The people working for you are not happy… They’re more scared than anything…”
“Oh…”
Is that it ? I perfectly know he won’t tell me off about this, I mean… He is the one who told me I had to be feared. He is the reason why I became a perfect asshole, even though I actually enjoy being one.
“That’s not a bad thing” he continues. “But you’ll stop firing employees so easily, everything is not so simple…”
If only it could be…
Maybe I should go apologize to Ohno, after all. If I want to win the game, I think I have to. It’s not about my pride… Or yes it is, actually. This game is about my pride. And if I want to win, I have to apologize, otherwise Ohno will never let me approach him again.
I don’t wait too long to go to one of the design studios where he’ll probably be, considering his work for the day. Jun may be there as well, I’m not sure, but I can still tell him to go somewhere else. On my way, I walk passed the open door of Sho’s office. He’s there, his head in his hands in front of his computer. He seems tired.
Sho, my dear old friend Sho. What am I doing to you ? Maybe it’s time for me to do something that would make him realize… No, make him move his fucking ass from this chair and talk to Jun.
I’m not as heartless as I try to seem.
I start walking away and that’s when I see him. He’s there, just in front of me, staring at me with surprise. I guess he didn’t expect me to be here and he probably didn’t want it either.
I step closer to him before he can run away. He seems… embarrassed and darts his eyes away from me.
“Ohno, I…”
He backs away, probably to escape, but I won’t let him. I move next to him as fast as I can to grab his arm.
“I’m sorry, okay ?"
His face suddenly becomes blank, but he doesn’t say a thing, still looking away. That, somehow, makes me feel strange. Why doesn’t he say anything ?
“Don’t stay silent !”
He glances up at me, then look back down at the floor. I shake his arm. Does he like pissing me off ?
“Say something !”
“You don’t mean it…” he finally mumbles. I barely heard him, but I got it.
I want to do something to him. I don’t know what, but I really want to. So I drag him along with me toward an empty room because I think it’s better if we’re alone for a moment.
“What do you mean by that ?” I say, closing the door after I pushed him inside.
He rubs his arm for a minute, but I think it’s just because he doesn’t want to answer.
“Why would you care about me ?” he says then.
“Good question ! Why would I care about you ? I actually don’t care.”
This answer came to me immediately and I said it before I could even hold it back.
“I don’t think you care about anyone, actually” he continues. “Except Sho… And maybe Jun…”
It was better when he wouldn’t talk, in the end, wasn’t it ? He’s getting on my nerves so bad right now.
I quickly move closer to him to shove him violently against the nearest wall, and it’s back. This face he makes. The scared one. The one I enjoy the most.
“What do you know about me, anyway ?” I say fast. “About my past or my life, nothing ! Do you think you can judge people just like that ?!”
His chin trembles slightly, and he looks away from me but I take his chin and force him to turn his face back facing me. He looks up and opens his mouth, then close it. I think he’s panicking. I think he can’t breathe.
“What are you so scared of, Ohno Satoshi ?” I ask, taking one if his wrist in my hand to avoid him trying to escape. “Is it me ? I don’t think so…”
Seriously, what is it ? He doesn’t seem to fear me at all when we talk but as soon as I touch him, he’s scared… As soon as I…
I have an idea. I suddenly let go of his wrist and push his shoulder to the side, then put my feet on his way. He immediately stumbles and falls on the floor with a choked whine.
I kneel down next to him and put my arm on his other side to prevent him from getting up. He looks up at me, completely afraid. This time, I don’t feel exhilarated at all. It’s more of… Something I’ve never felt for a long long time…
Guilt.
“You’re not scared of me at all, right ?” I ask. I don’t mean to make fun of him. Not now. “You’re scared of violence, aren’t you ?”
This face now, this scared face he has makes me want to cry. I know I went too far. This person in front of me needs someone to protect him from the violence he fears, and there’s probably a good reason.
I withdraw my arm from above him and he quickly sit up on the floor, trying to go as far from me as he can, but I follow him. He leans his back against the nearest wall and stares at my face with… It’s not fear anymore, more of sadness. I approach my face close to his, so close, but he doesn’t move farther away. He stays and waits.
“I promise I’ll never do it again” I say, and this time I really mean it. “I’ll never let anyone do this to you again…”
His expression softens. He’s cute. No, he’s actually beautiful.
That’s something I never expected to say, but somehow it doesn’t feel bad saying it.
“Why ?” he asks with a so little voice.
I can ask myself the same question, why ? Because that’s how things are.
So I just smile at him slightly and get up to get out of this room without looking back. I’m ashamed of letting that part of me show up like that. I’m not gentle, remember !
Let’s stay the gentle Ninomiya Kazunari for a few more minutes, just the time to help my dear old friend Sho. He left Ohno to avoid him being miserable and now they both are. Good job, smartass !
“Aiba !” I call when I see him taking photos with some of our main models, except Jun.
He turns his head toward me, then gestures to the guys to take a break and quickly come closer.
“Yes ?”
“You know about Sho and Jun, don’t you ?”
He shrugs. “Well, I kind of guessed… Why ?"
I lower my voice. “Find a way to talk to Sho about it. Make it sound natural and tell him I know about it… Tell him I’ve known about it for a long time, but don’t tell him I asked you to say it ! Understood ?”
Aiba nods hastily though he’s frowning.
“Can I just ask why ?” he says then.
“Well, as soon as you’ll talk to Sho, you’ll probably know why I’m asking you this” I answer.
Then, I nod toward his camera to make him understand he has to go back to work.
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A/N: This chapter is a bit short, there's nothing much happening, but there are a looooot of things happening in next chap xD I don't know if you can already figure out why Nino asked this to Aiba =)
About the moment when he talks to his father, I know I cut it a bit shortly, but I wanted his father to appear and I didn't know how to end this scene, so sorry ^^"""
I hope you still like this fiction! The truth is, it turned out completely different from what I first imagined, because there wasn't the past Yama part at first, and now the whole story is about it, about what happened, so there might be a few things between the two first chapters and the rest that don't really add up, please forgive me >.<