it's time
it's gotta be the weather that's getting me down. it's been rainy for the last 2-3 weeks, and that's getting in the way of me enjoying the end of my travels. it's even harder knowing that i'm (obviously) not at brandeis, and am going to miss graduation. i'm here, bored in the rain, and back home, senior week is going on and everyone's having too much fun to talk to me. which is totally understandable; if i were there, i'm sure i'd be having an incredible time. it's so hard, and i hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, HATE "it's complicated." i think much of this pent-up frustration comes from a 3 month lack of cuddling. and other things.
all i know is right now, i feel like i'm on pause, and i'm freezing and i'm hungry. dinner's soon, so at least that last part is solve-able. we were warned today about "reverse cultureshock." that essentially means that you have to understand that the world didn't stop while you were away. things changed. i'm ok with that, but i'm just hoping and praying that certain things havent.
up until recently, going home has been this kind of exciting ray of light at the end of a crazy cool adventure. but, lately, the reality that home isn't exactly the most amazing and problem-free place in the world has set in. i'm going to be living at home, with my parents, for the first time since my post-freshman year summer. i'll be working full time for little to no pay, and if i don't find a subletter, any and all money i earn will have to go directly to wasted rent. awesome. at least i'll be doing something amazing and working in a field i care about; provided it all works out of course. i have to iron down thesis stuff (i'm still not even sure on a topic) and find out if kryder still wants/needs summer research help. blehhhhh.
anyways, keara's visit will cheer me up lots i'm sure, and i'm looking forward to a great weekend at la trinite. i just have to get through the rest of today and tomorrow. then it will all start flying by.
all i know is right now, i feel like i'm on pause, and i'm freezing and i'm hungry. dinner's soon, so at least that last part is solve-able. we were warned today about "reverse cultureshock." that essentially means that you have to understand that the world didn't stop while you were away. things changed. i'm ok with that, but i'm just hoping and praying that certain things havent.
up until recently, going home has been this kind of exciting ray of light at the end of a crazy cool adventure. but, lately, the reality that home isn't exactly the most amazing and problem-free place in the world has set in. i'm going to be living at home, with my parents, for the first time since my post-freshman year summer. i'll be working full time for little to no pay, and if i don't find a subletter, any and all money i earn will have to go directly to wasted rent. awesome. at least i'll be doing something amazing and working in a field i care about; provided it all works out of course. i have to iron down thesis stuff (i'm still not even sure on a topic) and find out if kryder still wants/needs summer research help. blehhhhh.
anyways, keara's visit will cheer me up lots i'm sure, and i'm looking forward to a great weekend at la trinite. i just have to get through the rest of today and tomorrow. then it will all start flying by.