Art + Cosplay + life Update
Hiya!
In the beginning of February I lost my internet service because I couldn't afford the bill as my hours got slashed at work. I went from my max of 24 hours to as little as 8 and it didn't help when I started to get sick. First I had a bad flu and then an ear infection that made it painful to even sit up one weekend. But I finally was able to pay the bill after getting a bonus at work and now my hours are slowly creeping back up to what they were. Wal-Mart has funny ways of showing it's love for it's cashiers...
Before that November was marked for me as a bad month emotionally after I was made painfully aware in October that my girlfriend was the biggest hypocrite in my life. It all involved an incident of misunderstanding in which I called her on break from work to say I was too sick to drive myself 1 and half hours to her house for her cousin's wedding the next day. I never said I wasn't going to make it to the wedding just that I wasn't going to make it that night. I got out of work to find that she had driven down and was waiting for me in the parking lot where she proceeded to scream at me about how I was ruining a family event for her. I was too tired to stand up for myself and ended up getting in the car with her and going to the wedding where she ignored me the entire night so she could make a drunken idiot of herself with her brothers all the while saying that she loved me and cared for me more then ever.
Needless to say after that I started to re-evaluate what she meant to me and I came to the conclusion that I just couldn't love her anymore as she could so easily yell at me one moment and then say she loved me the next. I started not making the effort to see her, ignoring her phone calls ect until she called me up and asked me what was wrong which is when I broke down and told her that I didn't love her. She was furious and broke up with me a week before Thanksgiving.
Not like I cared at that point. I felt liberated. She had done what I couldn't do.
And I was also in love with my best friend Kitsu who after the whole ordeal admitted to me that she felt the same way. Should have seen the whole thing coming. The two of us have been virtually inseparable for the past three years. The girl had been by my side through the whole Katie fiasco and she was the first person I could truly be myself around and she passed no judgments. We've now been together for 5 months...
In January my mom pressured me into going to a psychiatrist with her and I ended up going back on my ADD medication that I had been avoiding since high school because of some bad side effects. Turned out to be the best decision I've made in a while. She also revealed something which I had my suspicions about for a few years which is the fact that I have Asburger's Syndrome a form of high functioning autism that makes it incredibly difficult to form interpersonal relationships with people and heightens anxiety around social situations. Although I was a little shocked about this- it's helped me deal with my anxiety attacks that I get when I'm in stressful situations at work.
At the end of January I started class again with much enjoyment. Junior year has meant a lot more challenge with more feedback from teachers. I'm starting to feel that I'm getting some where with my art and not just treading water.
Some studio shots from my facebook account: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=98456&id=1040314632&l=50ac848251
I've been working on a series of self portraits for my finals in Portrait and Landscape Painting. Both are in oil and one is on stretched canvas while the other is on massonite.
Last semester I was busy working on Kitu's and my Kingdom Hearts cosplays. My Riku cosplay was finished in January with the arrival of my lovely wig. Kitsu's Sora is almost finished even though the shirt/pants are going to be reworked. I ordered her a wig but it came in to red so I'm saving that one for my sister's Kairi costume and still need to order a new one.
Some photos: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=94244&id=1040314632&l=24b18595a8
I'm working on uploading these and more to my DevArt account (orogirl333)
Anyways.... I have to get ready for bed. 1st shift at Wal-Mart sucks....
~CiCi aka WanderingAimlessly (Aimie)
In the beginning of February I lost my internet service because I couldn't afford the bill as my hours got slashed at work. I went from my max of 24 hours to as little as 8 and it didn't help when I started to get sick. First I had a bad flu and then an ear infection that made it painful to even sit up one weekend. But I finally was able to pay the bill after getting a bonus at work and now my hours are slowly creeping back up to what they were. Wal-Mart has funny ways of showing it's love for it's cashiers...
Before that November was marked for me as a bad month emotionally after I was made painfully aware in October that my girlfriend was the biggest hypocrite in my life. It all involved an incident of misunderstanding in which I called her on break from work to say I was too sick to drive myself 1 and half hours to her house for her cousin's wedding the next day. I never said I wasn't going to make it to the wedding just that I wasn't going to make it that night. I got out of work to find that she had driven down and was waiting for me in the parking lot where she proceeded to scream at me about how I was ruining a family event for her. I was too tired to stand up for myself and ended up getting in the car with her and going to the wedding where she ignored me the entire night so she could make a drunken idiot of herself with her brothers all the while saying that she loved me and cared for me more then ever.
Needless to say after that I started to re-evaluate what she meant to me and I came to the conclusion that I just couldn't love her anymore as she could so easily yell at me one moment and then say she loved me the next. I started not making the effort to see her, ignoring her phone calls ect until she called me up and asked me what was wrong which is when I broke down and told her that I didn't love her. She was furious and broke up with me a week before Thanksgiving.
Not like I cared at that point. I felt liberated. She had done what I couldn't do.
And I was also in love with my best friend Kitsu who after the whole ordeal admitted to me that she felt the same way. Should have seen the whole thing coming. The two of us have been virtually inseparable for the past three years. The girl had been by my side through the whole Katie fiasco and she was the first person I could truly be myself around and she passed no judgments. We've now been together for 5 months...
In January my mom pressured me into going to a psychiatrist with her and I ended up going back on my ADD medication that I had been avoiding since high school because of some bad side effects. Turned out to be the best decision I've made in a while. She also revealed something which I had my suspicions about for a few years which is the fact that I have Asburger's Syndrome a form of high functioning autism that makes it incredibly difficult to form interpersonal relationships with people and heightens anxiety around social situations. Although I was a little shocked about this- it's helped me deal with my anxiety attacks that I get when I'm in stressful situations at work.
At the end of January I started class again with much enjoyment. Junior year has meant a lot more challenge with more feedback from teachers. I'm starting to feel that I'm getting some where with my art and not just treading water.
Some studio shots from my facebook account: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=98456&id=1040314632&l=50ac848251
I've been working on a series of self portraits for my finals in Portrait and Landscape Painting. Both are in oil and one is on stretched canvas while the other is on massonite.
Last semester I was busy working on Kitu's and my Kingdom Hearts cosplays. My Riku cosplay was finished in January with the arrival of my lovely wig. Kitsu's Sora is almost finished even though the shirt/pants are going to be reworked. I ordered her a wig but it came in to red so I'm saving that one for my sister's Kairi costume and still need to order a new one.
Some photos: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=94244&id=1040314632&l=24b18595a8
I'm working on uploading these and more to my DevArt account (orogirl333)
Anyways.... I have to get ready for bed. 1st shift at Wal-Mart sucks....
~CiCi aka WanderingAimlessly (Aimie)