I HATE Being Depressed!
Ack! I hate it. I do. I get nothing done and feel like I’m wasting my life. I don’t want to see people and everyone pisses me off! Gack!
Okay, that’s out of my system…I hope…
Today is payday, but I think the damn check is already gone. and I have 3 graduates to send money to! And I owe the library $40 in fines. Bitch and moan. If I were really concerned, I’d work OT, which I only do kicking and screaming. Or I’d look for freelance work again.
I may have to get money out of savings, which I hate doing.
The hot tub is lovely, I have to admit, and I’m really hoping A's right and it’s not going to cost us any more per month than we’re already paying in…just won’t have as much going to principal is all.
Celebrated A's brother's birthday Thursday with a BBQ and hot tubbing. Lovely day for it. Had celebrated hers on Saturday at Racine’s. Yum.
Hubby's pissed off about the backyard, a little. Says A wants him to get rid of his flower cart. I like the flower cart and think he should keep it, but he doesn’t want to cause problems. I don’t really care one way or the other, but if he wants it, he should keep it.
E was in a mood Tuesday when we went up to her. Got over it by the time we were through, but still…don’t know if she was mad because A said she needed to leave by 3:00 so we couldn’t take her to the grocery store and to Lowes to look for a/c and window coverings both. She’s gained back almost all of the weight she’d lost, to the point that A thinks we need to start using my car because it’s bigger and easier for her to get into.
I look at E and see my future. No wonder I’m depressed.