a new start

[mock_pianist]

So school has started and I inevitably feel like a freshmen. Things have not been going well. I have had so much stress from my friend dying to tensions with another good friend that it has really taken a toll on my body. I saw someone who looked like my friend the other night at the bar and it really freaked me out. I dont think she would have looked like her otherwise but your mind plays funny tricks on you when you're emotionally drained. I have cried more in the past couple of weeks than I have in years. My heart just hurts. I am not trying to be emo, that's not me, but life is handing me lemons. I have also had people who I never thought would be in my life again reappear recently and that has screwed with my emotions as well. Of course when I need to focus on school more than anything, all of this is happening. I am struggling. I have met very few people who can be good supports for me. My friend Patrick has been amazing though and I appreciate him more than he will ever know. I feel like some people I have become closer with now that I am away. I miss home.

On a different note... Ernesto was a pansy ass storm. I have seen better storms in michigan that werent category 1 hurricanes. The hurricane season is still young and as weird as it sounds... I want to experience a good one. Not like a super good one, just a mediocre minimal damage one. Is that sedistic? At least it was reason to cancel school and have a hurricane party. I like this concept of a hurricane party. I dont know why we never had blizzard parties. I think you all should start.