Drama
Yesterday, I had a bit of drama with my apartment mate and I don't know if it'll be awkward now. I feel like it will. I haven't seen/talked to her since last night because I felt so bad and was avoiding her and I wanted to reflect on what I did. I had to bother my dad and my brother, so I already felt extremely sad/horrible. I don't know. I heard her talking in the room to her mom and my other roommates about the stuff she didn't like about me. Things like how I am always in a bad mood (just because I am quiet doesn't mean that I am in a bad mood, I just don't know what to talk about) and how I am really weird and it bothers her and various other things before she closed the door. I'm very quiet, but I still say hi or bye to her and sometimes asks how she is doing. I feel like she puts up such a nice front and she doesn't really like me. I am not a very loud roommate. I am generally quiet if I know that my roomies are about to sleep or study and I always do my chores and buy the things we need. She sometimes forgets to do her chores and gets angry and she is loud when I want to sleep. I don't know if I'm doing something wrong or what. I did make a huge mistake yesterday, so I can't blame her for getting frustrated at me and I know I am 100% at fault for not thinking in advance about my actions, but, the other things that supposedly bother her, I don't even know. It just makes me feel bad that she felt all these negative things about me. She talks behind one of my other roommate's back, too. Ugh, there is like this negative energy in the apartment now and I have to live here for a year.