Back for one night only

[mobdick]

Ok, I'm pretty sure everyone that might get ahold of my LJ knows Lisa and I are broken up...again, but I just want it out there, on the record exactly what happened. For my own well being and just because. This isn't the return of the "Nick's depressed" LJ rants either, I'm actually just the opposite. Anyways, on with the tale

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[ubermagen]

lol irony

sorry

I was in an emotionally retarded spot when we were "together" and knew it wouldnt last long/ was kidding myself, but I suure as hell knew Lisa was a tramp.

I dont even know how I came back across your journal, but this I had to laugh at. Finish your school stuff and forget girls, specially ones that go back and forth with you, I did that with John and crushed him unintentionally.

[mobdick]

You know, I'd pretty much decided I wasn't going to reply to this, because there really wasn't a whole lot of reason to. But last night I had a dream that consisted of you almost entirely and when I woke up, unlike most of my dreams, I remembered it vividly. Basically what it left me wanting to do was tell you that I really did care for you a lot when we were together. I wasn't just blowing smoke up your ass the whole time and when I made the decision I did it really bothered me for a long time about wether I made the right choice. I still don't know if I did, but I know that I've probably thought about you 6 days out of every 7 since we stopped seeing each other and that used to bother me when I was with Lisa, but now I consider it a good thing and it reassured me that you weren't just a rebound girl or someone I was using to make Lisa jealous. I really had genuine feelings and I'm sorry things worked out the way they did. Three's no point to justify what I did all these years later, but I just hope that you can believe me when

[ubermagen]

well, thats kind of nice to hear. I did really like you, but the way you kept quite obviously going after Lisa , I had to at least try to tell myself it wouldnt last, specially since I had just gotten done going back and forth with John.

The way itall happened was very mean, since I was at a very emotional point, but I dont have hard feelings anymore really. Sorry if my first post came of as rough. I just had to laugh at this whole Lisa thing, because I knew she was just messing with you again >< Which genuinely made me feel bad for you. She just seemed like a really shallow person from what I saw. One of those girls that have to have it all, and their way now.

Anyways, Cali is going as well as moving across the country can for the first year, hopefully I can get married back in Indiana sometime in th next year or so.

[mobdick]

If you ever come back to valpo single and you're willing to give me another chance I'd take it. It amazes me I dont have a single negative memory of you.

[ubermagen]

Hehe , thats a nice thing to say, but I plan to marry Matt, something amazingly awful would have to happen to mess things up. When I'm with someone I'm there till the end to make them happy, I guess you missed that boat :\

Do you plan to just stay in valpo from now on? Not moving back home?

[ubermagen]

Oh, and I guess I cant say I really have negative memories of back then. We got along very well, and I was planning on satying with you however long itworked out. That was honestly my emotional changing point in my life too I think..I had a lot of weird crap happen around then, like having a few different boyfriends in a smaller time span, after being used to being with John for 5 years.

I'm sure deciding to go back to Lisa was very hard for you, but being a girl I'm sure I found some way to be a bitch, even though I cant remember what it was. I honestly forgot about that time of my life pretty fast @.@

Sorry, random late night thoughts. If ya feel like saying hi on aim sometime its zombi magen. I cant name anyone from valpo I talk to since I moved so that would be cool I guess.