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mm maybe it is residual caffiene in my system, but I have a feeling of opportunity jumping around in my mind. It could have something to do with boosted ego as a result of special attention from members of the opposite sex.
Its a good sign that I can't decide what to study because there is so much I want to learn. Enviro, spanish, bio, polisci, english. Windows seem open to me, and i remember back home in St, pete that was how I defined a good mood. Those rare instances where i felt limitless and open. I feel it more in college, does that mean I'm happier in college? Maybe, but i think that my definition of happiness has changed too. Its actually a really good question now that I think of it, whether I am happier or not. Generally I think I am, with little deficiencies like potholes in the road. I am happier. But I miss my friends. There, settled.
I have a theory about fall, now that I have really experienced it. Fall promotes clear thinking. The air is cold and clear, and the leaves fall off the trees and the view is clear. Where before I could only see greens, then oranges and yellow later, now I can actually see the buildings and parks off in the distance when I look out from behind Wren. You can see things as they actually are in fall, and probably winter too, but I can't tell yet. I'm thinking clearly and I really like it. With my factual side and my emotional, not one over the other.
I am going to miss my english class next semester, i like writing on quality prompts to organize my thoughts on a matter. Its very refreshing, and I doubt I will be able to sit myself down and write like that on my own later. Also, we are reading amazing books in that class. My Antonia was such a gem to read because i wasn't expecting anything from it. I like Walden too, a lot. I don't see why people complain about that book so much, its amazing if you can focus on it.
i'm sensitive and open, and maybe vulnerable because of it, but its good
Its a good sign that I can't decide what to study because there is so much I want to learn. Enviro, spanish, bio, polisci, english. Windows seem open to me, and i remember back home in St, pete that was how I defined a good mood. Those rare instances where i felt limitless and open. I feel it more in college, does that mean I'm happier in college? Maybe, but i think that my definition of happiness has changed too. Its actually a really good question now that I think of it, whether I am happier or not. Generally I think I am, with little deficiencies like potholes in the road. I am happier. But I miss my friends. There, settled.
I have a theory about fall, now that I have really experienced it. Fall promotes clear thinking. The air is cold and clear, and the leaves fall off the trees and the view is clear. Where before I could only see greens, then oranges and yellow later, now I can actually see the buildings and parks off in the distance when I look out from behind Wren. You can see things as they actually are in fall, and probably winter too, but I can't tell yet. I'm thinking clearly and I really like it. With my factual side and my emotional, not one over the other.
I am going to miss my english class next semester, i like writing on quality prompts to organize my thoughts on a matter. Its very refreshing, and I doubt I will be able to sit myself down and write like that on my own later. Also, we are reading amazing books in that class. My Antonia was such a gem to read because i wasn't expecting anything from it. I like Walden too, a lot. I don't see why people complain about that book so much, its amazing if you can focus on it.
i'm sensitive and open, and maybe vulnerable because of it, but its good