April, fool.
After rainy days, the sun will shine.
It is indeed April, and that means 30 days until my birthday. I'm undecided what to do because I want to have a party, but I don't think people want to hang out with me anymore. Everyone's either gone or doesn't have time for me. I suck because I don't drink, and I'm not all wild and crazy, so I'm not fun to be around, I suppose. On the other hand, I might want to just spend the day with Dave. I don't know, I've got 30 days to figure out my plans.
In good news, I got a call for a job interview that I think is super promising. Thing is, I have to wait 4 weeks for the interview. I'll be biting my nails til then... Even if I get the job though, I still need to find summer employment, which is proving quite difficult. But I've got to remain positive that things are going to work out.
In bad news, I just read on Facebook that a kid I went to high school with died today, apparently suicide. We weren't good friends or anything, but we had band together and we'd talked a few times. Another friend wrote: "I will never comprehend suicide. Never stop fighting." Those words are really stuck to me right now. I think of all the times in high school and college when I contemplated suicide or did stupid things because I thought I wanted to die. I put suicide on such a pedestal, like it was glamorous or something, when in reality if I had ever even been remotely close to it, I'd have realized the seriousness of the situation. It really makes me feel like a jerk, when someone I know actually went through with it.
I definitely know that life is worth living and I love the people in my life too much to end it. No matter how bad things get, how deep the hole goes, there's always a chance to get back up again.
Never stop fighting.
It is indeed April, and that means 30 days until my birthday. I'm undecided what to do because I want to have a party, but I don't think people want to hang out with me anymore. Everyone's either gone or doesn't have time for me. I suck because I don't drink, and I'm not all wild and crazy, so I'm not fun to be around, I suppose. On the other hand, I might want to just spend the day with Dave. I don't know, I've got 30 days to figure out my plans.
In good news, I got a call for a job interview that I think is super promising. Thing is, I have to wait 4 weeks for the interview. I'll be biting my nails til then... Even if I get the job though, I still need to find summer employment, which is proving quite difficult. But I've got to remain positive that things are going to work out.
In bad news, I just read on Facebook that a kid I went to high school with died today, apparently suicide. We weren't good friends or anything, but we had band together and we'd talked a few times. Another friend wrote: "I will never comprehend suicide. Never stop fighting." Those words are really stuck to me right now. I think of all the times in high school and college when I contemplated suicide or did stupid things because I thought I wanted to die. I put suicide on such a pedestal, like it was glamorous or something, when in reality if I had ever even been remotely close to it, I'd have realized the seriousness of the situation. It really makes me feel like a jerk, when someone I know actually went through with it.
I definitely know that life is worth living and I love the people in my life too much to end it. No matter how bad things get, how deep the hole goes, there's always a chance to get back up again.
Never stop fighting.