its been a while
i haven't written in this thing for a long time, idk y. whatever. tonight was homecoming, and that was a lot of fun, actually a lot more fun than i had anticipated (did i spell that right?). but i blew it, i didn't do something that i wanted/needed to do tonight, tonight was the night, no other night really works that well, and i thought i would have a chance to do it later so i just kept putting it off, and then bam, the window of oppertunity slamed shut with my fingers cought in it. FUCK. but on the other hand, im glad that the most important thing i have to worry about is not doing something that in the big picture is actually kind of arbitrary. think about all the people our age who have to fend for themselves, or take care of 5 brothers and sisters because they're the oldest and the parents aren't around...thank god i have a good life, i guess that kind of cheers me up, but not really...FUCK