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no comfort. no vitamin k. no sense of self. no haircut. no hurry. no strange cities alone. no nights on the floor. i used to wash my car religiously. subscribe to periodicals. respect myself. better feign respect for myself. slip a note to the most attractive person in the room. be fluent in another language. set the dinner table. now i'm defeated by household appliances. closing chapters by the dozen. feeling less with every passing hour when i should be feeling worse. i know that much. i should be feeling worse. take my pulse, not my hand.