Some things I just don't want to know
So I called my mom tonight for our weekly Sunday appointment to let her know I'm still alive and you know, generally all right. Usually these conversations are painful. My mom and I don't have much to talk about across the state. We share very few interests and definitely not the same sense of humor. I usually sit (as patiently as I can) and listen to her gabble on about the weather in Philadelphia, some distant relative I don't really know, or listen to her guilt me into feeling bad I don't live closer to her so I can take care of this. I don't really look forward to these conversations, but I guess as thank you for being my mom, I can let her know I'm still alive from week to week.
I called later this evening later than usual due to my new second part-time job (more about that in a minute), and she doesn't answer until ring 4 and 1/2, which for someone as painfully lonely as she complains of being is where I expected the answering machine to pick up instead of her.
So she picks up, laughing--something very rare. And she says she can't really talk now, she has "company." And I hear the laughter and a male voice in the background.
For those of you who may not know, my mom has been seeing (though not in public), a married dude. It took a lot for my sister and I to weasel it out of her at first, but once she confessed after months of hints about a "friend," the flood gates openend and my mom told me more information that I ever needed to know about her romantic trysts with this new guy--the only guy in ten years--who she added was married.
Now I don't want to judge. I am very open minded to most things unless they turn out to be very harmful for you, but I still find it odd that my mother, the catholic who is considered too uptight for other catholics, who fought with and eventually split from my dad for catholic/moral code/upbringing reasons, is having an affair. I hope it works out for her.
In turn, it has lightened her mood a bit and I benefit because she doesn't guilt me nearly so much about being lonely or needing me to take care of her anymore. And if it gets me out of a mind-numbingly boring hour-long conversation when I have a thousand other things to do, that's great.
But next time mom, seriously, whatever you're doing, don't answer the phone. Let it go to voicemail and call me back tomorrow.
In other news, I got a new laptop about a month ago. I am using it primarily as a search engine for new jobs and haven't had much time to write at all, but I will get back in the habit. I would make a promise, but I know I probably won't keep it for long.
I found a second part-time job at Victoria's Secret. I am working seven days a week. I don't want to go into my financial and personal woes, plus I'm too exhausted at this point to think anymore about it. But it was the right decision to get me back on my feet and get me through Christmas. It just may mean that for the time being I'll be either M.I.A. or cranky pants tired if I make it out.
I am trying really hard to focus on finding a new full time job because ultimately that would solve all my problems, but no luck yet. I have tried to look for university jobs with no success yet, but if any of you alumni or people who actually work for a university, if you see anything, please let me know. I don't really know what I'm searching to find. I know what I'd eventually like to do, but I can't quite get there from where I currently am. It'd be like going from Step A to Step H overnight. I don't really know what Step B is, but I'm looking for anything to get me out of my current situation. I'm trying to perservere like I always do, but I know I'll hit my limit soon. Blerg.
I called later this evening later than usual due to my new second part-time job (more about that in a minute), and she doesn't answer until ring 4 and 1/2, which for someone as painfully lonely as she complains of being is where I expected the answering machine to pick up instead of her.
So she picks up, laughing--something very rare. And she says she can't really talk now, she has "company." And I hear the laughter and a male voice in the background.
For those of you who may not know, my mom has been seeing (though not in public), a married dude. It took a lot for my sister and I to weasel it out of her at first, but once she confessed after months of hints about a "friend," the flood gates openend and my mom told me more information that I ever needed to know about her romantic trysts with this new guy--the only guy in ten years--who she added was married.
Now I don't want to judge. I am very open minded to most things unless they turn out to be very harmful for you, but I still find it odd that my mother, the catholic who is considered too uptight for other catholics, who fought with and eventually split from my dad for catholic/moral code/upbringing reasons, is having an affair. I hope it works out for her.
In turn, it has lightened her mood a bit and I benefit because she doesn't guilt me nearly so much about being lonely or needing me to take care of her anymore. And if it gets me out of a mind-numbingly boring hour-long conversation when I have a thousand other things to do, that's great.
But next time mom, seriously, whatever you're doing, don't answer the phone. Let it go to voicemail and call me back tomorrow.
In other news, I got a new laptop about a month ago. I am using it primarily as a search engine for new jobs and haven't had much time to write at all, but I will get back in the habit. I would make a promise, but I know I probably won't keep it for long.
I found a second part-time job at Victoria's Secret. I am working seven days a week. I don't want to go into my financial and personal woes, plus I'm too exhausted at this point to think anymore about it. But it was the right decision to get me back on my feet and get me through Christmas. It just may mean that for the time being I'll be either M.I.A. or cranky pants tired if I make it out.
I am trying really hard to focus on finding a new full time job because ultimately that would solve all my problems, but no luck yet. I have tried to look for university jobs with no success yet, but if any of you alumni or people who actually work for a university, if you see anything, please let me know. I don't really know what I'm searching to find. I know what I'd eventually like to do, but I can't quite get there from where I currently am. It'd be like going from Step A to Step H overnight. I don't really know what Step B is, but I'm looking for anything to get me out of my current situation. I'm trying to perservere like I always do, but I know I'll hit my limit soon. Blerg.