Sigh
I don't know what's going on. Things have been crazy lately. Up and down. Mark and i are fighting alot now. I don't get it. I mean I do, but . . . sigh. There's a new girl that works at Carrington, Jen. A very funny and fun Canadian girl who I think that Mark has a crush on. He's only just started hanging out with me again, literally the day she arrived. Plus he's started sleeping with one of his friends that he's been lusting after for years. Fine. Good. I'm glad. Honestly, I think I'm getting over it. The whole crush thing. Maybe. I really want us to be friends though, as insane as he makes me sometimes, he's a good guy and I like hanging out with him. Of course on some level I wish that me telling a guy that I have a crush on him wouldn't immediately result in a) them laughing and b) them finding someone else to fuck. Seriously. 4th time in a row. It's like me having a crush on some guy is exactly what he needs to finally get him laid. It's just never me. Fuck this, man. I don't get it. I don't! How does this always, ALWAYS, happen to me? So, anyway we're mainly fighting about work and stuff like the fact that I think he's being a lazy git and he thinks I'm selfish and rude. I don't even want to get into how much i bend over backward to make his life easier at work and how he does the exact opposite for me. I deffinately don't want to get into how he's always the first one to turn a discussion into an argument, not to mention the fact that when we argue he talks at me and when I say anything he tells me to shut up. That's right, seriously, "Shut up" and I'm the rude one. He's also so fucking pouty and vindictive. Like will seriously hold things over my head even after i've apologized, he's worse than my mother. He once wouldn't even accept my apology, saying "I don't want you to apologize, I just wish you hadn't done it." (Okay, so I called him at 8 in the morning to razz him about the mess he'd left in the kitchen, shouldn't have done it, but I was only half serious and jokey and he started yelling at me first on the phone.) Anyway, somehow in the course of the evening we were talking about this coming summer and how busy we are going to be when all of the sudden we were fighting. He was saying something and I made a face and sort eye rolly gestures (which were just sort of like blah blah I've heard it before kind of gestures that I honestly meant in a jokey way.) and he blew up at me, and I laid into him. Because a week ago or so, he told me basically that he was hiring someone else to do my job over the summer. So, I brought that up and he's all "I never said that, that not what I meant."
-Previous discussion:
Mark: I've offered Roddy the job to oversee the kitchen over the summer.
Me: Why?
Mark: Well, I'll be on the floor more and will only sort of be a visitor in the kitchen and I'll need someone to take over.
Me: I thought that was my job.
Mark: oh, are you up for it?
Me: Yes, we've talked about it.
Mark: But it'll be doing the rosters, and ordering and all that.
Me: I know, we've talked about it.
Mark: Oh, okay.
End of previuos conversation.
So, yeah. He did say that. Grrr. Anyway, we fight and then I'm all why are we even fighting about this and he's all i don't know so he gives me a beer and then everything's supposed to be okay. Grrr. now I'm too tired once again to go into detail about the psychic. grrr. maybe later.
-Previous discussion:
Mark: I've offered Roddy the job to oversee the kitchen over the summer.
Me: Why?
Mark: Well, I'll be on the floor more and will only sort of be a visitor in the kitchen and I'll need someone to take over.
Me: I thought that was my job.
Mark: oh, are you up for it?
Me: Yes, we've talked about it.
Mark: But it'll be doing the rosters, and ordering and all that.
Me: I know, we've talked about it.
Mark: Oh, okay.
End of previuos conversation.
So, yeah. He did say that. Grrr. Anyway, we fight and then I'm all why are we even fighting about this and he's all i don't know so he gives me a beer and then everything's supposed to be okay. Grrr. now I'm too tired once again to go into detail about the psychic. grrr. maybe later.