Its hard to love when nobody loves you
So, yesterday evening all of us newspaper kids (9 of us) and our teacher went to Mama's pizza to eat and discuss newspaper things. We talked a bit about newspaper but mainly focused on the pizza eating contest between john and jeff.
There's this guy that i've seen since maybe my sophomore year and he's one of those people that i look at and think 'I wouldn't mind getting to know him' I didn't know his name until now. He changed his third period class into newspaper a couple of days ago and i don't exactly feel good about the situation because I hate to say that i'm attracted to him and I hate when things like that happen because never in my life has that done any good for me. Its not a crush (I don't like that word) but i'm definitely attracted to him. All it does is make me nervous and avoid him and hate myself all at the same time. I hate being attacted to people. Last night at Mama's pizza when we were leaving,this girl from our school (who is very nice) came to pick him up. She's 'hot' by John's standards and It just makes me feel gross. I hate it. It makes me hate myself and that's no way to begin my senior year.
There's this guy that i've seen since maybe my sophomore year and he's one of those people that i look at and think 'I wouldn't mind getting to know him' I didn't know his name until now. He changed his third period class into newspaper a couple of days ago and i don't exactly feel good about the situation because I hate to say that i'm attracted to him and I hate when things like that happen because never in my life has that done any good for me. Its not a crush (I don't like that word) but i'm definitely attracted to him. All it does is make me nervous and avoid him and hate myself all at the same time. I hate being attacted to people. Last night at Mama's pizza when we were leaving,this girl from our school (who is very nice) came to pick him up. She's 'hot' by John's standards and It just makes me feel gross. I hate it. It makes me hate myself and that's no way to begin my senior year.