those were the good old days...
im confused.
like a lost sheep in the meadow fields.
what happened to the days when people actually believed what others said?
it's like we can't trust others anymore..
when i was young, well 14yo, and was heavily invested in fandom,
people were continuously asking me, "why do you like them so much?"
it isnt the same fandom as i am in now, but the basic logic still applies.
all i said was, "well, i like their songs and dance. even though not all of them can sing, that's precisely what i like them for."
"i don't have to like a boyband/girlband/singer ONLY if he/she/they can sing"
everything comes in a package.
well if they didn't like them, i would be all cool and say "nevermind it's okay. we are different people. we like different things. it's only understandable"
im quite amazed that this came out from my mouth when i was 14.
i didnt quite know how to defend the people i liked then.
certain member said he wanted to quit cos he was starting to dread dance, his first true love
and what that made him join the industry in the first place.
i took it as it is. and he left the grp, opened a dance studio and held dance classes.
he was happy, the fans were also happy.
that was year 2005.
so let us welcome the year 2010. just 5 years later.
nothing much can be trusted anymore.
conspiracy theories. lies. insider information. spies.
you name it, we've got it.
fans flying across the pacific in other to attend a fan conference.
live reports straight from the conference right onto the internet.
people spreading information that the official statement should not be trusted.
people speaking to the friends of the one being victimised.
things. have gone global.
fans have become smarter. and spread information quick and fast.
so.. what really happened to the days when people accepted whatever was given to them?
did the fans become increasingly suspicious, or did the music/ent industry become shadier?
with so many things at the same time,
i know for sure that if i didnt read up on the insider information, i would have been completely fooled by the company.
even now, as im hearing things from the conference, i feel myself subconsciously being pulled into their hole.
i feel myself going "ohhh"
did i become numb?
and i had to remind myself that the conference itself it most likely to be heavily scripted.
and i have no idea why im feeling so down reading whatever's been going on there.
i just want this to be over soon.
i nvr realised fandom could be this bad.
i've been sitting at the computer for 4.5hours, just constantly waiting for updates to happen.
i signed up for hardcore kpop fandom in 2006.
this is what it is like in 2010.
do i regret? i don't think i do.
im still holding on to the faith that i have for my dbsk and 2pm boys.
they were the ones who were with me throughout this whole period of time.
like a lost sheep in the meadow fields.
what happened to the days when people actually believed what others said?
it's like we can't trust others anymore..
when i was young, well 14yo, and was heavily invested in fandom,
people were continuously asking me, "why do you like them so much?"
it isnt the same fandom as i am in now, but the basic logic still applies.
all i said was, "well, i like their songs and dance. even though not all of them can sing, that's precisely what i like them for."
"i don't have to like a boyband/girlband/singer ONLY if he/she/they can sing"
everything comes in a package.
well if they didn't like them, i would be all cool and say "nevermind it's okay. we are different people. we like different things. it's only understandable"
im quite amazed that this came out from my mouth when i was 14.
i didnt quite know how to defend the people i liked then.
certain member said he wanted to quit cos he was starting to dread dance, his first true love
and what that made him join the industry in the first place.
i took it as it is. and he left the grp, opened a dance studio and held dance classes.
he was happy, the fans were also happy.
that was year 2005.
so let us welcome the year 2010. just 5 years later.
nothing much can be trusted anymore.
conspiracy theories. lies. insider information. spies.
you name it, we've got it.
fans flying across the pacific in other to attend a fan conference.
live reports straight from the conference right onto the internet.
people spreading information that the official statement should not be trusted.
people speaking to the friends of the one being victimised.
things. have gone global.
fans have become smarter. and spread information quick and fast.
so.. what really happened to the days when people accepted whatever was given to them?
did the fans become increasingly suspicious, or did the music/ent industry become shadier?
with so many things at the same time,
i know for sure that if i didnt read up on the insider information, i would have been completely fooled by the company.
even now, as im hearing things from the conference, i feel myself subconsciously being pulled into their hole.
i feel myself going "ohhh"
did i become numb?
and i had to remind myself that the conference itself it most likely to be heavily scripted.
and i have no idea why im feeling so down reading whatever's been going on there.
i just want this to be over soon.
i nvr realised fandom could be this bad.
i've been sitting at the computer for 4.5hours, just constantly waiting for updates to happen.
i signed up for hardcore kpop fandom in 2006.
this is what it is like in 2010.
do i regret? i don't think i do.
im still holding on to the faith that i have for my dbsk and 2pm boys.
they were the ones who were with me throughout this whole period of time.