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for once today, i finally realised something about myself.
early in the morning, i came across a post on omntd, asking for fanfics of taecjay.
being an avid fanfic reader, i clicked on the post.
what surprised me was that out of like probably 9 of the fics that this one user named.
i've read 8 of them before.
that's like taecjay alone, not counting the numerous numerous khunyoung fics that i've read due to its sheer popularity.
okay, so well, that's not the main point. HAHA.
im a long-winded person, you see
so i read that one particular fic that ive not came across before.
and it was so beautiful in many ways.
Three stories: what could have happened, what is and what might’ve been
3 different time frames of the same people compacted into one single fanfic.
it wasnt confusing. it brought me laughters and tears.
for the things that could have happened, for the things that have happened and the things that should happen.
i loved the last part the best.
我们跟时代进行，高唱谐和的歌音，
五育平均齐发展，堂堂地做个完人。
共同努力追 赶光明, 巩 固国家基础锻炼身心。
我南洋桃李成荫，我南洋校誉光荣，
在太平洋的西岸， 在印度洋的东滨，
共同努力振起精神, 献身国家社会，锻炼身心。
the school song that i loved singing during assembly. really.
i took so much pride in singing this school song.
then i thought of the time in sec3 when i received my Olevels normal chinese results.
i got an A and a distinction for oral.
to be honest, i wasnt expecting anything lower than that.
i have high expectations for my mastery of the chinese language.
but i still cried.
i had no idea why i was crying. like, out of relief?
i didnt feel extremely happy actually. i expected an A from myself.
there should be no reason for me to cry,
but it just kept coming, on and on. for half an hr.
after that, i still felt like crying.
people asked me why i was crying. i just gave the most logical answer in the shortest time possible.
that i was scared abt the release of my other Olevels results next year.
but i dont think it was.
then, i felt that i was crying out of sadness. weirdd.
right then, the image of kwon crying appeared in my head.
and i realised, so that was what i was feeling.
2am had their debut stage and kwon was crying non-stop.
he said that as he performed on stage, all the images of his trainee days came flowing back.
i guess the same happened to me.
i was thinking abt the years i had in nanyang and how i only had one more year in ny.
everything was so overwhelming.
i didnt think, until then, that i would be leaving the school in a year.
maybe that was why 어노래/This Song became an instant hit with me.
whenever i listen to the song and think of the lyrics, it brings tears to my eyes.
one of the most sincere songs that ive ever heard in a while.
so this was my 2 cents for the day,
i think im prep-ing myself for next friday.
i have an ominous feeling. shit.
dental surgery tomorrow. welcome to the world of liquid food.
early in the morning, i came across a post on omntd, asking for fanfics of taecjay.
being an avid fanfic reader, i clicked on the post.
what surprised me was that out of like probably 9 of the fics that this one user named.
i've read 8 of them before.
that's like taecjay alone, not counting the numerous numerous khunyoung fics that i've read due to its sheer popularity.
okay, so well, that's not the main point. HAHA.
im a long-winded person, you see
so i read that one particular fic that ive not came across before.
and it was so beautiful in many ways.
Three stories: what could have happened, what is and what might’ve been
3 different time frames of the same people compacted into one single fanfic.
it wasnt confusing. it brought me laughters and tears.
for the things that could have happened, for the things that have happened and the things that should happen.
i loved the last part the best.
我们跟时代进行，高唱谐和的歌音，
五育平均齐发展，堂堂地做个完人。
共同努力追 赶光明, 巩 固国家基础锻炼身心。
我南洋桃李成荫，我南洋校誉光荣，
在太平洋的西岸， 在印度洋的东滨，
共同努力振起精神, 献身国家社会，锻炼身心。
the school song that i loved singing during assembly. really.
i took so much pride in singing this school song.
then i thought of the time in sec3 when i received my Olevels normal chinese results.
i got an A and a distinction for oral.
to be honest, i wasnt expecting anything lower than that.
i have high expectations for my mastery of the chinese language.
but i still cried.
i had no idea why i was crying. like, out of relief?
i didnt feel extremely happy actually. i expected an A from myself.
there should be no reason for me to cry,
but it just kept coming, on and on. for half an hr.
after that, i still felt like crying.
people asked me why i was crying. i just gave the most logical answer in the shortest time possible.
that i was scared abt the release of my other Olevels results next year.
but i dont think it was.
then, i felt that i was crying out of sadness. weirdd.
right then, the image of kwon crying appeared in my head.
and i realised, so that was what i was feeling.
2am had their debut stage and kwon was crying non-stop.
he said that as he performed on stage, all the images of his trainee days came flowing back.
i guess the same happened to me.
i was thinking abt the years i had in nanyang and how i only had one more year in ny.
everything was so overwhelming.
i didnt think, until then, that i would be leaving the school in a year.
maybe that was why 어노래/This Song became an instant hit with me.
whenever i listen to the song and think of the lyrics, it brings tears to my eyes.
one of the most sincere songs that ive ever heard in a while.
so this was my 2 cents for the day,
i think im prep-ing myself for next friday.
i have an ominous feeling. shit.
dental surgery tomorrow. welcome to the world of liquid food.