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so far i like the new radiohead album. i'm tempted to buy the $40 set on their website, which includes a vinyl version as well as a CD. i'm not crazy about just having music in digital format; i like to have something tangible, something i can hold in my hand.
the weekend was mostly good, which is due in large part to yesterday....i'll get to that in a moment. matt and i had the beach house reading friday night and it went fairly well, despite a lot of cancellations. hearing it out loud was okay, but only made me realize that i'm still not happy with it for any number of reasons. one character is almost offensively cliched, and i was somewhat embarrassed by that. people thought it was funny, but i felt it bordered on inappropriate. but people had fun and that was really most of the point anyway.
much of my mood that evening was clouded by the fact that i'm realizing that i'm slowly drifting away from one of my oldest friends. a lot of hurtful things were said on friday and it really broke me up. i'm not innocent in all this; i've acted like a five year old in some ways, but mostly i just don't understand what's going on or where his maliciousness comes from. the whole situation has really beaten me down and i've decided that the best way to deal with it is to just walk away. it saddens me quite a bit.
saturday i played football with the work team and had beers with some people afterwards. i came home and picked up the apartment from friday. amy and i looked at a few houses she was interested in and then erin came over, followed by randy and jess. we had a nice night.....randy and i made dinner and then the four of us had a long conversation about some serious subjects: friendship, our parents' influence on us, our vices, our fears. i don't know where it came from but it felt good and made me happy. the pork chops and wine made us drowsy, but we talked a while longer anyway.
the best part of the weekend was sunday. i proposed to erin over donuts sunday morning and after a brief moment of panic when she started crying, i realized she was happy and saying "yes!" so that worked out pretty well. we drove to versailles to tell her parents and then out to okeana to tell mine and the whole day was filled with a lot of smiles and laughing. no date yet, but we're thinking september or october of next year.
i head to orlando on wednesday for business. i hear the caribe royale is kind of cheesy.