Nov 02, 2008 01:19
So I went to the DC Eagle tonight ... it was interesting. I was in a very chill laid back mood, but unfortunately whenever I'm laid back I always get the "oh you don't look like you are having a good time" comment at least once. It didn't fail to happen tonight either. You see it's funny, because I get criticized all the time about my 'club/bar persona' how it's not the real me and how it's about as deep as a puddle. However when I shed that persona for whatever reason, I still get critized. What's more, when I'm laid back I'm largely ignored, which kind of bothers me.
To be honest, the way I was dressed, I just didn't feel like I owned the place. I had on a basic polo, jeans and sneakers and I had to carry my pea coat around because they didn't have a coat check. I was not dressed up the way I normally would, I looked very average. So that right there had an effect on how quiet I was. You see I'm not a smooth talker, I rarely say all the right words and I'm very socially awkward ... I've always gotten by off of my appearance. When that isn't up to snuff I don't do well in bar/club settings. I mean what do you talk to someone about in a club? C'est la vie ... I think I'm doing better though. I will be much better prepared the next time i go out.