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Late entry. Im only writing late because I stayed up to watch the Notebook. That movie always makes me think, about a lot of things. It hurts to watch it sometimes because it makes me think of Brittany. So many things in that movie remind me of us. We too had a summer omance, and it was likewise over in a flash. Except mine never had a happy ending. I hate in my journals how I always end up sounding like I am completely devastated by her, that gives her too much credit. There was a time I was devasted, by myself more than her, but now she means nothing to me. What does mean something to me is my life, though.
When I think of her, or watch movies like the Notebook, I wonder about my life. I wonder if I will ever love someone like they did, if I will ever have that. What makes me sad is when I picture me and Brittany in that situation, she always leaves me for the other guy. I think maybe that is why I still havent dated anyone since her, fear of abondonment maybe...Deep down I am afraid that I will never have that again. Never be in love, never sacrifice. Never be irresponcible, but really not care.
Before I watched the movie I was going to write about firends and baseball, or maybe how the Nuggets beat the T Wolves, but now I dont feel like it. Ironically, my daily fortune was: "love is a golden cage" Obscure. I wonder what it means. Of course, Upton SInclair said: There are two types of prisons, one is where you are locked in and everything you want is on the outside. The other is where everything you want is locked in, and you are on the outside.
When I think of her, or watch movies like the Notebook, I wonder about my life. I wonder if I will ever love someone like they did, if I will ever have that. What makes me sad is when I picture me and Brittany in that situation, she always leaves me for the other guy. I think maybe that is why I still havent dated anyone since her, fear of abondonment maybe...Deep down I am afraid that I will never have that again. Never be in love, never sacrifice. Never be irresponcible, but really not care.
Before I watched the movie I was going to write about firends and baseball, or maybe how the Nuggets beat the T Wolves, but now I dont feel like it. Ironically, my daily fortune was: "love is a golden cage" Obscure. I wonder what it means. Of course, Upton SInclair said: There are two types of prisons, one is where you are locked in and everything you want is on the outside. The other is where everything you want is locked in, and you are on the outside.