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I met a guy the other week while sitting in starbucks. He started talking about his thoughts on why things happened in the world. What made things happen and what made us do and think in certain ways etc. He had decided that we could never know the answers to these things. So I brought God into the equation.
At this point he made a somewhat laughable point that made me choke on my grande white chocolate mocha with cream. He said, "Religion is the easy way out of a lack of understanding."
How wrong could a person be!
At first I just wanted to laugh at this comment and explain to him why he was completely wrong...but then I stopped and thought about it. No, becoming a christian has not made my life easier, but it has made my life easier to live. Because I now understand exactly what makes things happen. Or rather, who. God of course. It's not an easy way out of lacking understanding but it is a way out. He obviously didn't think very much about what he said. A way out of not understanding something is to find out about it. The bible...what better source of knowledge is there??
Another reason why I could have laughed at this statement was the 'easy' part of it.
I have struggled more than I've ever struggled before, in the last two months. At first I'd be encouraged by the things people said to me about the Lord and everything but last night I felt nothing while reading the kind messages from caring friends. So...this morning I was sort of talking to myself and heard my head say "what if God isn't doing anything in me. maybe He gave up." and it was like someone hit me across the face with a sledge hammer and I literally shouted at myself, "Who are you to doubt your Father?!?!"
Then I remembered somthing a good friend said to me. "Maybe you still have your hands closed around what you're trying to surrender to Him." And so I stood in the kitchen conservatory, lifted my head, opened my hands and prayed. I prayed for Him to take everything I had and change it, turn it around, make it new. I prayed that He would be with me in every step and guide me through everything. Well......I prayed a lot of things I guess. Too much to tell you it all. But I also prayed that He would help me to develop a prayer life. I'm not so good at praying. But He already set aside a time for me. Last night my mum came and told me that (while stuck at home) at 3.30-4.30 I wasn't allowed on the internet and couldn't go out.
Well what can I say but PTL!!
God Bless!!
xx