...totally random...
Well it is like 9:00 am and I am up!
Yeah, I know that one is a big shocker.
I don't know, I just couldn't sleep for some reason. Anyway, as I was sitting here this morning and I got to thinking. Why can't I be different than what I am now? Now, I know this sounds weird, but I'm serious. There is so much more I expect myself to be doing, and I am not doing anything...or so I feel that way.
I need a job, badly. I honestly don't know how I am going to get a good job in this area though.
There is nothing here, zero opportunities... =(
I'm just so tired of living around here. I honestly should have stayed in Va Beach. At least I had my life settled there and I was actually getting somewhere, ya know? Now, I feel like I am stuck in one place and I'm not going anywhere. I can't stand that feeling. *sighs*
Ok, enough ranting on about my problems! LoL*
So anyway, yesterday I got to talk to Kim for a little while, which was cool. I hate that she is so down right now. She seems like such a sweet person and I hate that she is hurting so bad right now. It was good talking to her though, and I tried giving her the best advice possible. I hope something I said helped hun! =) We actually got to talking about relationships and how guys are. LoL* She made me realize a few things. I mean seriously...when it comes to guys, they are so confusing. I am sure we can be just as confusing at times though. I don't know...I just don't see how a guy has something good come up in his life and he's settled into something good, and has something real...then just up and drops it. Treats the entire situation as if it meant absolutely nothing to him. The sad thing about it is, they know you do care and you're hurt, but it's like they don't care to let you cry. It's like your tears are nothing. I could go on and on about this stuff. Guys are just confusing. Bottom line. I mean really, I am beginning to wonder if there are any truely good guys out there...and if so, where the heck are they? LoL* *shrugs* Kim, hang in there though hun. I know things seem really rough right now, but I promise they will only get better. I know it is hard to see that right now, but everything will seriously be alright...with time. Time heals the pain. That is what everyone tries telling me, anyway. Sometimes it just takes longer for some people's pain to go away. In my case, I am still hurting, and yes it feels like it will never go away. I am trying to have the faith that it will eventually be gone. I am hoping you can do the same! =)
Moving on, I wrote Will an email the other day. I received one back not too long ago, but I have wrote one back since that one. He has failed to write me back so far. I am sure he will write as soon as he can...or at least I hope he will. I love being able to hear from him. It makes me feel a little better, I guess. I guess it is just nice to know what is going on in his life. I mean I was in a pretty serious relationship with the guy before so. I just wish I didn't miss him like I do sometimes. It is like I am usually alright when I am out with friends, laughing and having a good time. I mean I usually mention his name from time to time, but I am feelinh alright about everything. Then, a song we used to listen to or a song that had some sentimental memory along with it, comes on then I am right back where I started. *sighs*
Also when I am alone, I think of him. I wish his memory would quit haunting me. When I say that, I mean it. It is like it is haunting me. It won't go away. I am tired of thinking and replaying all of our memories over and over in my head. It only makes thing worse on me. Oh well, I guess I will just have to give it time. Although, it has been four months, my heart hasn't completely healed like I want it to. I am hoping that will all come soon *crosses her fingers* =)
Anyway, I feel like this summer is starting off as a rainy one again this year. Rain can be alright, but I love the sunny days. They always seem to make my mood a little better than what a rainy day would. Rainy days can be so depressing! =( I just hope the sunny days out number than rainy this year! I am such a summer girl and being able to get outside and enojy a *sunny* day is great!
Well...
I know this is completely random, but I was wondering if anyone knows the name of the song Ashley Simpson, Jessica Simpson's, sister just came out with? I heard it while traveling to South Carolina and I was just curious what the name of the song was? So if anyone happens to know, if you don't mind let me know!
...Anyway Jess is suppose to be going to see a guy later. He is a model or something. I admit, he is a pretty cute guy! He seems pretty nice also. Jess has been also talking to this other guy some. I hear her! LoL*...She's sort of playing the field some, I guess. Which isn't so bad. I guess you have to sort of rumage(sp?) through the guys to see which one is the right one for you, ya know? I mean the only thing bad about trying to find *the right guy* is you have to sort of go through all the bad ones to get to the good ones. I guess that you have to do that so when you do find *mr, right* you'll appreciate him a lot more. I guess it's worth it in the end though...*shrugs* Now, the best thing about Jess talking to all these *hott* guys is that he has to have some *hott* friends around... and well that is a plus for me LoL* =)
...I want my hair cut again. Although, I just got it cut two weeks ago. I don't know I am just so aggrovated with it. I want some more highlights too! *sighs*
Oh well...
That was a little random too, my bad! LoL* =)
Jess and I are always wanting to do something with our hair though. LoL*...
Oh...me and Jess decided we are really girly girls this week.
We have done nothing but primp and pamper ourselves this entire week. I have to admit it has been nice. I honestly think we were both long overdue for this and we definetely deserved it! =)
Anyway, I guess that is it for an update, but before I go I just realized I had forgot to say congratulations to the class of 2004! =)
So...
*Class of 2004*
Congratulations! You finally made it! I pray that God blesses each and everyone of you all. Good luck in all that you do! =)
...also I expect some comments this time!
I mean really where are you all these days?
I miss the comments LoL*
Leave me some comments this time, surprise me LoL* =)
Yeah, I know that one is a big shocker.
I don't know, I just couldn't sleep for some reason. Anyway, as I was sitting here this morning and I got to thinking. Why can't I be different than what I am now? Now, I know this sounds weird, but I'm serious. There is so much more I expect myself to be doing, and I am not doing anything...or so I feel that way.
I need a job, badly. I honestly don't know how I am going to get a good job in this area though.
There is nothing here, zero opportunities... =(
I'm just so tired of living around here. I honestly should have stayed in Va Beach. At least I had my life settled there and I was actually getting somewhere, ya know? Now, I feel like I am stuck in one place and I'm not going anywhere. I can't stand that feeling. *sighs*
Ok, enough ranting on about my problems! LoL*
So anyway, yesterday I got to talk to Kim for a little while, which was cool. I hate that she is so down right now. She seems like such a sweet person and I hate that she is hurting so bad right now. It was good talking to her though, and I tried giving her the best advice possible. I hope something I said helped hun! =) We actually got to talking about relationships and how guys are. LoL* She made me realize a few things. I mean seriously...when it comes to guys, they are so confusing. I am sure we can be just as confusing at times though. I don't know...I just don't see how a guy has something good come up in his life and he's settled into something good, and has something real...then just up and drops it. Treats the entire situation as if it meant absolutely nothing to him. The sad thing about it is, they know you do care and you're hurt, but it's like they don't care to let you cry. It's like your tears are nothing. I could go on and on about this stuff. Guys are just confusing. Bottom line. I mean really, I am beginning to wonder if there are any truely good guys out there...and if so, where the heck are they? LoL* *shrugs* Kim, hang in there though hun. I know things seem really rough right now, but I promise they will only get better. I know it is hard to see that right now, but everything will seriously be alright...with time. Time heals the pain. That is what everyone tries telling me, anyway. Sometimes it just takes longer for some people's pain to go away. In my case, I am still hurting, and yes it feels like it will never go away. I am trying to have the faith that it will eventually be gone. I am hoping you can do the same! =)
Moving on, I wrote Will an email the other day. I received one back not too long ago, but I have wrote one back since that one. He has failed to write me back so far. I am sure he will write as soon as he can...or at least I hope he will. I love being able to hear from him. It makes me feel a little better, I guess. I guess it is just nice to know what is going on in his life. I mean I was in a pretty serious relationship with the guy before so. I just wish I didn't miss him like I do sometimes. It is like I am usually alright when I am out with friends, laughing and having a good time. I mean I usually mention his name from time to time, but I am feelinh alright about everything. Then, a song we used to listen to or a song that had some sentimental memory along with it, comes on then I am right back where I started. *sighs*
Also when I am alone, I think of him. I wish his memory would quit haunting me. When I say that, I mean it. It is like it is haunting me. It won't go away. I am tired of thinking and replaying all of our memories over and over in my head. It only makes thing worse on me. Oh well, I guess I will just have to give it time. Although, it has been four months, my heart hasn't completely healed like I want it to. I am hoping that will all come soon *crosses her fingers* =)
Anyway, I feel like this summer is starting off as a rainy one again this year. Rain can be alright, but I love the sunny days. They always seem to make my mood a little better than what a rainy day would. Rainy days can be so depressing! =( I just hope the sunny days out number than rainy this year! I am such a summer girl and being able to get outside and enojy a *sunny* day is great!
Well...
I know this is completely random, but I was wondering if anyone knows the name of the song Ashley Simpson, Jessica Simpson's, sister just came out with? I heard it while traveling to South Carolina and I was just curious what the name of the song was? So if anyone happens to know, if you don't mind let me know!
...Anyway Jess is suppose to be going to see a guy later. He is a model or something. I admit, he is a pretty cute guy! He seems pretty nice also. Jess has been also talking to this other guy some. I hear her! LoL*...She's sort of playing the field some, I guess. Which isn't so bad. I guess you have to sort of rumage(sp?) through the guys to see which one is the right one for you, ya know? I mean the only thing bad about trying to find *the right guy* is you have to sort of go through all the bad ones to get to the good ones. I guess that you have to do that so when you do find *mr, right* you'll appreciate him a lot more. I guess it's worth it in the end though...*shrugs* Now, the best thing about Jess talking to all these *hott* guys is that he has to have some *hott* friends around... and well that is a plus for me LoL* =)
...I want my hair cut again. Although, I just got it cut two weeks ago. I don't know I am just so aggrovated with it. I want some more highlights too! *sighs*
Oh well...
That was a little random too, my bad! LoL* =)
Jess and I are always wanting to do something with our hair though. LoL*...
Oh...me and Jess decided we are really girly girls this week.
We have done nothing but primp and pamper ourselves this entire week. I have to admit it has been nice. I honestly think we were both long overdue for this and we definetely deserved it! =)
Anyway, I guess that is it for an update, but before I go I just realized I had forgot to say congratulations to the class of 2004! =)
So...
*Class of 2004*
Congratulations! You finally made it! I pray that God blesses each and everyone of you all. Good luck in all that you do! =)
...also I expect some comments this time!
I mean really where are you all these days?
I miss the comments LoL*
Leave me some comments this time, surprise me LoL* =)