You wanna know more, more, more about me...I'm the girl that's sweeping you off your feet...
Hello all. I'm kinda sad right now, and the worst part is that I don't really know why. Ok, let me rephrase that. I am not sad, just frustrated with myself, and I do know why...
I have this strange magnetism that seems to draw people to me. They then have a tendency to become attached rather quickly. As my best friend Amy once said, "It's damn near impossible for someone to not fall in love with you." Recently, I have been affecting all kinds of people. Some I would rather not be affiliated with, not because they are bad people, but just because of the simple fact that they are people who I could see myself becoming attached to as well. Not a very good thing in my opinion...I'm a Sagittarius...I hate being tied down...
"Could you see I want you by the way I push you away?"
And now, my indecisiveness is hurting so many other people and I feel like such a selfish bitch. They open themselves up to me and all that I do in return is build up my walls even higher. What do I always complain about? Not having a boyfriend. And now, a group compiled of the best guys in the world are fucking going insane over me, and all of a sudden, I don't know what I want. Night after night, I sit and try to gather my thoughts on these situations, and night after night, I confuse myself even more.
"I'm the girl you never get just quite what you see"
It is the most heartbreaking thing in the world to sit and listen to someone tell you about how much they want to be with you...meanwhile, you have no clue what you want. I admit, I am a master at sending out mixed signals, although never on purpose...This whole dating process has become much more complicated then I would have ever imagined. This is exactly why I have stayed away from boys for the majority of my 16+ years on this Earth.
"You think that I'm only tangled up in me, when everything I do, is only to get tangled up in you"
I am writing this whole damn thing with three people in mind, and one of those people are not even aware of the fact that lately, my entries have had slight undertones directed at him... Oh well, I pray to the Lord that everything will work itself out, like problems usually do. And to all of you guys who continuously read my frenzied entries, I really do appreciate it and I love you all. That's one thing I'm sure of. <3
-Natavia
I have this strange magnetism that seems to draw people to me. They then have a tendency to become attached rather quickly. As my best friend Amy once said, "It's damn near impossible for someone to not fall in love with you." Recently, I have been affecting all kinds of people. Some I would rather not be affiliated with, not because they are bad people, but just because of the simple fact that they are people who I could see myself becoming attached to as well. Not a very good thing in my opinion...I'm a Sagittarius...I hate being tied down...
"Could you see I want you by the way I push you away?"
And now, my indecisiveness is hurting so many other people and I feel like such a selfish bitch. They open themselves up to me and all that I do in return is build up my walls even higher. What do I always complain about? Not having a boyfriend. And now, a group compiled of the best guys in the world are fucking going insane over me, and all of a sudden, I don't know what I want. Night after night, I sit and try to gather my thoughts on these situations, and night after night, I confuse myself even more.
"I'm the girl you never get just quite what you see"
It is the most heartbreaking thing in the world to sit and listen to someone tell you about how much they want to be with you...meanwhile, you have no clue what you want. I admit, I am a master at sending out mixed signals, although never on purpose...This whole dating process has become much more complicated then I would have ever imagined. This is exactly why I have stayed away from boys for the majority of my 16+ years on this Earth.
"You think that I'm only tangled up in me, when everything I do, is only to get tangled up in you"
I am writing this whole damn thing with three people in mind, and one of those people are not even aware of the fact that lately, my entries have had slight undertones directed at him... Oh well, I pray to the Lord that everything will work itself out, like problems usually do. And to all of you guys who continuously read my frenzied entries, I really do appreciate it and I love you all. That's one thing I'm sure of. <3
-Natavia