birthday wishes
I know I said all i wanted for my birthday was ben back. and i stick to that. it is all i really wasnted. But if I could be lucky.... I wish that:
-I had bought the Citizens I mooned over alll summer (you know, the pink beautifully stitched ones I would try one everywhere just to torture myself and you guys? and didnt buy at TNT cause i was STUPID?!) yes, those. SIGHS.
-Rowan didnt already have a name plated necklace because now I feel a bit fraudulent wanting one. But still, Emma says we could get them as friend gifts for each (NOTE: this doesnt mean I value her more than you guys! I still wear our joint necklaces whenever I need strength or miss you all like crazy. Nothing can replace the original friend gifts. P.S. who still wears the sweats??)
[i would like a gold one, i think she has silver. but its still nice.]
-an ipod.... yes. I should have bought one in the summer, but I was so broke after the flat iron. (which i use alot and am glad i bought!!) But I'm scared for winter. I dont think I will get up knowing I have a long cold silent walk ahead of me. hmmm.
-I pass all of my classes with at least a 70 avg... if not 75 cause i dont know the cut off for getting back into psych for third year. Please dont let me fail out of pscyh!!!
-That you all could make it down for my brithday, cause its never the same without the celebration with you guys. The next time I'll see you all after Thanksgiving is.... Christmas?? Insane! It was awesmoe to see savvy for homecoming, and i will love to see her again if she can make it down for my 19th. But its so lonely without the big group brithdays. Esp since my birthday is the middle of midterms, no one wants to go out and some people are going away. Sighs. i guess this means you're getting old... no presents, just things you 'need' and people cant go out cause they have so much work to do.
-Everyone is well and healthy (Halse this means you)and staying strong, even if they are feeling a little lost without their boyfriends around.
I promised ben that i would come back from thanksgiving happier. Lately I have been crying for no reason and really stressed. and not interested in sex. I dont know who this girl is, but she needs to go away cause I hate being so down. So I shall take the weekend to breathe and regroup and see you all and catch up and then start fresh again... and prod through my work and survive!
Ok.. I will stop making fruitful wishes that wont likely come true, seeing how we are all broke and I dont think I could buy myself anything at this point either. I really would be happy just to see you all on my birthday. Impossible, yes, but I can dream. or just pretend your here looking at photos : )
see you all in 3 days!!!
-I had bought the Citizens I mooned over alll summer (you know, the pink beautifully stitched ones I would try one everywhere just to torture myself and you guys? and didnt buy at TNT cause i was STUPID?!) yes, those. SIGHS.
-Rowan didnt already have a name plated necklace because now I feel a bit fraudulent wanting one. But still, Emma says we could get them as friend gifts for each (NOTE: this doesnt mean I value her more than you guys! I still wear our joint necklaces whenever I need strength or miss you all like crazy. Nothing can replace the original friend gifts. P.S. who still wears the sweats??)
[i would like a gold one, i think she has silver. but its still nice.]
-an ipod.... yes. I should have bought one in the summer, but I was so broke after the flat iron. (which i use alot and am glad i bought!!) But I'm scared for winter. I dont think I will get up knowing I have a long cold silent walk ahead of me. hmmm.
-I pass all of my classes with at least a 70 avg... if not 75 cause i dont know the cut off for getting back into psych for third year. Please dont let me fail out of pscyh!!!
-That you all could make it down for my brithday, cause its never the same without the celebration with you guys. The next time I'll see you all after Thanksgiving is.... Christmas?? Insane! It was awesmoe to see savvy for homecoming, and i will love to see her again if she can make it down for my 19th. But its so lonely without the big group brithdays. Esp since my birthday is the middle of midterms, no one wants to go out and some people are going away. Sighs. i guess this means you're getting old... no presents, just things you 'need' and people cant go out cause they have so much work to do.
-Everyone is well and healthy (Halse this means you)and staying strong, even if they are feeling a little lost without their boyfriends around.
I promised ben that i would come back from thanksgiving happier. Lately I have been crying for no reason and really stressed. and not interested in sex. I dont know who this girl is, but she needs to go away cause I hate being so down. So I shall take the weekend to breathe and regroup and see you all and catch up and then start fresh again... and prod through my work and survive!
Ok.. I will stop making fruitful wishes that wont likely come true, seeing how we are all broke and I dont think I could buy myself anything at this point either. I really would be happy just to see you all on my birthday. Impossible, yes, but I can dream. or just pretend your here looking at photos : )
see you all in 3 days!!!