Dream

[mizz_elysium]

So I have this dream last night. It was horrible. Just the worst kind of night mare. I killed a man, well two men. I was trying to help this little girl and I don’t know who she was. I have never seen this little girl before. I think she was around 8. It wasn’t Anya for sure. Anya has a special thing when I dream about her. I know her smell, smile

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[xtorted_decay]

To see violence in your dream, indicates unexpressed anger or rage. You need more discipline in your life. The dream may also reflect repressed memories of child abuse.

To see children in your dream, signifies your own childlike qualities or a retreat back to a childlike state. It is an extension of your inner child during a time of innocence, purity, simplicity, and a carefree attitude. You may be longing for the past and the chance to satisfy repressed desires and unfulfilled hopes. Take some time off and cater to the inner child within. Perhaps there is something that you need to see grow and nurtured.

To save a child, signifies your attempts to save a part of yourself from being destroyed.

[mizz_elysium]

You know thats what my therapist always says. That the little girl in me was so badly abused that she wasnt allowed to be the little girl. She says all the time I need to nurture the little girl. I just dont know how. Ive always been the adult. I had to be an adult growing up and taking care of my family. My abuse I suffered as a three year old with the baby sitter and my mother dying just shocked me into being a numb little adult. Ive always been so numb that its hard to figure out how to be there for me. Thats probably why I love needy people. I can just give it all to them and not have to worry about me.
You know though, before therapy I did not know any of this about myself. It makes you more concious about what you are doing. So you work on trying to figure it out. Thats a good step. I think Im way better then I was years ago. I wont probably ever be normal but shit Lyssa normal is like ice cream without chocolate sauce and whip cream.

[xtorted_decay]

Blah blah blah.

Lets screw.