After god only knows how long
...a post.
Yes, from me. Yes, in the middle of the night.
Yes, I have insomnia. And the tail end of a head cold, but that's just an aside.
I've been thinking. There's so much I want to do, but I feel like I haven't got the energy or the focus to do it. I have project upon project I'd like to get done. My skirts (at least 3 of them) and another skirt for para-chan. My Alice costume for Halloween. A billion doll projects including seam sanding and customizing. Xan's still in pieces because every time I go to airbrush him, it isn't until I go to wipe my trial spray that I realize I still haven't sealed him. Not to mention that my room is a mess and I have a ton of stuff to eBay/Etsy that's just sitting there in boxes doing nothing. And I've got... some weight I'd like to lose. I mean, going to the costume stores and looking at all the wonderful costumes, I see the note of "model is 5'7" and 120 lbs. and I feel like an absolute cow. Yes, I'm in my mid-thirties and not some twenty-something model, but still...
So I've been wondering if I'm going to have to spend energy to get energy. It comes back to running. It's something I've wanted to do for a while except that I hardly walk, really. But fit people always seem to have so much more energy than I do, and they say that one good habit begets another. It's the getting started that's the hard part. I mean, I can almost see the gym from my front door, and we're in spitting distance from a really great walking/running trail (it's even paved!).
And it's in the middle of the night when I'm feeling bad about myself that I find myself thinking I should get started. I should probably start by replacing my trainers. I've been wearing them to work since my perfect shoes have been getting uncomfortable.
Yes, from me. Yes, in the middle of the night.
Yes, I have insomnia. And the tail end of a head cold, but that's just an aside.
I've been thinking. There's so much I want to do, but I feel like I haven't got the energy or the focus to do it. I have project upon project I'd like to get done. My skirts (at least 3 of them) and another skirt for para-chan. My Alice costume for Halloween. A billion doll projects including seam sanding and customizing. Xan's still in pieces because every time I go to airbrush him, it isn't until I go to wipe my trial spray that I realize I still haven't sealed him. Not to mention that my room is a mess and I have a ton of stuff to eBay/Etsy that's just sitting there in boxes doing nothing. And I've got... some weight I'd like to lose. I mean, going to the costume stores and looking at all the wonderful costumes, I see the note of "model is 5'7" and 120 lbs. and I feel like an absolute cow. Yes, I'm in my mid-thirties and not some twenty-something model, but still...
So I've been wondering if I'm going to have to spend energy to get energy. It comes back to running. It's something I've wanted to do for a while except that I hardly walk, really. But fit people always seem to have so much more energy than I do, and they say that one good habit begets another. It's the getting started that's the hard part. I mean, I can almost see the gym from my front door, and we're in spitting distance from a really great walking/running trail (it's even paved!).
And it's in the middle of the night when I'm feeling bad about myself that I find myself thinking I should get started. I should probably start by replacing my trainers. I've been wearing them to work since my perfect shoes have been getting uncomfortable.