I Am So Ow Ow Ow Out Of Shape
I knew it would happen and so this morning I was not surprised to find I couldn't walk without great pain. The walk to and from the park is about a hour put together. My 250+ body can barely take it. It is up hill one way and the hill is a steep incline. I am huffing and puffing by the time I get to the top. Add pushing the double stroller and ouch! I will be going back tomorrow though. I figure if I do this three times a week it will get easier.
This morning the kids pulled all their clothes out of the drawers! As most of you know I use to work in retail and I HATE folding clothes as a result of it. It takes me forever to get them in the drawers and this is one reason why. I blasted the kids because Gaerfie wanted to do good cop bad cop. I was really angry though, it hurts to see hard work flushed down the drain like that. I don't know how to get them to stop.
The Gnome is getting smarter everyday! He is using complex sentences all the time now. He wants to read to his Sister. He even learned how to put the top on a soda bottle and turn knobs to open doors! He is amazing!
That said, Katydid is becoming more vocal lately. The speech therepy is really working! She was singing a few french songs we taught her on the way home from the park yesterday. She can hum on almost perfect pitch "Universally Speaking" by the Chili Peppers, and does childrens songs with her brother. What a bright little girl! Neither one can wait till Saturday and Lee's party. I know The Gnome wants to be a robot, but I don't know what Katydid wants to be yet.
Ok this section is for those of you that were concerned about the Mistress coming further into my life. There is quite a bit of detail so I have a TMI cut here.
The Mistress, Gaerfie. and I had a long talk over the weekend. I explained to both of them that I was in two poly-amorous relationships that went south. The Mistress asked me is there was any communication during them and I had to say no. Mitsuki and I talked all the time to each other, but Sage never spoke to the both of us about things we wanted to accomplish in the relationship, to be fair though him and I weren't doing very good to begin with. The mess with Poppy and the Sorceress...well that was just a mess. No communication on either side. The Mistress said that communication is very important and nothing will go forward if we all don't agree on it. That being said we both listened to what Gaerfie said he would like out of the relationship first.
He asked that he be somewhat dominated in the bedroom. I can't do this, it is against my nature. Like he would want me to recipracate the flogging i enjoy from him back to him and I don't have the power or nerve. He understands this, but it is something he craves. Having the Mistress be part of it is a safe way to not hurt me. The Mistress went next.
She wanted to let us know that because she is a Mistress by profession there will be times that she is with others and not to get offended if Gaerfie invites her over and that she has other plans with someone(s) else. Also at any given time if two of us are in bed and the other one comes home, that they are welcome to join and are excepted with open arms. Except between Gaerfie and I, because we are the original couple there is no such thing as go away, we don't want you. She also wants to raise my pain tolerence and use me as her main Submissive so I can reap the benefits. Finally it was my turn.
I started with explaining how through no fault of her own, Sage started to become more interested in Mitsuki in bed instead of me. How we stopped sleeping with me in the middle or her in the middle and Sage took that spot. He would hold Mitsuki and slowly push me off the bed whether on purpose or by accident. I remember coming home form work and finding the door to my bedroom blocked off by a dresser. Just little things that made me feel unwanted. Then when it came to the Sorceress she systematic drove a wedge between Poppy and I till I was the enemy. Of course she wanted him to herself which is not the case here. I explained i automatically feel like the third wheel and get scared to ask if I can join for fear of rejection. Myself worth was crushed by so many men in my life that I literally feel worthless and like i am a waste of space. Gaerfie hugged me and The Mistress assured me that she didn't waste her time with people who are worthless. That made me feel good.
Gaerfie offered to make dinner tonight so I can rest. I feel horrible because today was suppose to be a cleaning day. The house is still a wreck from the party(you probably noticed that in the background of the Butterfly pic)and I can't even stand up except to hobble down to the bathroom. Maybe later on I will feel better.
This morning the kids pulled all their clothes out of the drawers! As most of you know I use to work in retail and I HATE folding clothes as a result of it. It takes me forever to get them in the drawers and this is one reason why. I blasted the kids because Gaerfie wanted to do good cop bad cop. I was really angry though, it hurts to see hard work flushed down the drain like that. I don't know how to get them to stop.
The Gnome is getting smarter everyday! He is using complex sentences all the time now. He wants to read to his Sister. He even learned how to put the top on a soda bottle and turn knobs to open doors! He is amazing!
That said, Katydid is becoming more vocal lately. The speech therepy is really working! She was singing a few french songs we taught her on the way home from the park yesterday. She can hum on almost perfect pitch "Universally Speaking" by the Chili Peppers, and does childrens songs with her brother. What a bright little girl! Neither one can wait till Saturday and Lee's party. I know The Gnome wants to be a robot, but I don't know what Katydid wants to be yet.
Ok this section is for those of you that were concerned about the Mistress coming further into my life. There is quite a bit of detail so I have a TMI cut here.
The Mistress, Gaerfie. and I had a long talk over the weekend. I explained to both of them that I was in two poly-amorous relationships that went south. The Mistress asked me is there was any communication during them and I had to say no. Mitsuki and I talked all the time to each other, but Sage never spoke to the both of us about things we wanted to accomplish in the relationship, to be fair though him and I weren't doing very good to begin with. The mess with Poppy and the Sorceress...well that was just a mess. No communication on either side. The Mistress said that communication is very important and nothing will go forward if we all don't agree on it. That being said we both listened to what Gaerfie said he would like out of the relationship first.
He asked that he be somewhat dominated in the bedroom. I can't do this, it is against my nature. Like he would want me to recipracate the flogging i enjoy from him back to him and I don't have the power or nerve. He understands this, but it is something he craves. Having the Mistress be part of it is a safe way to not hurt me. The Mistress went next.
She wanted to let us know that because she is a Mistress by profession there will be times that she is with others and not to get offended if Gaerfie invites her over and that she has other plans with someone(s) else. Also at any given time if two of us are in bed and the other one comes home, that they are welcome to join and are excepted with open arms. Except between Gaerfie and I, because we are the original couple there is no such thing as go away, we don't want you. She also wants to raise my pain tolerence and use me as her main Submissive so I can reap the benefits. Finally it was my turn.
I started with explaining how through no fault of her own, Sage started to become more interested in Mitsuki in bed instead of me. How we stopped sleeping with me in the middle or her in the middle and Sage took that spot. He would hold Mitsuki and slowly push me off the bed whether on purpose or by accident. I remember coming home form work and finding the door to my bedroom blocked off by a dresser. Just little things that made me feel unwanted. Then when it came to the Sorceress she systematic drove a wedge between Poppy and I till I was the enemy. Of course she wanted him to herself which is not the case here. I explained i automatically feel like the third wheel and get scared to ask if I can join for fear of rejection. Myself worth was crushed by so many men in my life that I literally feel worthless and like i am a waste of space. Gaerfie hugged me and The Mistress assured me that she didn't waste her time with people who are worthless. That made me feel good.
Gaerfie offered to make dinner tonight so I can rest. I feel horrible because today was suppose to be a cleaning day. The house is still a wreck from the party(you probably noticed that in the background of the Butterfly pic)and I can't even stand up except to hobble down to the bathroom. Maybe later on I will feel better.