this ain't a cry for help
I feel the need to explode. Shatter around in a million pieces. Not angry nor depressed, not that kind of issues. I don't want to be invisible either. It's like my life's too good to be true and I'm afraid awful things will happen all at once so to fight that feeling I want to feel pain. GOD WHAT HAVE I BEEN DRINKING.
There's a really bad dermatitis going on on my right hand. I blame it on the compulsive washing that my brain imposes me to carry out at least once an hour. The skin got all red and dry and I have a couple of cuts on a couple of fingers. Doesn't look to pretty, I should use hand cream. It's so stupid how I know it's wrong but just keep on doing it anyway because I can't help it.
Melina is staring at me right now. Or better, lurking behind the corner. I bet she wants to play. Poor thing, I locked up all of her toys because she keeps on shoving them underneath furniture and it's no use pulling them out because she'll just do it again, so when she feels like playing (that is EVERY SINGLE INSTANT) she comes to me and starts bawling like "mommy mommy can we play now??". This way I can monitor her and check she doesn't lose the toy. Guess it's time to go.
There's a really bad dermatitis going on on my right hand. I blame it on the compulsive washing that my brain imposes me to carry out at least once an hour. The skin got all red and dry and I have a couple of cuts on a couple of fingers. Doesn't look to pretty, I should use hand cream. It's so stupid how I know it's wrong but just keep on doing it anyway because I can't help it.
Melina is staring at me right now. Or better, lurking behind the corner. I bet she wants to play. Poor thing, I locked up all of her toys because she keeps on shoving them underneath furniture and it's no use pulling them out because she'll just do it again, so when she feels like playing (that is EVERY SINGLE INSTANT) she comes to me and starts bawling like "mommy mommy can we play now??". This way I can monitor her and check she doesn't lose the toy. Guess it's time to go.