Ruminations
The desire to live a monastic life, even knowing
what I know about how difficult it can be,is still
there. Bits and pieces of it are woven into my
prayer life and I am content living single and
celibate.
Father P. just can't understand why I am content
'as is,' like I'd have to have a husband to complete
myself. Jeepers. He told me that someday I might change
my mind, to stay open to the possibility of marriage.
Finally, I leveled with him, said that I now have time
to put my full attention on my prayer life. Not that
my Bob was a distraction, because my life with him was
good and holy. But now, I am free to be in prayer
or at church whenever I choose. With a husband, my time
was not my own to spend.
Grateful that I am experiencing things that most do when
they are young. Kind of a reverse life but a good one
nonetheless.
what I know about how difficult it can be,is still
there. Bits and pieces of it are woven into my
prayer life and I am content living single and
celibate.
Father P. just can't understand why I am content
'as is,' like I'd have to have a husband to complete
myself. Jeepers. He told me that someday I might change
my mind, to stay open to the possibility of marriage.
Finally, I leveled with him, said that I now have time
to put my full attention on my prayer life. Not that
my Bob was a distraction, because my life with him was
good and holy. But now, I am free to be in prayer
or at church whenever I choose. With a husband, my time
was not my own to spend.
Grateful that I am experiencing things that most do when
they are young. Kind of a reverse life but a good one
nonetheless.