ahh wishful thinking.
http://www.allkpop.com/2010/03/final-member-of-chinese-wonder-girls-to-be-chosen-through-auditions
OH HAI DERE, I'M CHINESE.
qualified? YOU BET I AM. 8D
- physical appearance: i'll be super conceited and say that i am quite the pretty girl. props to my parents and my Creator.
oh, i have the body! i'm a little over 5'6, super long legs...and, uhm, abnormally long fingers? my hips are also quite wide.
hm? bust? what bust? okay, so i admit i barely have any boobal region...
and i have zero self-confidence. and for a while in my past i did nothing but try my hardest to not stand out.
i called it my 'uglification phase.'
really - i had this whole idea that if i could somehow make myself ugly...then people would like me more.
apparently, if you're pretty and shy, people think you're arrogant. and i didn't want anyone thinking that i was better than them in ANY ASPECT, so i tried so hard to push myself back so others could get ahead. and that way! they wouldn't feel bitter towards me..and be nice 8D!
i was so so stupid.
and perhaps a bit masochist.
- singing talent: i've always been musically inclined. as an accomplished pianst playing for showcases, winning scholarships, and being granted recognition state-wide...i can keep a beat and note pretty darn well.
except my voice range is like from here------to--------here. and it's not a strong voice, either. and i'm really shy about singing in front of anyone other than my family.
- dancing talent: my moves are fluid, i improv all the time in front of the mirror with toothbrush in hand. i shocked my school friends during our gym dance unit with my performance of SHINee's Replay dance part. i got the swag,
but no experience.
i download tutorials and watch professional dancers all the time.
but the thing is...i sit. and watch. and wish.
SO.
WISHFUL THINKING? I THINK SO. XD
enough with the self-bashing. that, in itself, is embarrassing enough.
sorry guys [whoever is reading this at the moment], i realize rants like these are never pleasing to the eye or the mood.
i just need to make myself realize...that the chances of going into entertainment are slim, to say the least.
especially with the kind of future that will hold. do i really want that?
without the support of my parents...would it even be realized even if i got far enough? obedience to the two people who've loved me since forever - is that really worth trading in for fame?
face it, Jenny. you're going to work your butt off to get into a good college [waiting for acceptance letters! April 1st. April Fool's! what kind of sick joke is that?!]
put your 101% effort into it. find yourself. find the friends you'll have for life. find love. make your parents proud.
follow God's plan for you.
^ which you don't know...but nevertheless - excel and keep your heart on the cross and on what blessing you already have.
- fin.
OH HAI DERE, I'M CHINESE.
qualified? YOU BET I AM. 8D
- physical appearance: i'll be super conceited and say that i am quite the pretty girl. props to my parents and my Creator.
oh, i have the body! i'm a little over 5'6, super long legs...and, uhm, abnormally long fingers? my hips are also quite wide.
hm? bust? what bust? okay, so i admit i barely have any boobal region...
and i have zero self-confidence. and for a while in my past i did nothing but try my hardest to not stand out.
i called it my 'uglification phase.'
really - i had this whole idea that if i could somehow make myself ugly...then people would like me more.
apparently, if you're pretty and shy, people think you're arrogant. and i didn't want anyone thinking that i was better than them in ANY ASPECT, so i tried so hard to push myself back so others could get ahead. and that way! they wouldn't feel bitter towards me..and be nice 8D!
i was so so stupid.
and perhaps a bit masochist.
- singing talent: i've always been musically inclined. as an accomplished pianst playing for showcases, winning scholarships, and being granted recognition state-wide...i can keep a beat and note pretty darn well.
except my voice range is like from here------to--------here. and it's not a strong voice, either. and i'm really shy about singing in front of anyone other than my family.
- dancing talent: my moves are fluid, i improv all the time in front of the mirror with toothbrush in hand. i shocked my school friends during our gym dance unit with my performance of SHINee's Replay dance part. i got the swag,
but no experience.
i download tutorials and watch professional dancers all the time.
but the thing is...i sit. and watch. and wish.
SO.
WISHFUL THINKING? I THINK SO. XD
enough with the self-bashing. that, in itself, is embarrassing enough.
sorry guys [whoever is reading this at the moment], i realize rants like these are never pleasing to the eye or the mood.
i just need to make myself realize...that the chances of going into entertainment are slim, to say the least.
especially with the kind of future that will hold. do i really want that?
without the support of my parents...would it even be realized even if i got far enough? obedience to the two people who've loved me since forever - is that really worth trading in for fame?
face it, Jenny. you're going to work your butt off to get into a good college [waiting for acceptance letters! April 1st. April Fool's! what kind of sick joke is that?!]
put your 101% effort into it. find yourself. find the friends you'll have for life. find love. make your parents proud.
follow God's plan for you.
^ which you don't know...but nevertheless - excel and keep your heart on the cross and on what blessing you already have.
- fin.