hi dere
i find myself sitting in front of the laptop. again.
being "unproductive." again.
my feet are cold. again.
and i really really hope i don't go to sleep after 2AM. again. as it has been for the past few months.
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oh, Sir eye-bags. Mr. fatigue. and General lack of grasp on life...
you guys are NOT my comarades.
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i slipped up again, two nights ago. i am disgusted.
come to think of it, i'm angry at myself most of the time, aren't i? but what's the use of angry, if i can't have self-control?
and i know exactly Who can bring me out of this hole i've dug for myself, but...
i don't ask. and thus, i don't recieve.
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Jenny, stop forgetting. your brain is full of holes because you don't water it, feed it, exercise it, or give it rest. kinda like what you do to the rest of your body.
no wait, you do feed it. a lot. stop it.
thus:
- TRY DRINKING WATER. i have no idea what's hydrating me. no idea what's been hydrating me for these past 18 years.
- EXERCISE. and maybe you'll have more strength, be more awake, and stop having those silly yet frightening symptoms that scare both you and the people that love you.
- SLEEP. aish...when will this self-induced-insomnia end??
but to be absolutely honest.
there isn't anything substantial to complain about. my life is good. it's just ME who's causing disturbances ;P
being "unproductive." again.
my feet are cold. again.
and i really really hope i don't go to sleep after 2AM. again. as it has been for the past few months.
-------
oh, Sir eye-bags. Mr. fatigue. and General lack of grasp on life...
you guys are NOT my comarades.
------
i slipped up again, two nights ago. i am disgusted.
come to think of it, i'm angry at myself most of the time, aren't i? but what's the use of angry, if i can't have self-control?
and i know exactly Who can bring me out of this hole i've dug for myself, but...
i don't ask. and thus, i don't recieve.
------
Jenny, stop forgetting. your brain is full of holes because you don't water it, feed it, exercise it, or give it rest. kinda like what you do to the rest of your body.
no wait, you do feed it. a lot. stop it.
thus:
- TRY DRINKING WATER. i have no idea what's hydrating me. no idea what's been hydrating me for these past 18 years.
- EXERCISE. and maybe you'll have more strength, be more awake, and stop having those silly yet frightening symptoms that scare both you and the people that love you.
- SLEEP. aish...when will this self-induced-insomnia end??
but to be absolutely honest.
there isn't anything substantial to complain about. my life is good. it's just ME who's causing disturbances ;P