[the forgotten princess] chapters 5 & 6
HAPPY EITO DAY EVERYONE!!!
オメデトウ ( ^ _ ^)∠☆PAN！
I became an Eighter in the beginning of 2009. Before that though I had heard of Kanjani8 because of Ryo, I was a big time NEWS fan. And when I found out about Eito I thought they were so annoying and really hated them lol But then around the time of Musekinin Here and Wahaha, I started watching, I think it was Can!Jani, and Janiben :) And they were sooo funny! Even though I didn't understand what they were saying, I still found myself laughing like an idiot. So I started trying to find more and more of their shows, found more and more of their music, PV's, and concerts and eventually I found myself only listening to Eito ^^
Finding out their tough beginnings and how much they really bond, only strengthened my love for this band. And because of them I've been able to make so many awesome friends and meet so many wonderful Eighters :D I can't wait to see how much they'll evolve in the next 8 years! Ganbare Eito!
Previous Chapter
Chapter Five
I woke up slowly, my eye's opening and looking around. To my right was a pretty light pink curtain that was half way closed around me, and on the other side was the nurse. Her back was turned towards me, it looked like she was writing something down. I lifted my hand to my head and rubbed my temple... it wasn't hurting any more. How long have I been out of it?
I got up, alerting the nurse. She spun around in her chair, and for a moment I really thought she wasn't a nurse. She had the looks of a famous actress. It seems a lot of people who were at this school was like that.
"How are you feeling Miss Mori?"
"I'm feeling... better. But how long-"
She got up and walked over to the bed I was lying in, taking a seat next to me, "Only an hour."
"An hour?!" I was suddenly trying to get up out of bed, "What about my first class?!"
She put her hands on my shoulders keeping me down, "No way, you're staying put. I've already talked to your teacher and we both agreed for you to stay here until I'm ready to release you."
I pouted, "Then am I free to leave?"
"Why so quick to leave, hm" she asked curiously as she got back up to sit in her chair, and grabbing a notepad and pen.
I pulled the blanket back over my cold legs, "Oh, well, it's nothing... I just didn't want to start my time here like this."
"Would you like me to call your parents?"
"NO! Don't tell them anything about this!"
She was startled by my sudden outburst, but smiled either way, "Ok, I won't call them."
I blushed, "Thank you... um.."
"The students call me Hinata-chan."
"Ehhh..." I tilted my head in disbelief, "Things really are different here..."
"I don't mind it, I rather like it," she smiled. "So, let's get back to you. I was looking at your health records, and it seems you haven't had any previous accidents like this. The only thing I see here is that you lost your memories prior to being in an accident, probably from head trauma..."
I curled the blanket around me, not really wanting to tell her, but maybe she could help me figure out what was happening. Clearly my brain was trying to get it's memories back, but why here?
"Right, well, I've only had this happen to me once before. It was last week."
"I see... So take me step by step."
"Well, first I feel like my body refuses to move, when it starts happening. And suddenly my mind goes foggy, and somehow I see a boy standing in front of me playing..." I looked up embarrassed.
"What does the boy look like?" She noticed me looking at her,"Don't worry, you're among a friend, I only want to help you in figuring out what's wrong, ok," she said sweetly.
I smiled, more comfortable with talking. "Eh? Well..." I closed my eyes and thought about it, "He has dark hair that's combed to the side, and a nice looking outfit on. Mm, and... I think he's wearing a bracelet maybe?" I opened my eyes and sighed heavily, discouraged, "I don't know..."
"It's ok, it takes time. It's a good start!"
I felt better, "Ok.... well, after I see that boy, he looks at me and calls me Princess. And that's when the pain starts. A terrible pain that feels like a knife jabbing its way in deep. It doesn't last long, but still..."
"Hm, it seems something triggered your memories, well at least this boy to appear." She started writing fast on her notepad. "Can you tell me, was there anything similar in both cases, maybe you happened to see the same thing both times?
I thought about last week, when it happened I was looking at... My eyes got wide, Tadayoshi! He was there both times now!
She could tell I thought of something, "What is it?"
I looked down at the blanket, "The same boy... was there. Last time, and this time too."
"A boy?"
"Un... Okura Tadayoshi." I looked up at her and I could tell she was thinking. "Do you think he has been triggering my memories to come back?"
"That's quiet possible."
"W-what should I do? Should I ask him about it?" I was suddenly sitting up straight and at attention.
"I don't think it's wise to try and force it, Miss Mori. Otherwise your memories might not come back at all."
I was a bit let down, "I see..."
"What I suggest is hanging out with him more. If it happens again, you can be sure he's what's responsible," she could see the excitement on my face, "But remember, don't try and force it. Let it happen naturally." She laughed a bit, "You like him don't you?"
"W-What? No!" I bit my lip, "Well... maybe...I've only really met him today..."
She got up and help me to stand on my feet, "Hm, love at first sight?" She smiled, "Good luck Miss Mori. I wish you luck, in both love, and in finding your precious memories."
I smiled, "Thank you Hinata-chan!"
She laughed, "Ok, now hurry and go back to class. Take this note with you." She quickly wrote something out and handed me the note, "Oh! And don't be afraid to come talk to me about anything ok?"
"Thank you very much."
I bowed and left the nurses' office. Looking down at the note, and then down the hallway, I headed towards my class. The second class just started, so I shouldn't miss much. That means I'll have to ask for notes for my first class.... Since Hinata-chan said so, I'll ask Tadayoshi-kun for his help. Of course I couln't hide my smile at the thought of spending more time with him.
It might be a bit tricky to do so when we're not in school though. I have work after, and I live so far away. Plus, I'm sure he has a lot of stuff he has to do.... I guess I'll just have to take advantage of being in school with him!
But could he happen to be the young boy I'm remembering? What if he is? That would mean he'd would have been a childhood friend of mine?
I could feel myself getting worked up, so I took a deep breath and tried my best to put it out of my mind. "Don't force it."
I waited outside the door for a moment, a bit scared of opening it. But now wasn't the time to be timid! Courage Aya! I nodded opening the door, taking a step inside. I didn't even look at my classmates, just right at the teacher looking at me. I bowed to him and handed him the note from Hinata-chan.
"Oh, so you're feeling better," he asked, nodding at the piece of paper in his hands.
"Yes, I'm sorry to have caused you any trouble," I bowed again.
"It's alright, we wouldn't want our top student who tested in to be sick now would we?"
And immidiately I heared chattering happen. I looked around at my classmates and most of them looked at me with hatred in their eyes.
"She tested in? That means she's not from money..."
"Eww, we have someone like that in our class?"
"Can't we put her in the bottom class?"
Several of them started snickering loudly. The teacher pounded his hand on his podeum quieting everyone. I tried to remain strong, but it was a bit difficult since everyone seemed to be glaring at me.
"Alright quiet down, quiet down, we were discussing class presidents. Now, for girls, anyone want to volunteer?"
There was some chatter and laughing, "Why not make her class president!"
"M-Me?"
Some girls started giggling, "Yeah you! Are you deaf?"
"Enough of that!" The teacher turned his attention to me, "Is that alright with you?"
I bit my lip, I knew they were doing this only to bully me, but I was stronger than them, "Yes, I'd be glad too" I smiled brightly at him.
"Alright then, any boys-"
"I volunteer."
I looked up and smiled happily, Tadayoshi! I wasn't the only one with a reaction. The girls who were giggling at me were now pouting and complaining. Saying I wasn't fit to be class president.
Tadayoshi walked up to the front, and looked only at me, "We'll make a great team right?" He leaned in closer to my ear to whisper, "Are you feeling better now?"
I nodded with a big smile, "I've never been better!"
The teacher dismissed us back to our seats, but I wasn't sure where I was sitting exactly. Thankfully I had the seat right in front of Tadayoshi. I'd like to think he saved it for me, but I was probably just delusional. I sat down happily, looking to my left to see Yasuda smiling at me.
I knew I'd be depending on him and his smiles, because to my other side was a bunch of glares and terrible vibes.
My school days were just beginning!
Chapter Six
I'm not going to say it was easy at Saotome Academy, because it wasn't. The lessons seemed harder than from my previous school, and the girls were really cruel. They constantly bullied me, pushing me into lockers, or dirtying my uniform. What made it tolerable was Tadayoshi's and Yasuda-kun's support. Tadayoshi always had control over the girls, so they wouldn't do anything when I was with him. All the more reason to stay by his side, while trying to get my memories back. And Yasu constantly kept me cheerful, as his cheerfulness was contaigous.
They've become my good friends, in this past week.
But unfortunately, I haven't had another incident, nothing has come back. I'm constantly reminding myself to take it slow, not force it, but I'm really struggling with it.
With the studying, bullying, and no memories, now I'm still having to deal with Subaru here at home. I've still haven't been able to talk to him alone! He's always been the type to crawl into a shell and refuse to come out, but I thought I was his friend! I thought he would have had more courage to talk to me... He was making me so frustrated!
All afternoon, and through the evening, since I started my shift, I've been trying to get his attention. He's good at evading.
I looked across the registers at him, of course he refused to look at me. I huffed, "Ohhh, I wonder what Maru could be doing right now! Maybe we could hang out after work! Since he's my good friend and all~" I looked closely at Subaru to see his reaction. But he didn't give me one, it was like as if I had said nothing. I frowned, and continued to silently check out a customer.
I looked up at him, sad that I didn't have my friend, "So do you normally just kiss girls and then refuse to look at them?" This got his attention. "Was I a bad kisser or something?"
He looked up at me sharply, seeing my sad face, "Aya..." But he cleared his throat as our boss came walking up.
Our Boss stood in between us our two registers, "Good job today guys!"
I looked at my watch, it was already 10 at night, "Oh yeah, thank you Sir." I smiled at my replacement as I took off my store appointed apron and headed to the back to collect my things.
As I opened the doors Subaru followed right behind me, "Aya, I've never just kissed any girl."
"Why did you ignore me like that then?!" I couldn't hide my anger with him. "Do you have any idea what that meant to me Subaru?"
He was a bit shocked, "What it meant...?"
I grabbed my things and left the building, he following along beside me, "Yes Subaru! Because it was my first!"
He stopped walking, "You're frist kiss?"
I felt embarrassed, but tried to remain tough, "Well! I'm sorry! But we all can't-"
"You're angry I was your first kiss." It was like he made up his own mind that that was what I meant.
I looked at his sullen face, I was immidiately calmed down, "No... that's not why I'm mad..." I bit my lip, still embarrassed, "I'm mad because you wouldn't talk to me, and it made me feel lonely. It left me so confused...Out of nowhere you kiss me..."
He scratched his head, then threw it down to his side, "I did it because... BECAUSE I LIKE YOU AYA!"
My heart stopped, "You...?"
"I've liked you for a long time, and when the thought of losing you came to my mind I just had to kiss you!"
"Subaru...it's just Saotome-"
"Don't think you can downplay my feelings Aya!"
"I'm-I'm not! It's just-"
And then I was in his arms, tightly in his grasp, "I'm sorry I ignored you, but... I was too scared of what you might have said. But I'm not scared any more."
"S-Subaru..."
"Say you'll be my girlfriend Aya."
I closed my eyes, taking in his feelings, and remembering the times when I noticed him looking at me with that certain look in his eyes. This whole time I've been oblivious to his feelings, maybe I was ignoring them. Either way, I felt lost at what I should say. I never expected this.
"We've been friends this whole time, I don't know if I could see you like that Subaru," I said pathetically.
He put his hand under my chin lifting my face up, "If that's the way you feel, why don't I just kiss you again?"
My eyes started blinking rapidly, my lips trembled as he leaned down and kissed me. I naturally closed my eyes and kissed him back. Subaru...
'Aya..' Tadayoshi's voice rang in my head; my eyes sprung open. Why now?
I pushed Subaru away, "I'm-I'm sorry, but... I can't be your girlfriend."
"Why not?" He looked at me, lost and confused.
I've never seen him this way and it made me feel terrible inside.
I lost all of my confidence, "I..."
If I decided to date Subaru...Dating Subaru?
I could see us walking home from work together, holding hands, laughing about something Maru did. Hanging out at his apartment, listening to the beautiful songs he would sing. His hands playing with my hair, and telling me I was the best thing to ever happen to him. I could see it, really I could...being Subaru's girlfriend. It made me happy.
But if I decided to be with him, I wouldn't be able to hang out with Tadayoshi like I do at school. I'd feel way to guilty. I could always not tell Subaru about Tadayoshi, but I don't want to be that type of girl. So that means, I'd wouldn't be able to get my memories back... I don't even know if Tadayoshi is the key to my memories or not, but I'd loose my chance to find out! Could I live with that?
Tadayoshi and my memories... or Subaru, my best friend?
I looked up to meet his gaze, "I don't want to be your girlfriend... I... I like someone else."
At first he looked at me blankly, then slowly his frown turned to a smile, and then into laughter.
"S-Subaru?" I took a step towards him.
"So after all this time of swearing off guys, you fall in love with some other guy! And just like that! I miss my chance!"
I could feel my heart hurting, "You wouldn't understand..."
"ME?! I wouldn't understand?!"
My sadness was replaced with worry, "Subaru, listen, I still want to be friends!"
"Friends! Of course! At least I still have your friendship," he said sarcastically.
He was starting to hurt my feelings, "How could you say that...?"
Subaru calmed down a little, "Look, I'm sorry. Just... Just let me be alone for a while." That's when he turned and started walking away from me.
I couldn't leave it this way, I couldn't lose him like this.
"I'M GETTING MY MEMORIES BACK!" He stopped mid-step, shocked from what he heard, still facing away from me. His back looked so lonely, it was hard to look at. "That's why I can't be with you right now! I want my memories back Subaru! I need them!" My face was now getting soaked from my tears, "If I'm with you, I feel like I'll never be whole. I'll constantly be thinking about the chance I could have taken to find out who I really am!"
He slightly turned his body, his shoulders slouched and his face expressionless as he looked at me, "It's not a matter of finding out who you were... it's a matter of finding out who you can be, Aya."
For the first time I truly felt like Subaru was dissappointed with me, like he was talking to a child with silly dreams. I've never seen him look like such a man before, a man completely set in his ways, never looking back. It discouraged me.
Did I really make the right choice?
I sighed heavily the next day at school, my head lying on my crossed arms on my desk. I couldn't get a wink of sleep because all I could think about was Subaru's sad dissappointed face.
"I'm a terrible person," I moaned.
Yasuda poked his head in front of mine, "Why would Aya-chan be a terrible person?"
"Because of my ignorance and selfishness I've hurt someone close to me..."
He picked his head back up and sat on his desk next to mine, "People hurt each other all the time, it can't be helped. All you have to do is just continue to be there for that person, and they'll come around. No one could stay mad at you."
I weakly smiled, "Thanks for trying to cheer me up Yasuda-kun." But I continued to be down on myself, "We were friends... and he had to go and say that to me~" I covered my red face.
"Ahh~ a cofession of love!"
I quickly sat up and put my finger over my mouth, "SHH! Don't be so loud!"
He just laughed, "Ok ok. Shh.... SO! Then I'm guessing you turned him down?"
I plopped my head in my hands, "I did... I told him I liked someone else... and that I've-"
"Hmm, you... what?"
I looked up at him, he cutely looked at me, curiousnes in my eyes. Could I trust him? I smiled as I already knew the answer. I got up and grabbed his hand, much to his surprise, and lead him out of the room. We walked for a couple of minutes until I could find an empty hallway.
"What's wrong? Why did we come over here?"
"Listen, this is something really important to me, and I believe you could be my ally."
He tilted his head in confusion, "Ally?"
I bit my bottom lip, gaining some courage, "Eight years ago I was involved in a car accident that took my parents, and took my memories."
"Your memories..."
"Yes, my memories begin from the time I woke up at the hospital. And just recently I've been able to get a small piece of a memory back."
He genuinely looked happy for me, "That's great Aya-chan!"
I smiled, "Thanks! And you know, I think I figured out who is helping me get my memories back, though he probably doesn't know it, I mean I still find it a bit hard to believe but..." I saw Yasuda pursing his lips from lack of patience, "Ah, um, Tadayoshi-kun."
"OKURA?!"
I smacked him on the arm, "Be quiet!"
But he looked away from my eyes and started thinking about something, "I see, so you want me to help you try and get your memories back by.. what?"
"Well, I don't know exactly," and I really didn't know, "Provide opportunities for me... to hang out with him? But he can't know it because Hinata-chan said I can't force it..." I frowned, "I sound stupid, don't I Yasuda-kun..."
He giggled a bit, "Hm, no I don't like it."
"W-what? Really?" I couldn't believe he wasn't going to help me, I was suddenly so sad.
"Call me 'Yasu' from now on," he nodded, "Since we'll be allies, 'Yasuda-kun' sounds too formal."
I laughed, so relieved, "Ok!"
"And by the way, you don't sound stupid Aya-chan. Don't worry I'll see what I can do," he winked.
I was so happy I reached out and hugged him. But as I did, Tadayoshi walked around the corner, pausing as he saw us hugging. I quickly pulled away from Yasu, trying to think of something to say. My mind was a complete blank! If I didn't say anything Tadayoshi would just get ideas!
"Um, Yasu and I were just talking about, um-"
"We were talking about the Sports Fesitval we'd be having soon. I just cheered her on to gain courage to talk to the rest of the class, you know, since they're real pains."
Tadayoshi walked over, "I see...so... you call him Yasu now?"
Was Tadayoshi the jealous type? I wasn't sure what I should say, so I looked over to try and see if Yasu would say something for me again, but he was gone! I didn't even see him leave!
"Um, Tadayoshi-kun, would you like to talk about Sports Festival? Maybe together we can come up with some ideas?"
"I'd rather talk about you."
"I'd rather not..." it came out more of a protest than anything, but I was just trying to hide my embarrassement.
I walked past him and started heading back to our class room. He only took several steps to catch up to me, seeing he had longer strides than me. And kept up with my pace easily.
"So what were you really talking about with Yasu?"
I gulped, "He told you the truth, didn't he? You just have to believe him."
"Mm, you probably don't know this, but he sucks at lying. I can easily tell," he said with confidence.
I stopped walking suddenly, he jolted, turning around to face me, "If I told you I couldn't tell you, would you trust me and not ask me any more?" I seriously looked him in the eyes, this was so important to me.
It didn't take him long though, "Of course. I won't bother you about it any more."
"Thank you Tadayoshi." But I quickly kept going, "Ah, I mean, Tadayoshi-kun." It was too embarrassing just using his name.
"Mm...That sounds nice.. but, not the nicname I like most."
What could he be talking about? "Is there something else you'd like me to call you?"
He winked and put his finger to his lips, "That's a secret." He turned and walked away from me happily chuckling.
I stomped my foot, "You're being unfair! You have to keep a secret because I have one!?" I acted like I was upset, but really I was just happy to be with him like this.
I chased after him; both of us happily chatting away as we walked back to class together.
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I'm in a pretty good mood, so I decided to post 2 chapers today ^^
So how are you feeling? lol
Bye Bye :3
オメデトウ ( ^ _ ^)∠☆PAN！
I became an Eighter in the beginning of 2009. Before that though I had heard of Kanjani8 because of Ryo, I was a big time NEWS fan. And when I found out about Eito I thought they were so annoying and really hated them lol But then around the time of Musekinin Here and Wahaha, I started watching, I think it was Can!Jani, and Janiben :) And they were sooo funny! Even though I didn't understand what they were saying, I still found myself laughing like an idiot. So I started trying to find more and more of their shows, found more and more of their music, PV's, and concerts and eventually I found myself only listening to Eito ^^
Finding out their tough beginnings and how much they really bond, only strengthened my love for this band. And because of them I've been able to make so many awesome friends and meet so many wonderful Eighters :D I can't wait to see how much they'll evolve in the next 8 years! Ganbare Eito!
Previous Chapter
Chapter Five
I woke up slowly, my eye's opening and looking around. To my right was a pretty light pink curtain that was half way closed around me, and on the other side was the nurse. Her back was turned towards me, it looked like she was writing something down. I lifted my hand to my head and rubbed my temple... it wasn't hurting any more. How long have I been out of it?
I got up, alerting the nurse. She spun around in her chair, and for a moment I really thought she wasn't a nurse. She had the looks of a famous actress. It seems a lot of people who were at this school was like that.
"How are you feeling Miss Mori?"
"I'm feeling... better. But how long-"
She got up and walked over to the bed I was lying in, taking a seat next to me, "Only an hour."
"An hour?!" I was suddenly trying to get up out of bed, "What about my first class?!"
She put her hands on my shoulders keeping me down, "No way, you're staying put. I've already talked to your teacher and we both agreed for you to stay here until I'm ready to release you."
I pouted, "Then am I free to leave?"
"Why so quick to leave, hm" she asked curiously as she got back up to sit in her chair, and grabbing a notepad and pen.
I pulled the blanket back over my cold legs, "Oh, well, it's nothing... I just didn't want to start my time here like this."
"Would you like me to call your parents?"
"NO! Don't tell them anything about this!"
She was startled by my sudden outburst, but smiled either way, "Ok, I won't call them."
I blushed, "Thank you... um.."
"The students call me Hinata-chan."
"Ehhh..." I tilted my head in disbelief, "Things really are different here..."
"I don't mind it, I rather like it," she smiled. "So, let's get back to you. I was looking at your health records, and it seems you haven't had any previous accidents like this. The only thing I see here is that you lost your memories prior to being in an accident, probably from head trauma..."
I curled the blanket around me, not really wanting to tell her, but maybe she could help me figure out what was happening. Clearly my brain was trying to get it's memories back, but why here?
"Right, well, I've only had this happen to me once before. It was last week."
"I see... So take me step by step."
"Well, first I feel like my body refuses to move, when it starts happening. And suddenly my mind goes foggy, and somehow I see a boy standing in front of me playing..." I looked up embarrassed.
"What does the boy look like?" She noticed me looking at her,"Don't worry, you're among a friend, I only want to help you in figuring out what's wrong, ok," she said sweetly.
I smiled, more comfortable with talking. "Eh? Well..." I closed my eyes and thought about it, "He has dark hair that's combed to the side, and a nice looking outfit on. Mm, and... I think he's wearing a bracelet maybe?" I opened my eyes and sighed heavily, discouraged, "I don't know..."
"It's ok, it takes time. It's a good start!"
I felt better, "Ok.... well, after I see that boy, he looks at me and calls me Princess. And that's when the pain starts. A terrible pain that feels like a knife jabbing its way in deep. It doesn't last long, but still..."
"Hm, it seems something triggered your memories, well at least this boy to appear." She started writing fast on her notepad. "Can you tell me, was there anything similar in both cases, maybe you happened to see the same thing both times?
I thought about last week, when it happened I was looking at... My eyes got wide, Tadayoshi! He was there both times now!
She could tell I thought of something, "What is it?"
I looked down at the blanket, "The same boy... was there. Last time, and this time too."
"A boy?"
"Un... Okura Tadayoshi." I looked up at her and I could tell she was thinking. "Do you think he has been triggering my memories to come back?"
"That's quiet possible."
"W-what should I do? Should I ask him about it?" I was suddenly sitting up straight and at attention.
"I don't think it's wise to try and force it, Miss Mori. Otherwise your memories might not come back at all."
I was a bit let down, "I see..."
"What I suggest is hanging out with him more. If it happens again, you can be sure he's what's responsible," she could see the excitement on my face, "But remember, don't try and force it. Let it happen naturally." She laughed a bit, "You like him don't you?"
"W-What? No!" I bit my lip, "Well... maybe...I've only really met him today..."
She got up and help me to stand on my feet, "Hm, love at first sight?" She smiled, "Good luck Miss Mori. I wish you luck, in both love, and in finding your precious memories."
I smiled, "Thank you Hinata-chan!"
She laughed, "Ok, now hurry and go back to class. Take this note with you." She quickly wrote something out and handed me the note, "Oh! And don't be afraid to come talk to me about anything ok?"
"Thank you very much."
I bowed and left the nurses' office. Looking down at the note, and then down the hallway, I headed towards my class. The second class just started, so I shouldn't miss much. That means I'll have to ask for notes for my first class.... Since Hinata-chan said so, I'll ask Tadayoshi-kun for his help. Of course I couln't hide my smile at the thought of spending more time with him.
It might be a bit tricky to do so when we're not in school though. I have work after, and I live so far away. Plus, I'm sure he has a lot of stuff he has to do.... I guess I'll just have to take advantage of being in school with him!
But could he happen to be the young boy I'm remembering? What if he is? That would mean he'd would have been a childhood friend of mine?
I could feel myself getting worked up, so I took a deep breath and tried my best to put it out of my mind. "Don't force it."
I waited outside the door for a moment, a bit scared of opening it. But now wasn't the time to be timid! Courage Aya! I nodded opening the door, taking a step inside. I didn't even look at my classmates, just right at the teacher looking at me. I bowed to him and handed him the note from Hinata-chan.
"Oh, so you're feeling better," he asked, nodding at the piece of paper in his hands.
"Yes, I'm sorry to have caused you any trouble," I bowed again.
"It's alright, we wouldn't want our top student who tested in to be sick now would we?"
And immidiately I heared chattering happen. I looked around at my classmates and most of them looked at me with hatred in their eyes.
"She tested in? That means she's not from money..."
"Eww, we have someone like that in our class?"
"Can't we put her in the bottom class?"
Several of them started snickering loudly. The teacher pounded his hand on his podeum quieting everyone. I tried to remain strong, but it was a bit difficult since everyone seemed to be glaring at me.
"Alright quiet down, quiet down, we were discussing class presidents. Now, for girls, anyone want to volunteer?"
There was some chatter and laughing, "Why not make her class president!"
"M-Me?"
Some girls started giggling, "Yeah you! Are you deaf?"
"Enough of that!" The teacher turned his attention to me, "Is that alright with you?"
I bit my lip, I knew they were doing this only to bully me, but I was stronger than them, "Yes, I'd be glad too" I smiled brightly at him.
"Alright then, any boys-"
"I volunteer."
I looked up and smiled happily, Tadayoshi! I wasn't the only one with a reaction. The girls who were giggling at me were now pouting and complaining. Saying I wasn't fit to be class president.
Tadayoshi walked up to the front, and looked only at me, "We'll make a great team right?" He leaned in closer to my ear to whisper, "Are you feeling better now?"
I nodded with a big smile, "I've never been better!"
The teacher dismissed us back to our seats, but I wasn't sure where I was sitting exactly. Thankfully I had the seat right in front of Tadayoshi. I'd like to think he saved it for me, but I was probably just delusional. I sat down happily, looking to my left to see Yasuda smiling at me.
I knew I'd be depending on him and his smiles, because to my other side was a bunch of glares and terrible vibes.
My school days were just beginning!
Chapter Six
I'm not going to say it was easy at Saotome Academy, because it wasn't. The lessons seemed harder than from my previous school, and the girls were really cruel. They constantly bullied me, pushing me into lockers, or dirtying my uniform. What made it tolerable was Tadayoshi's and Yasuda-kun's support. Tadayoshi always had control over the girls, so they wouldn't do anything when I was with him. All the more reason to stay by his side, while trying to get my memories back. And Yasu constantly kept me cheerful, as his cheerfulness was contaigous.
They've become my good friends, in this past week.
But unfortunately, I haven't had another incident, nothing has come back. I'm constantly reminding myself to take it slow, not force it, but I'm really struggling with it.
With the studying, bullying, and no memories, now I'm still having to deal with Subaru here at home. I've still haven't been able to talk to him alone! He's always been the type to crawl into a shell and refuse to come out, but I thought I was his friend! I thought he would have had more courage to talk to me... He was making me so frustrated!
All afternoon, and through the evening, since I started my shift, I've been trying to get his attention. He's good at evading.
I looked across the registers at him, of course he refused to look at me. I huffed, "Ohhh, I wonder what Maru could be doing right now! Maybe we could hang out after work! Since he's my good friend and all~" I looked closely at Subaru to see his reaction. But he didn't give me one, it was like as if I had said nothing. I frowned, and continued to silently check out a customer.
I looked up at him, sad that I didn't have my friend, "So do you normally just kiss girls and then refuse to look at them?" This got his attention. "Was I a bad kisser or something?"
He looked up at me sharply, seeing my sad face, "Aya..." But he cleared his throat as our boss came walking up.
Our Boss stood in between us our two registers, "Good job today guys!"
I looked at my watch, it was already 10 at night, "Oh yeah, thank you Sir." I smiled at my replacement as I took off my store appointed apron and headed to the back to collect my things.
As I opened the doors Subaru followed right behind me, "Aya, I've never just kissed any girl."
"Why did you ignore me like that then?!" I couldn't hide my anger with him. "Do you have any idea what that meant to me Subaru?"
He was a bit shocked, "What it meant...?"
I grabbed my things and left the building, he following along beside me, "Yes Subaru! Because it was my first!"
He stopped walking, "You're frist kiss?"
I felt embarrassed, but tried to remain tough, "Well! I'm sorry! But we all can't-"
"You're angry I was your first kiss." It was like he made up his own mind that that was what I meant.
I looked at his sullen face, I was immidiately calmed down, "No... that's not why I'm mad..." I bit my lip, still embarrassed, "I'm mad because you wouldn't talk to me, and it made me feel lonely. It left me so confused...Out of nowhere you kiss me..."
He scratched his head, then threw it down to his side, "I did it because... BECAUSE I LIKE YOU AYA!"
My heart stopped, "You...?"
"I've liked you for a long time, and when the thought of losing you came to my mind I just had to kiss you!"
"Subaru...it's just Saotome-"
"Don't think you can downplay my feelings Aya!"
"I'm-I'm not! It's just-"
And then I was in his arms, tightly in his grasp, "I'm sorry I ignored you, but... I was too scared of what you might have said. But I'm not scared any more."
"S-Subaru..."
"Say you'll be my girlfriend Aya."
I closed my eyes, taking in his feelings, and remembering the times when I noticed him looking at me with that certain look in his eyes. This whole time I've been oblivious to his feelings, maybe I was ignoring them. Either way, I felt lost at what I should say. I never expected this.
"We've been friends this whole time, I don't know if I could see you like that Subaru," I said pathetically.
He put his hand under my chin lifting my face up, "If that's the way you feel, why don't I just kiss you again?"
My eyes started blinking rapidly, my lips trembled as he leaned down and kissed me. I naturally closed my eyes and kissed him back. Subaru...
'Aya..' Tadayoshi's voice rang in my head; my eyes sprung open. Why now?
I pushed Subaru away, "I'm-I'm sorry, but... I can't be your girlfriend."
"Why not?" He looked at me, lost and confused.
I've never seen him this way and it made me feel terrible inside.
I lost all of my confidence, "I..."
If I decided to date Subaru...Dating Subaru?
I could see us walking home from work together, holding hands, laughing about something Maru did. Hanging out at his apartment, listening to the beautiful songs he would sing. His hands playing with my hair, and telling me I was the best thing to ever happen to him. I could see it, really I could...being Subaru's girlfriend. It made me happy.
But if I decided to be with him, I wouldn't be able to hang out with Tadayoshi like I do at school. I'd feel way to guilty. I could always not tell Subaru about Tadayoshi, but I don't want to be that type of girl. So that means, I'd wouldn't be able to get my memories back... I don't even know if Tadayoshi is the key to my memories or not, but I'd loose my chance to find out! Could I live with that?
Tadayoshi and my memories... or Subaru, my best friend?
I looked up to meet his gaze, "I don't want to be your girlfriend... I... I like someone else."
At first he looked at me blankly, then slowly his frown turned to a smile, and then into laughter.
"S-Subaru?" I took a step towards him.
"So after all this time of swearing off guys, you fall in love with some other guy! And just like that! I miss my chance!"
I could feel my heart hurting, "You wouldn't understand..."
"ME?! I wouldn't understand?!"
My sadness was replaced with worry, "Subaru, listen, I still want to be friends!"
"Friends! Of course! At least I still have your friendship," he said sarcastically.
He was starting to hurt my feelings, "How could you say that...?"
Subaru calmed down a little, "Look, I'm sorry. Just... Just let me be alone for a while." That's when he turned and started walking away from me.
I couldn't leave it this way, I couldn't lose him like this.
"I'M GETTING MY MEMORIES BACK!" He stopped mid-step, shocked from what he heard, still facing away from me. His back looked so lonely, it was hard to look at. "That's why I can't be with you right now! I want my memories back Subaru! I need them!" My face was now getting soaked from my tears, "If I'm with you, I feel like I'll never be whole. I'll constantly be thinking about the chance I could have taken to find out who I really am!"
He slightly turned his body, his shoulders slouched and his face expressionless as he looked at me, "It's not a matter of finding out who you were... it's a matter of finding out who you can be, Aya."
For the first time I truly felt like Subaru was dissappointed with me, like he was talking to a child with silly dreams. I've never seen him look like such a man before, a man completely set in his ways, never looking back. It discouraged me.
Did I really make the right choice?
I sighed heavily the next day at school, my head lying on my crossed arms on my desk. I couldn't get a wink of sleep because all I could think about was Subaru's sad dissappointed face.
"I'm a terrible person," I moaned.
Yasuda poked his head in front of mine, "Why would Aya-chan be a terrible person?"
"Because of my ignorance and selfishness I've hurt someone close to me..."
He picked his head back up and sat on his desk next to mine, "People hurt each other all the time, it can't be helped. All you have to do is just continue to be there for that person, and they'll come around. No one could stay mad at you."
I weakly smiled, "Thanks for trying to cheer me up Yasuda-kun." But I continued to be down on myself, "We were friends... and he had to go and say that to me~" I covered my red face.
"Ahh~ a cofession of love!"
I quickly sat up and put my finger over my mouth, "SHH! Don't be so loud!"
He just laughed, "Ok ok. Shh.... SO! Then I'm guessing you turned him down?"
I plopped my head in my hands, "I did... I told him I liked someone else... and that I've-"
"Hmm, you... what?"
I looked up at him, he cutely looked at me, curiousnes in my eyes. Could I trust him? I smiled as I already knew the answer. I got up and grabbed his hand, much to his surprise, and lead him out of the room. We walked for a couple of minutes until I could find an empty hallway.
"What's wrong? Why did we come over here?"
"Listen, this is something really important to me, and I believe you could be my ally."
He tilted his head in confusion, "Ally?"
I bit my bottom lip, gaining some courage, "Eight years ago I was involved in a car accident that took my parents, and took my memories."
"Your memories..."
"Yes, my memories begin from the time I woke up at the hospital. And just recently I've been able to get a small piece of a memory back."
He genuinely looked happy for me, "That's great Aya-chan!"
I smiled, "Thanks! And you know, I think I figured out who is helping me get my memories back, though he probably doesn't know it, I mean I still find it a bit hard to believe but..." I saw Yasuda pursing his lips from lack of patience, "Ah, um, Tadayoshi-kun."
"OKURA?!"
I smacked him on the arm, "Be quiet!"
But he looked away from my eyes and started thinking about something, "I see, so you want me to help you try and get your memories back by.. what?"
"Well, I don't know exactly," and I really didn't know, "Provide opportunities for me... to hang out with him? But he can't know it because Hinata-chan said I can't force it..." I frowned, "I sound stupid, don't I Yasuda-kun..."
He giggled a bit, "Hm, no I don't like it."
"W-what? Really?" I couldn't believe he wasn't going to help me, I was suddenly so sad.
"Call me 'Yasu' from now on," he nodded, "Since we'll be allies, 'Yasuda-kun' sounds too formal."
I laughed, so relieved, "Ok!"
"And by the way, you don't sound stupid Aya-chan. Don't worry I'll see what I can do," he winked.
I was so happy I reached out and hugged him. But as I did, Tadayoshi walked around the corner, pausing as he saw us hugging. I quickly pulled away from Yasu, trying to think of something to say. My mind was a complete blank! If I didn't say anything Tadayoshi would just get ideas!
"Um, Yasu and I were just talking about, um-"
"We were talking about the Sports Fesitval we'd be having soon. I just cheered her on to gain courage to talk to the rest of the class, you know, since they're real pains."
Tadayoshi walked over, "I see...so... you call him Yasu now?"
Was Tadayoshi the jealous type? I wasn't sure what I should say, so I looked over to try and see if Yasu would say something for me again, but he was gone! I didn't even see him leave!
"Um, Tadayoshi-kun, would you like to talk about Sports Festival? Maybe together we can come up with some ideas?"
"I'd rather talk about you."
"I'd rather not..." it came out more of a protest than anything, but I was just trying to hide my embarrassement.
I walked past him and started heading back to our class room. He only took several steps to catch up to me, seeing he had longer strides than me. And kept up with my pace easily.
"So what were you really talking about with Yasu?"
I gulped, "He told you the truth, didn't he? You just have to believe him."
"Mm, you probably don't know this, but he sucks at lying. I can easily tell," he said with confidence.
I stopped walking suddenly, he jolted, turning around to face me, "If I told you I couldn't tell you, would you trust me and not ask me any more?" I seriously looked him in the eyes, this was so important to me.
It didn't take him long though, "Of course. I won't bother you about it any more."
"Thank you Tadayoshi." But I quickly kept going, "Ah, I mean, Tadayoshi-kun." It was too embarrassing just using his name.
"Mm...That sounds nice.. but, not the nicname I like most."
What could he be talking about? "Is there something else you'd like me to call you?"
He winked and put his finger to his lips, "That's a secret." He turned and walked away from me happily chuckling.
I stomped my foot, "You're being unfair! You have to keep a secret because I have one!?" I acted like I was upset, but really I was just happy to be with him like this.
I chased after him; both of us happily chatting away as we walked back to class together.
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I'm in a pretty good mood, so I decided to post 2 chapers today ^^
So how are you feeling? lol
Bye Bye :3