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feeling kinda gross and sick right now.
to begin with, i saw ivan today (see previous entry topic one) cause i was at pho with pearl and christina (just chilling before pearl goes to hk for the summer) and there's these asian boys sitting at the table behind me so im like okay whatever. then he walks in and i begin shaking and i have to stop eating and drop my chopsticks cause im shaking so uncontrollably. how could i have gotten so shaken over this boy?. so he sits with the boys at the table behind mine and he's facing me but i hve my back turned. appanretly he stared at me all through dinner, as my friends so nicely pointed out. then he left, and i got the sudden urge to run after him and smack him across the face. too bad i didn't.
right now johnjohn lam is my best godbrother just cause he's been there for me unfailingly through the past few weeks and he's been amazing. he makes me smile at the end of every bad day no matter how dramatic and ugly. he's just phenomenal like that. and i discovered that he had a girlfriend on sunday, the exgirlfriend of a friend of mine no less. (i must have had "don't tell me you have a girlfriend" somewhere on my face on sunday) but it was okay cause things weren't different or changed at all and he was still as reliable as ever. so we're supposed to go out tuesday night and grab some bubble tea and catch up from not seeing each other for over a year. and so tonight he tells me that it'll have to be a bit later cause he has to do something first, which is fine with me. but he never tells me what time or where we're meeting/going and now he's offline. so what do i do? i wait patiently now. just waiting for him to come back online and tell me cause i don't want to believe that he's become less reliable and whatnot.
again,
i feel really kinda sick.
like im gonna throw up soon.
guess who's headed (back) to a
life of smoking?
to begin with, i saw ivan today (see previous entry topic one) cause i was at pho with pearl and christina (just chilling before pearl goes to hk for the summer) and there's these asian boys sitting at the table behind me so im like okay whatever. then he walks in and i begin shaking and i have to stop eating and drop my chopsticks cause im shaking so uncontrollably. how could i have gotten so shaken over this boy?. so he sits with the boys at the table behind mine and he's facing me but i hve my back turned. appanretly he stared at me all through dinner, as my friends so nicely pointed out. then he left, and i got the sudden urge to run after him and smack him across the face. too bad i didn't.
right now johnjohn lam is my best godbrother just cause he's been there for me unfailingly through the past few weeks and he's been amazing. he makes me smile at the end of every bad day no matter how dramatic and ugly. he's just phenomenal like that. and i discovered that he had a girlfriend on sunday, the exgirlfriend of a friend of mine no less. (i must have had "don't tell me you have a girlfriend" somewhere on my face on sunday) but it was okay cause things weren't different or changed at all and he was still as reliable as ever. so we're supposed to go out tuesday night and grab some bubble tea and catch up from not seeing each other for over a year. and so tonight he tells me that it'll have to be a bit later cause he has to do something first, which is fine with me. but he never tells me what time or where we're meeting/going and now he's offline. so what do i do? i wait patiently now. just waiting for him to come back online and tell me cause i don't want to believe that he's become less reliable and whatnot.
again,
i feel really kinda sick.
like im gonna throw up soon.
guess who's headed (back) to a
life of smoking?