Jan 22, 2004 19:52
Manny just left right now... I have today and tomorrow off which is always sweet because I am so tired... tomorrow we get some alone time... we still have a very active sex life... I just love having sex with him, I love laying naked with him... I love when he holds me and we just fall asleep together... We talked about having kids... It doesnt seem we want to... I mean atleast not until we have the money to have them and if we dont then we dont have kids... Dont get me wrong but I love kids its just I am sure my mom might be a little upset when I move in with manny at 18... she might not want to pay for anything like some money on collage (not that she pays for anything anywaz)... so Manny and I will be struggling for a little bit... we might not have a big wedding and its all so funny cuz I dont care... I just want to be with him and I know he wants to be with me... when we turn 18 we are supposed to get each others names tattoo'd on our wedding fingers... I am finally going to get my nails re-done tomorrow which is always a plus... I am so serous about Manny... I know I am young... its just... I know that as long as both of us just want to be together theres nothing that is going to stop us... I feel so free when I am with him... you know? I am always laughing... he makes me smile... its just so hard to describe, I am myself when I am with him... hes just so wonderful... I am aware many might think this might now last forever and thats fine because I am going to follow my heart and let fait take hold and just go for the ride, see, I love him... thats all there is to it... I love everything about him... I am going to marry him and he wants to marry me...