LONG ENTRY IS LOOOONG
More updating. I just realized now that I don't necessarily write in this Journal so other people can see what I feel about things, I write more so I can go back and see how things have been progressing and what random things I like to write. xD I like to think a lot, since i'm alone a lot. (
I really want to go to church camp, church camp is fun. Only I don't have a swimsuit, so I can't go swimming. I'm not confident with how well I can swim, so i'm always too scared to go into the lake. xD I mean really, it's clear lake, which isn't clear, it's green...and Dagon might be down there! T_T (If you don't know who Dagon is, then go read some H. P. Lovecraft! D:< ) Sigh, and I don't have money, which is always a depressing issue.
I just got done reading Twilight and New Moon. They were good, not fantasmically awesome omg lol but I did really like them. Predictable, yes. At times cliche, yes. But It's good. :3 Good enough for me to want to read Eclipse when it comes out. Also, I find myself strangely a fan of the name Edward now, which I was passive about before I read this book. >_>; I'm about done with Khai of Khem, i'm enjoying it, like I thought I would. ^_^ I really should hurry up and read The End (A series of unfortunate events ) so I can give it back to Tyler... >.>;;;; I read that series up to like, book ten back in fourth and fifth grade, and I feel the need to finish it. >_<
My Freshman year ended last week. :D It wasn't as hard as I thought it'd be...my final grades could have been better but you know, at the end of year you're tired of school and no matter how determined I am I'm still lazy as crap. X_X
I'm back on them antidepressants. Which don't work. ajsdfklsdjflskfjlskfjsldf. I still get semi depressed at night. Like this one time when I was hanging out with some friends and they went to Subway, only I didn't have money and I was starving because we were running low on food at home (water and bread, anyone? >.>; ), and I started crying because I was feeling sorry for myself, because i'm poor. Ugh. Ashley and Reed got me something, which I was utterly grateful for, they didn't need to, I just like to feel sorry for myself. ._.;; Hillary seemed concerned, and was trying to console me out of my pitiful state, which I'm also grateful for. If you ever read this, ilu hillary. ...While Arrielle Amanda Ross and Justin contented themselves over in the corner not caring! [[anger rays! I am joking. xD]] I would have felt worse had they made a big deal out of it. And I still pull my hair, i've been able to keep from totally binging and giving myself another bald spot but ayesldkf.
The kittens ross gave me are so adorable. xD One hates me, and I dislike it back. Doesn't mean it's not cute. >": The other loves everyone and is very carinoso. <3333
What else..hmm...as of recent i've been trying to get a lucid dream. I got rather close earlier today. xDDDD I was attacking these weird things in my backyard that grew and looked semi like that plant from little shop of horrors...but alas, it was not to be.
Anime is a really geeky interest/hobby. But I must say, i'm not in the least bit ashamed to like it. A lot of anime fans I meet at conventions are just wicked awesome. I also like the internet. Internet is love. I also love my computer which I am so grateful to have. Without it I don't know. I near bawled my eyes out when I lost all of my music and a bunch of picture folders from it. Computers are another shameless hobby I have. Mines no high tech awesome thing, but it works rather well and I still love it.
Hillary bought me a Polaroid camera that I wish I could use. T_T Chernobyl has my fascinated with Chemistry. So now I love to abuse the radiation trefoil. x.x And gasmasks have become a fetish. Oh my. Well that expensive camera that I got I've been using...:D Go visit my Deviant art and look. http://frenchtoaster.deviantart.com Barb agree'd to fix our kitchen floor. So now we have some guys fixing the floor...putting new linoleum in. w00t. Someone in the family, possibly me mum, broke the refrigerator handle. x_X I've gotten into making collages. I've made four. ^-^ I even still have ideas for two more, just not enough resources.
My hopes for a new piano teacher fell through. The one I had in mind doesn't give summer lessons...and seems to be having personal problems right now...(Hope she gets them resolved, she sounded terrible over the phone ; - ; ) Sigh.
Hopefully this summer i'll be more social. Detasseling if I can, is a necessity. I owe Arrielle money from last years valleyfair trip and stuffs, and she says she'll pay for this years 2nd annual valleyfair-meet-up-with-internet-friends-around-the-area trip. Also, I badly want new clothes that actually fit me. .__. I want to get some colored plastic beads and make jewlery with them...i'll need to contact one of my friends and see if they feel the same way....
One thing i'm looking forward to is the fourth of July. Fourth of July is a very nostalgic time for me and I don't know why. It just always has been. Last year and I believe the year before that I hung out with Hillary...which was really fun. I hope she invites me again this year. ^ ^
I still don't have a crush. I feel really left out of the loop of a normal teenage girls' life. D; Heck, I've never had a boyfriend before. I'm not complaining, I could probably get to college without having ever had a boyfriend and be perfectly content. As long as I have good friends, I don't need a boyfriend to be happy. I've found myself to be fond of Imogen Heap, Billy Talent, Shiina Ringo, and Utada Hikaru as of recent. XD
Wendy's mum gave me a haircut, I kind of like it I suppose. It's better than the scraggly mop I had before. Mom said I would look like a mental patient if it was straight and not curly. ._. Thanks a lot mom. Jeez. Recently watched Interview with the Vampire. Being a Tom Cruise AND Brad Pitt movie, it was actually real good. XD I really liked it.
As of my relationships with friends...hmm.
Hillary: Still supportive, kind, and silly as ever. We still get in little skirmishes but hey, it'd be weird if we didn't.
Amanda: I talked to her about how me and hillary felt like we were losing her as a friend. We both felt like expendable friends to her. She felt rather bad about that and is trying harder now. Which is good. So i'm a bit closer to her.
Arrielle: I'm on good terms, she's been nice. Lucky bish got to go to Acen and see High and Mighty Color, and one of my favorite hide cosplayers. xD But yeah, and she's also trying to get me to get my drivers permit, and she says for my birthday she'll buy my five dollar permit id thing. and Possibly team up with wendy or something to get me new skullcandy headphones, yey! xDD
Wendy: Good terms with her, too. She recently became rather suicidal, and she wont tell me why. She seems better now. She's getting into WoW. ahaha. Gotta love the WoW. Speaking of mmorpg's...i'm on Ragnarok again. :DD This time on a free private server so I don't have to pay. <3 She also got to go to Acen. >>;;
Ross: My opinions are the same. He's immature and can be overbearing at times. But he's fine. He can be amusing. That is all I will say. He doesn't overly annoy me.
Justin: He hasn't been annoying me as much anymore. It's all good. Chyyyeah. Sorry, I couldn't resist. xD Black powahh..anyway. He has the same problems as Ross with me, immature, overbearing, etc etc.
Mason: haet haet haet can go die now plzkthx. In all seriousness, he has been more obnoxious and downright irritating. And offensive. moar haet ya. I'll be nice to him, and possibly tolerate him. But my my, when I need someone to take out my anger on, i'll go to him and use him as a human punching bag. If not, i'll resort to voodoo or something.
As for internet friends...
Emil bffs 4 lyfe maynnn lol goin ta canada to get our illegitimate childrenz den movin bak to hawaii to eat pineapple, but no Emil, i'm not smokin weed with you and your friends. Go fap to child pron ya bye.
Also, all love goes out to the other ones I luff. dat means u tabi jessie lauren bunny bunnys cousin umm travis andy and mai new italian friend Gon :D
also
X JAPAN IS REFORMING WITHOUT HIDE HOMG DDDD: I trust Yoshiki but I still have doubts...
DOCTOR WHO STILL RAWKS AND IS NOW STARTING A NEW SEASON without rose ; - ;
also i'm now officially a toy scout in dr. steels army of toy soldiers. <3
That is all.
Ya bye.
You are a PC
You're practical, thrifty, and able to do almost anything. Appearances and trends aren't important to you. You just like to get the job done.
Are You a Mac or a PC?
I really want to go to church camp, church camp is fun. Only I don't have a swimsuit, so I can't go swimming. I'm not confident with how well I can swim, so i'm always too scared to go into the lake. xD I mean really, it's clear lake, which isn't clear, it's green...and Dagon might be down there! T_T (If you don't know who Dagon is, then go read some H. P. Lovecraft! D:< ) Sigh, and I don't have money, which is always a depressing issue.
I just got done reading Twilight and New Moon. They were good, not fantasmically awesome omg lol but I did really like them. Predictable, yes. At times cliche, yes. But It's good. :3 Good enough for me to want to read Eclipse when it comes out. Also, I find myself strangely a fan of the name Edward now, which I was passive about before I read this book. >_>; I'm about done with Khai of Khem, i'm enjoying it, like I thought I would. ^_^ I really should hurry up and read The End (A series of unfortunate events ) so I can give it back to Tyler... >.>;;;; I read that series up to like, book ten back in fourth and fifth grade, and I feel the need to finish it. >_<
My Freshman year ended last week. :D It wasn't as hard as I thought it'd be...my final grades could have been better but you know, at the end of year you're tired of school and no matter how determined I am I'm still lazy as crap. X_X
I'm back on them antidepressants. Which don't work. ajsdfklsdjflskfjlskfjsldf. I still get semi depressed at night. Like this one time when I was hanging out with some friends and they went to Subway, only I didn't have money and I was starving because we were running low on food at home (water and bread, anyone? >.>; ), and I started crying because I was feeling sorry for myself, because i'm poor. Ugh. Ashley and Reed got me something, which I was utterly grateful for, they didn't need to, I just like to feel sorry for myself. ._.;; Hillary seemed concerned, and was trying to console me out of my pitiful state, which I'm also grateful for. If you ever read this, ilu hillary. ...While Arrielle Amanda Ross and Justin contented themselves over in the corner not caring! [[anger rays! I am joking. xD]] I would have felt worse had they made a big deal out of it. And I still pull my hair, i've been able to keep from totally binging and giving myself another bald spot but ayesldkf.
The kittens ross gave me are so adorable. xD One hates me, and I dislike it back. Doesn't mean it's not cute. >": The other loves everyone and is very carinoso. <3333
What else..hmm...as of recent i've been trying to get a lucid dream. I got rather close earlier today. xDDDD I was attacking these weird things in my backyard that grew and looked semi like that plant from little shop of horrors...but alas, it was not to be.
Anime is a really geeky interest/hobby. But I must say, i'm not in the least bit ashamed to like it. A lot of anime fans I meet at conventions are just wicked awesome. I also like the internet. Internet is love. I also love my computer which I am so grateful to have. Without it I don't know. I near bawled my eyes out when I lost all of my music and a bunch of picture folders from it. Computers are another shameless hobby I have. Mines no high tech awesome thing, but it works rather well and I still love it.
Hillary bought me a Polaroid camera that I wish I could use. T_T Chernobyl has my fascinated with Chemistry. So now I love to abuse the radiation trefoil. x.x And gasmasks have become a fetish. Oh my. Well that expensive camera that I got I've been using...:D Go visit my Deviant art and look. http://frenchtoaster.deviantart.com Barb agree'd to fix our kitchen floor. So now we have some guys fixing the floor...putting new linoleum in. w00t. Someone in the family, possibly me mum, broke the refrigerator handle. x_X I've gotten into making collages. I've made four. ^-^ I even still have ideas for two more, just not enough resources.
My hopes for a new piano teacher fell through. The one I had in mind doesn't give summer lessons...and seems to be having personal problems right now...(Hope she gets them resolved, she sounded terrible over the phone ; - ; ) Sigh.
Hopefully this summer i'll be more social. Detasseling if I can, is a necessity. I owe Arrielle money from last years valleyfair trip and stuffs, and she says she'll pay for this years 2nd annual valleyfair-meet-up-with-internet-friends-around-the-area trip. Also, I badly want new clothes that actually fit me. .__. I want to get some colored plastic beads and make jewlery with them...i'll need to contact one of my friends and see if they feel the same way....
One thing i'm looking forward to is the fourth of July. Fourth of July is a very nostalgic time for me and I don't know why. It just always has been. Last year and I believe the year before that I hung out with Hillary...which was really fun. I hope she invites me again this year. ^ ^
I still don't have a crush. I feel really left out of the loop of a normal teenage girls' life. D; Heck, I've never had a boyfriend before. I'm not complaining, I could probably get to college without having ever had a boyfriend and be perfectly content. As long as I have good friends, I don't need a boyfriend to be happy. I've found myself to be fond of Imogen Heap, Billy Talent, Shiina Ringo, and Utada Hikaru as of recent. XD
Wendy's mum gave me a haircut, I kind of like it I suppose. It's better than the scraggly mop I had before. Mom said I would look like a mental patient if it was straight and not curly. ._. Thanks a lot mom. Jeez. Recently watched Interview with the Vampire. Being a Tom Cruise AND Brad Pitt movie, it was actually real good. XD I really liked it.
As of my relationships with friends...hmm.
Hillary: Still supportive, kind, and silly as ever. We still get in little skirmishes but hey, it'd be weird if we didn't.
Amanda: I talked to her about how me and hillary felt like we were losing her as a friend. We both felt like expendable friends to her. She felt rather bad about that and is trying harder now. Which is good. So i'm a bit closer to her.
Arrielle: I'm on good terms, she's been nice. Lucky bish got to go to Acen and see High and Mighty Color, and one of my favorite hide cosplayers. xD But yeah, and she's also trying to get me to get my drivers permit, and she says for my birthday she'll buy my five dollar permit id thing. and Possibly team up with wendy or something to get me new skullcandy headphones, yey! xDD
Wendy: Good terms with her, too. She recently became rather suicidal, and she wont tell me why. She seems better now. She's getting into WoW. ahaha. Gotta love the WoW. Speaking of mmorpg's...i'm on Ragnarok again. :DD This time on a free private server so I don't have to pay. <3 She also got to go to Acen. >>;;
Ross: My opinions are the same. He's immature and can be overbearing at times. But he's fine. He can be amusing. That is all I will say. He doesn't overly annoy me.
Justin: He hasn't been annoying me as much anymore. It's all good. Chyyyeah. Sorry, I couldn't resist. xD Black powahh..anyway. He has the same problems as Ross with me, immature, overbearing, etc etc.
Mason: haet haet haet can go die now plzkthx. In all seriousness, he has been more obnoxious and downright irritating. And offensive. moar haet ya. I'll be nice to him, and possibly tolerate him. But my my, when I need someone to take out my anger on, i'll go to him and use him as a human punching bag. If not, i'll resort to voodoo or something.
As for internet friends...
Emil bffs 4 lyfe maynnn lol goin ta canada to get our illegitimate childrenz den movin bak to hawaii to eat pineapple, but no Emil, i'm not smokin weed with you and your friends. Go fap to child pron ya bye.
Also, all love goes out to the other ones I luff. dat means u tabi jessie lauren bunny bunnys cousin umm travis andy and mai new italian friend Gon :D
also
X JAPAN IS REFORMING WITHOUT HIDE HOMG DDDD: I trust Yoshiki but I still have doubts...
DOCTOR WHO STILL RAWKS AND IS NOW STARTING A NEW SEASON without rose ; - ;
also i'm now officially a toy scout in dr. steels army of toy soldiers. <3
That is all.
Ya bye.
You are a PC
You're practical, thrifty, and able to do almost anything. Appearances and trends aren't important to you. You just like to get the job done.
Are You a Mac or a PC?