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Sometimes I feel like I'm fighting myself and fighting between what I think is right and what my heart is telling me. I know the way I have been treating myself is unhealthy for me and unhealthy for our relationship.
We live separate lives, have set different goals for ourselves, and have separate priorities. Sometimes I wonder if I am even a priority in his life because I know he is a priority in mine. I love him more than anything else and am willing to do whatever it takes to keep things together. Often times I don't feel appreciated or feel like I'm on the edge of losing him. I know that I don't have to put myself through what I have been through and just let it go...but it is easier said than done. I don't want to let go, and I'm willing to try to make things work. It's hard to make things work when it's usually something out of my control and that I have put all the time and effort that I have into this relationship already as it is. It seems as if our relationship has no value except in my eyes...and it hurts. I can only try and handle so much and I'm not willing to give up at this point but if my efforts go unseen and unappreciated, I don't know what more there is for me to do. I have done my very best and I know I am strong enough to hold on to what is left of our relationship but at the same time I know I have the strength to move on...
We live separate lives, have set different goals for ourselves, and have separate priorities. Sometimes I wonder if I am even a priority in his life because I know he is a priority in mine. I love him more than anything else and am willing to do whatever it takes to keep things together. Often times I don't feel appreciated or feel like I'm on the edge of losing him. I know that I don't have to put myself through what I have been through and just let it go...but it is easier said than done. I don't want to let go, and I'm willing to try to make things work. It's hard to make things work when it's usually something out of my control and that I have put all the time and effort that I have into this relationship already as it is. It seems as if our relationship has no value except in my eyes...and it hurts. I can only try and handle so much and I'm not willing to give up at this point but if my efforts go unseen and unappreciated, I don't know what more there is for me to do. I have done my very best and I know I am strong enough to hold on to what is left of our relationship but at the same time I know I have the strength to move on...