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i'm mildly, dully depressed today. i feel a little better now that im back in my own space after travelling back from rufoustan. i just feel weird. not totally horrible, just like im seeing things from someone else's eyes and i want to have my usual perspective back. im not really overly excited about anything right now, and usually something has me bursting at the seams.
life is, of course, a balancing act.. and it feels as though whenever i get one thing straigtened out, something else suffers. at the very least i am however preforming all my duties in a mediocre fashion, which is better than not at all, i suppose. (comma death)...
• personal relationships: this part i feel pretty good about right now, although i should see my friends more often.
• mental health: getting by okay here. should probably see my counselor at eciad for someone to talk to. i think i've recovered okay from the abortion and dont feel too horrible about that right now.
• finances: i could be better at spending money, and i could be making my own money instead of being wholly dependant on my education fund -- but okay.
• school: attendance is mediocre, participation in class & general enthusiasm is good... getting assignments done i could definitely work harder at.
• organization: apartment is nice and clean - still need to finish and sort laundry... need to use daily planner more.
• personally: a bit of smug satisfaction in that i am living the life i had planned for myself and dreamed about for so long. i want to be making more things, taking more pictures, coming up with more ideas, doing random acts of kindness/senseless acts of beauty (corny - i know) etc etc. but who ever really lives to our full potential? or do we and just dream that our potential is better than it really is?
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• i just did my budget. i can afford to spend 10$ a day until march 15th :) i just hope that my cellphone bill arrives closer to that date than now. i applied for a second credit card. dangerous, i know, but i want to get an ipod.
• i need to stop talking about it and actually get out there and get a job. it would be nice to have more money to play around with.
• i've been ripping CDs for the past while. fun.
• the iskin i bought for my apple pro keyboard is good for keeping pesky crumbs out, but because it's made of gummy/tacky silicone, it attracts dust and kitty hair like a magnet.
i also kept track of my period this month, and if i include light to heavy spotting (ie. where my panties dont remain spotless), i have my period for over 12 days. what the hell? is that normal?
life is, of course, a balancing act.. and it feels as though whenever i get one thing straigtened out, something else suffers. at the very least i am however preforming all my duties in a mediocre fashion, which is better than not at all, i suppose. (comma death)...
• personal relationships: this part i feel pretty good about right now, although i should see my friends more often.
• mental health: getting by okay here. should probably see my counselor at eciad for someone to talk to. i think i've recovered okay from the abortion and dont feel too horrible about that right now.
• finances: i could be better at spending money, and i could be making my own money instead of being wholly dependant on my education fund -- but okay.
• school: attendance is mediocre, participation in class & general enthusiasm is good... getting assignments done i could definitely work harder at.
• organization: apartment is nice and clean - still need to finish and sort laundry... need to use daily planner more.
• personally: a bit of smug satisfaction in that i am living the life i had planned for myself and dreamed about for so long. i want to be making more things, taking more pictures, coming up with more ideas, doing random acts of kindness/senseless acts of beauty (corny - i know) etc etc. but who ever really lives to our full potential? or do we and just dream that our potential is better than it really is?
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• i just did my budget. i can afford to spend 10$ a day until march 15th :) i just hope that my cellphone bill arrives closer to that date than now. i applied for a second credit card. dangerous, i know, but i want to get an ipod.
• i need to stop talking about it and actually get out there and get a job. it would be nice to have more money to play around with.
• i've been ripping CDs for the past while. fun.
• the iskin i bought for my apple pro keyboard is good for keeping pesky crumbs out, but because it's made of gummy/tacky silicone, it attracts dust and kitty hair like a magnet.
i also kept track of my period this month, and if i include light to heavy spotting (ie. where my panties dont remain spotless), i have my period for over 12 days. what the hell? is that normal?